I'm different and it sucks.

[RyderTheHuman]

Ryder / 18 / Male / INTJ.

I am a homosexual male who has antisocial tendencies. I isolate myself often and only reach out when I know that I am not doing well. That is why I am here now.
I am a recovering addict and I suffer from some severe mental/physical handicaps. I've recently been released from the mental hospital. I have nobody.
I grew up quick and life has never been easy. I lost my best friend over the summer.
I love music and drawing. I am a hobbyist filmmaker. I play games often.
Mountains are cool. Aliens are fascinating.
I tend to perceive things very strongly -- including things like abandonment and insecurity.
I am very loyal and generally a romantic person.

Some people feel like they are driven by sports. Money. Imagination.

I have understanding that I am driven by the concept of love. Without love, my existence is lacking.

[Just JT]

Well welcome to VT hope you enjoy this place. There’s lots of good people I’m sure are willing to be friends if you let them in your life bro

I for 1 get what your saying. There’s plenty who grew up hast and wrong here. Take your time and get to know some of us. Makes life a bit more bareable sometimes

[Abyssal Echo]

Welcome to VT!

[Dalcourt]

Well a lot of people are different here so I don't think it will be much of a problem.
Hope you have a good time and find some friends.

[Tim the Enchanter]

Ryder / 18 / Male / INTJ.

I am a homosexual male who has antisocial tendencies. I isolate myself often and only reach out when I know that I am not doing well. That is why I am here now.
I am a recovering addict and I suffer from some severe mental/physical handicaps. I've recently been released from the mental hospital. I have nobody.
I grew up quick and life has never been easy. I lost my best friend over the summer.
I love music and drawing. I am a hobbyist filmmaker. I play games often.
Mountains are cool. Aliens are fascinating.
I tend to perceive things very strongly -- including things like abandonment and insecurity.
I am very loyal and generally a romantic person.

Some people feel like they are driven by sports. Money. Imagination.

I have understanding that I am driven by the concept of love. Without love, my existence is lacking.

I dig it.

[lliam]

I'm an alien and actual there -
in the mountains. And it's cool.
So welcome.

[RyderTheHuman]

I really appreciate it goes, you make me feel very wanted and welcome. I hope to make some cool friends to talk to on a daily basis because of how bad my isolationist tendencies have been. For instance, I like at my friend's house in their basement. We care a lot about each other but I only actually see them once or twice a week. The backdoor that leads out of the house is connected to the basement stairs so I don't even see anyone when I go out to smoke or take late night walks. Yesterday I was going to kill myself but my friend called me because he was having a panic attack and didn't want to be alone. I keep thinking about it over and over. I don't want to be alone and I can't leave my friend Ransom behind because he's all I got and I can't do that to him. I really need to talk to people, I'm getting even worse because of how reclusive I am. I've been getting texts from people in town I used to hang out with telling me to rest in peace because they think I've died due to past attempts. I don't think people get this sad until it's too late. I'm fighting but everything hurts. I just need someone you know?

[Dalcourt]

Well seems like a lot what you are posting here.
If you wanna talk about stuff like that and have people talking to you maybe you should do some posting in the Psychiatric Ward (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/forumdisplay.php?f=5) .
It will get more attention than in the introduction thread