Please Help Me With Him

[HopelessAndStressed]

So first off let me say that I met B about a year and a half or lets say two years ago and we clicked right from the start. We looked at each other and instantly, there was something there, whether is was a friendship or romantic, I do not know, but there was something. We talked for days on days about endless amount of things and after a week of knowing each other decided to date. This worked for two days and we were like "no this is stupid. We are just friends" and "broke up". Well, B then went on a dated two girls, i still had some feelings for him, but they weren't anything strong at all. We became best friends. Four months had past since the time we met and he officially asked me out. About a month after us dating again he said that he wanted to break up because he was "confused about his feelings" towards me. I didn't take it very hard, it was only a month. He called me that night and said "I didn't realize what I got rid of" and asked me out again. I took him back and we acted like nothing happened. Two months passed and we finally dropped the "L" bomb and things were going great. Around March, we broke up and I took it extremely hard, we didn't talk for months. He started to text me again about three months later asking how I was and I didn't know who he was due to the fact that he had changed his number. When he finally told me who he was, we decided we were ready to become friends again. We then became best friends. We were inseparable, I still at this point had feelings for him, but I could control them. I watched him date other women, even kiss them, and yes I was hurt, but I wanted him to be happy.

Now this past December, we are still best friends. We talk every day, we go to movies, we go to dinner, we are inseparable still. And he tells me that he still loves me and he wants to get back together, we do and we have a great time...for a week. We break up and become "friends with benefits" for awhile. Out of no where, we just stop. And now here I am, everyday after hanging out with him, wondering how I can get him back, should I even try to get him back? I love him. He's my best friend. I don't know if I should get away from him for awhile even though it will hurt, or keep doing this to myself. He doesn't know I still have feelings for him, but I don't want to risk our friendship. I am just at such a lost, anyone have any advice?!

[Popcorn]

I can't really give you any advice, but I suppose what I can give you might be helpful :p I know how you feel, falling in and out of love and friendship with someone. I had a boyfriend who I cared for deeply as a friend. We would break up and get back together all the time and it was exhausting. I finally had to end everything with him, which I hate. I wish i could still be friends with him, but every time I tried to hang out with him purely as friends it would end up being more. The whole emotional rollercoaster thing. I guess what I would say is tell him how you feel. If he doesn't feel the same, then maybe it will help you to move on and just be friends. If he feels the same, you can both decide how you want to proceed. But honestly he seems to be controlling you, maybe using you. I would advise you not to get back together with him, don't you think you will just break up again? Think of your happiness and the turmoil I know this is causing you. I'm sure I wasn't very helpful, but i figure it's comforting to know someone knows how you feel :)