confused/sad rant

[AdolescentBoyBlue]

Lately i just have been extremely depressed which is weird because for the last few months i was unable to feel anything that also happened suddenly...im wondering if i should get my medicine back..all i want is to sleep and just stay asleep,feel pretty beat up,dont really talk at all but then again i have never liked to talk at all even as a child. I know some people wish for redos or change.not me,i wish that i never happened.it doesnt make me feel bad because i know im the troublesome one in my family. Im not the golden bot they tried to make me.

[ksdnfkfr]

Lately i just have been extremely depressed which is weird because for the last few months i was unable to feel anything that also happened suddenly...im wondering if i should get my medicine back..all i want is to sleep and just stay asleep,feel pretty beat up,dont really talk at all but then again i have never liked to talk at all even as a child. I know some people wish for redos or change.not me,i wish that i never happened.it doesnt make me feel bad because i know im the troublesome one in my family. Im not the golden bot they tried to make me.

Can relate to all of that my friend. Thing with meds is they can have long lasting effect after you go off them, but the brain chemistry can go out of whack again.