I think I might be ill

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Hello This is my first post to this website. I'm worried that i might have developed schizophrenia, at first i just found similarities between the disease and myself such as forgetting things drawing crazy conclusions and i also hallucinate which include small sparks or elaborate patterns would suddenly pop up out of no where that would then blend back in with reality. Then i remember a time in my life about back in grade 9 in second semester the first time i can remember seeing those sparks. During that time i thought i was receiving messages from the television, feeling depressed about nothing, skipping school i was also getting this sense that i could see into the future through my dreams and then what i saw in my dreams would really happen i was so convinced even now. Everything in grade 9 seemed to suddenly stop and i thought nothing of it until pretty much this year when i started to learn about mental illnesses. I'm not asking for a diagnosis or anything i just want some outside help since i don't think i can help myself (not to sound despairing i just need some advice). Feel free to ask me the specifics about what I've just described.

[PicklesEatCookies]

Hi. :)
I started relating to a few schizophrenia signs..the paranoia(almost constant still got lots of it),once in a while i would have deja vu,getting depressed over the silliest things or nothing at all. i had no idea schizophrenia even existed. but then i told my cousin how i felt and he said that he thought i was schizophrenic. so i looked it up. i relate to some of the things..i'd reccomend looking it up or something. it kinda helped me alittle and stuff...not sure how but yeahh..it all started happening in about almost 7th grade. now im almost in 9th. sorry if i didnt really help. i know i probably didnt lol or didnt at all lol

[thesphinx]

you sound it :/

If you don't have anything helpful to say just don't say it.

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Hello thank you for the responses, after some thinking and deciding these certain aspects of my pyske i realize now that im a creative person, not schizophrenic. I was worried for quite some time that i might be ill but in reality i probabky am not. Its more a coincidence that things about myself are related to this degenrative and damaging illness. Everything i said was true without a doubt but I just happen and am very lucky to just be a normal guy i just have a different brain chemistry people like me basically artists in general have there whole identiies rooted into what can be considered madness while in actuallity its just the way I am. My expeirences while they may appear to have stemmed from a diesease, actually are rooted in general mental instablilty instead but thank you for the replies.