shaving my head

[hiwelcometochilis]

hi!!! i'm having some trouble deciding whether or not i should go through with shaving my head. personally i have a lot of pros and some cons, but i'm not sure if the cons will outweigh the pros in the long run. as far as cons go, i'm on the chubbier side of things. i'm concerned that i will look "fatter" with a buzzcut. this isn't a huge deal in the grand scheme of things, but i have dealt with being self conscious about my weight many times. i'm scared it will sit with me the wrong way and i will feel ugly or undesirable. i'm also kind of scared of the growing out process. there are definitely going to be awkward phases that will suck. however, i am at the end of the road of growing out a pixie cut, and i have some tips and tricks up my sleeve. that being said, i also know how much growing out short hair sucks. however, i really think i want to do this. my my pros are pretty extensive. first of all, i just want to do it at some point in my life. and if i'm ever going to, i think the timing is perfect. i want to go into medicine, which is a pretty conservative field of study (one where a girl with a shaved head could be kind of questionable, as opposed to something like the arts). i have thought about shaving my head in college as a sort of act of freedom, but it could unfortunately limit me from some experiences. i am a freshman in high school now. (i should also mention i go to a school for the arts that is very liberal and open minded. there wouldn't be any great disruption of events if is showed up one day with no hair.) if i shaved my head right now, it would be fully grown out by the time i started really applying for colleges. as far as timing and setting, right now is optimal. (i just don't know if i'm ready yet.) i'm afraid if i don't do it now, i never will- and i'll hate myself for not doing it at some point. also, i could take the opportunity to raise money for cancer research through st. baldricks. my hair isn't quite long enough to donate i'm pretty sure, but this could work too. it will be a fun experience, and definitely a conversation starter. and don't even get me started on how amazing it will feel, lmao. when i had a pixie cut, the general experience was positive. there were some downsides, obviously, but i worked through it. my understanding is that this will be a similar experience, although maybe a little more traumatic, lmao.

at the end of the day, it's just hair. it will grow back if i want it to. life will go on. there are people who have no control over the loss of their hair, and i am very privileged to be able to consciously make a choice about it. i am definitely leading towards doing it within the next month or so, but i just need that final little push to do it. if anyone has any advice or input, it would be greatly appreciated!!!

-ps, there is a small gang of like four girls at my school with shaved heads. i love them.