NotQuiteANerd97
March 4th, 2018, 11:59 PM
I’ve considered myself bisexual for a long time.I’ve had sex with several guys, but very few guys elicit romantic attraction. It’s mostly sexual. I’ve been on several dates with girls but never made it past 2nd base.
Anyway, for the last few months I’ve been craving a relationship with a girl. I haven’t had one since I was 15. Just seeing a beautiful woman can make me emotional. I just wish I had one to share my life with and be super close to and hold at night. But considering how poor my luck with them has been since high school, never making it past a date or two in five years (and I have no idea what I’m doing wrong), and how few matches I get on tinder, it’s clear that there’s something wrong with me, and from what I can tell it’s bevause I’ve become too desperate. I can’t help it, I just crave love and I hate it. It’s gotten me nowhere. I wanna be like my roommate and not give a shit about it and get so caught up in something that I can’t think about it. I have plenty of hobbies but none of them have truly filled that void, if anything they just expose me to couples and make me jealous.
I just started Klonopin and I hope it’ll calm my nerves and help ease the painful thoughts, but it’s too early to tell. Just seeing an affectionate couple in public irritates me and makes me envious and sometimes sad. I just wish my brain would shut up. I’m tired of screwing a small handful of guys with no strings attached. I’m ready to move on, but it seems almost impossible for things to change.
I don’t hate myself, I think I’m pretty cool. I’m just frustrated with myself for being such a little bitc h and craving something so first-world and unnecessary. Any tips?
Anyway, for the last few months I’ve been craving a relationship with a girl. I haven’t had one since I was 15. Just seeing a beautiful woman can make me emotional. I just wish I had one to share my life with and be super close to and hold at night. But considering how poor my luck with them has been since high school, never making it past a date or two in five years (and I have no idea what I’m doing wrong), and how few matches I get on tinder, it’s clear that there’s something wrong with me, and from what I can tell it’s bevause I’ve become too desperate. I can’t help it, I just crave love and I hate it. It’s gotten me nowhere. I wanna be like my roommate and not give a shit about it and get so caught up in something that I can’t think about it. I have plenty of hobbies but none of them have truly filled that void, if anything they just expose me to couples and make me jealous.
I just started Klonopin and I hope it’ll calm my nerves and help ease the painful thoughts, but it’s too early to tell. Just seeing an affectionate couple in public irritates me and makes me envious and sometimes sad. I just wish my brain would shut up. I’m tired of screwing a small handful of guys with no strings attached. I’m ready to move on, but it seems almost impossible for things to change.
I don’t hate myself, I think I’m pretty cool. I’m just frustrated with myself for being such a little bitc h and craving something so first-world and unnecessary. Any tips?