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[Atonement]

Tonight I had all intentions of killing myself to be honest. I felt over whelmed and unstable. I honestly almost did. But, I stopped myself and now, I am feeling better and being a little more cheery. Thanks to you who helped. You know who you are.

Sorry for the bad news

[theOperaGhost]

I felt like that Friday night. I almost did, but someone calmed me down and I slept it off and felt better the next day. I'm still very uncomfortable around the people that almost caused me to kill myself. I thought they were my friends. I don't think I would have the balls to kill myself anyway.

[Atonement]

I almost did. I would have. But someone saved me.

[theOperaGhost]

I'm glad you didn't.

[electric7rocker]

wow... im so sorry i wasnt here to help. i was spending time with my dad. geez.. im really glad youre ok now.

[Atonement]

thanks...

[Malcolm Tucker]

Addison I hope you are feeling okk, just don't do anythingstupid ok :) I'm glad you're here.

[Atonement]

... nice to know I considered something stupid thus making me stupid. Great? ha.

[electric7rocker]

nuh uh youre not stupid. you didnt do it right....?

[Atonement]

Well no. But I was close, so close I cant even imagine anymore.

[Serenity]

The good thing is that you didn't and thank God for that. Remember, getting over the need to self harm is going to be a long and treacherous fight. You have to prepare yourself for it. But by overcoming this struggle last night, you've made great progress in your power of will and determination. No one stopped you from doing it but yourself, and that means only you can stop yourself from cutting. Fight your battles one at a time, keep hope alive, and never stop believing in yourself.

:hug:

[Gavin]

It's nice to know that you're ok and that the person who did stop you did a great job

[Patchy]

I'm so glad you stopped yourself, it's good to know that you managed to take control of the situation and stop yourself before you did something stupid.

Hope your starting to feel ok now

[Atonement]

One struggle down, a million to go. :D

[Serenity]

:hug:

[Atonement]

oh, such a valerie response. lol

[Serenity]

lol do you want another motivational speech? You know I have plenty :P

[Atonement]

no thanks lol. Just funny

[Serenity]

My work here is done then :P

[Atonement]

Almost again. So close but I just collapsed and couldn't do it... I wanted to so bad and still do. But I just didn't have the will power. I dont know what to do anymore. My life is no longer crashing down before me, it is already ruined. I just cant seem to handle this.


So close but so far away from doing it... Sorry.

[theOperaGhost]

I don't think you really want to kill yourself. I mean there's no doubt you've tried, but if you really wanted to stop living, you would have already. You obviously have something to live for. Just keep on keeping on. Don't hurt yourself and stay strong.

[Serenity]

:hug:

Stay strong, Addi. You know we're all here for you :)

[Atonement]

I know nothing of the sort anymore. I was even on VT right before I tried... but no, I failed.

[theOperaGhost]

I'm glad you failed at killing yourself. I wouldn't consider it a failure though. It's a good thing you didn't do it, so it's not a failure.

[Atonement]

But I did fail. I didnt accomplish my objective. I wish I wouldve, but I just couldnt. The time wasn't right yet.

[theOperaGhost]

That's right the time wasn't right yet. Your too young to die man. Keep your head up.

[Atonement]

Even if now wasnt right, I think my time is soon. At least, I hope. Sorry.

[theOperaGhost]

Well I guess its your choice. You are your own person. I just hope you don't do it. But I can't stop you. I tried. :( I'm still not going to give up on you.