I'm in love with my best friend. **LAST UPDATE**

[Renacatalepsy]

It's been so hard to find problems like mine for my sexuality. I'm gay... mostly.

This is a dilemma I've been doing with for months now.

I've been crushing really hard on my best friend. She's adorable, hilarious, and we're into the same shit. We're both somewhat bi. I'll call her N.

I told her I liked her because we're close enough to where I'd be confident.

I told N that she didn't need to give me an answer right away, because we're good friends who both go through clingy attention-whore spurts.

Especially after that I kept getting mixed signals - she had began hugging me a lot after that and got physically closer to me in general. However, she also talks a lot about cute guys or girls she may come across on social media. I casually agree though it hurts.

Eventually, she'd let me known that she pushed away her feelings for me because they had proven to be her feeling very lonely, especially going through hard times right now.

Since she's told me, she's been especially flirtatious. Complimenting me a lot more, Just sending these vibes I can feel and it's confusing me. The most recent and memorable interaction was us talking about those candy chokers you put around your neck. She said, "I'll put one on and then you can eat it off me." She's not very interested in sex.


So, based upon what I've experienced... Does she seem to fuckin like me or not? I've been dreading the past few days because of how confused I am.


Update: She sent me a Tumblr post today that talked about how people could jokingly call a kiss a face battle. She asked me to "face battle" her and I don't know if it was a joke.

I didn't try any sort of flirting today, since she wasn't at school.



LAST UPDATE****


I had a serious talk with her about what we would do. She told me she wouldn't match up her feelings with mine. I accept that. We decided to be the center of affection for each other until we find partners. I accept that. I am lucky to have her in my life as my friend.

[Croconaw]

Hello, and welcome to the site. By what she is doing, she does seem to like you. As a friend, or a lover, she is the only one who can tell you for sure. As you are close friends with her, maybe she doesn’t want to hurt your feelings seeing as you did tell her about your feelings. That, or maybe she just isn’t sure yet.

You said she flirts with you. I would suggest flirting back a little, and see how she responds to it. Does she like it, or does she look uncomfortable. I think testing the waters would be good. Try flirting back and see how she responds. Good luck.

[Renacatalepsy]

Hello, and welcome to the site. By what she is doing, she does seem to like you. As a friend, or a lover, she is the only one who can tell you for sure. As you are close friends with her, maybe she doesn’t want to hurt your feelings seeing as you did tell her about your feelings. That, or maybe she just isn’t sure yet.

You said she flirts with you. I would suggest flirting back a little, and see how she responds to it. Does she like it, or does she look uncomfortable. I think testing the waters would be good. Try flirting back and see how she responds. Good luck.



Hello, and thanks.I don't think she's doing it to not hurt my feelings, because I specifically told her there was no pressure to say yes (her ex had guilt tripped her with suicide). I also said that no matter the answer that nothing would change. Knowing her , she probably would still feel bad, but I don't think it's to the extreme where she'd flirt to make me feel better.

I'll try what you suggest and get back with results sometime soon.