Espeon
March 6th, 2014, 04:35 AM
Hey, I'm new, i posted a topic on the intro forum, But i'm 14 and female if you were wondering.
I go to a school where everyone is at least in a small or big group of friends. It's a single sex school and really "Exclusive and snobby", And i don't really get along that well with girls, before i was at this school i was hangin with the football team guys, and now they're out of contact.. For the two years i've been at my current school, I've just been hangin round by myself, watching people have fun, no one accepts me and thinks im a weirdo, and i'm like: "Surely there is someone here.. Who isn't all mean like the rest?" I'm friends with a few girls but they're not in my class anymore.
I'm in the start of 8th grade now, and i've noticed something. There's a girl in my classes, called Lauren. She's really quiet and has been for the last few years there, never hangs out with anyone, just sits alone. no one seems to freaking care about her at all, and now she's in my form. I never see her with anyone, she never speaks up in class, and for the last few weeks for some reason, i feel like a stalker. I don't know if she has a disorder or something, but i have feelings for her.. Not in a gay way at all. I just want to look out for her and you know, make her SMILE FOR ONCE. It makes me so depressed, it's like we're a great match.
I'm pretty much a lone wolf there, and i'm kind of used to it now. I've seen the school counseller lady and she's nice and everything, and i suggested to the lady "Oh, there's a girl i think i should try and be friends with, her name is Lauren" And she said, "Oh! Lauren xxxx?" (Not giving out last names here) And it was right. There are 10 laurens in 8th grade, and i wondered.. How could she guess that so quickly?
I always see teachers sitting with her talking to her and etc, and she always hides at recess/lunch..
I can't feel anything but try and find out everything about her.
I can't help it, for some reason i always feel myself looking over in her direction and just feeling so sorry for her, I don't want to ruin her life more, but..
But now i know. She's depressed and suicidal. And so am i.
I want to be her friend.. I want to make her happy, not in a gay-way, again. She looks as if shes seen something horrible in her life, and i saw cut marks on her arm. I think my same counseller has been talking with her.
"Lauren" doesn't show any interest in anyone. I stole a essay we had to write about ourselves. I don't care if she has mental issues or anything like that, i want her to just, be happy... BECAUSE I FEEL SO DAMN HORRIBLE WHEN I SEE HER JUST SITTING ALONE, AND I FEEL LIKE SUCH A JERK FOR LETTING THOSE "SNOBS" TREAT HER THE WAY THEY DO.
She always copies things i do and in classes, she sits next to me. I don't know if it means she likes me, or is just "Oh, i have no friends im gunna sit here" Shes starting to kind of open up to me a bit, and follows me around in secret.. but i don't know.. is she rude, or just a total introvert?
i really don'y know what to do. i'm too shy.
Bye.
I go to a school where everyone is at least in a small or big group of friends. It's a single sex school and really "Exclusive and snobby", And i don't really get along that well with girls, before i was at this school i was hangin with the football team guys, and now they're out of contact.. For the two years i've been at my current school, I've just been hangin round by myself, watching people have fun, no one accepts me and thinks im a weirdo, and i'm like: "Surely there is someone here.. Who isn't all mean like the rest?" I'm friends with a few girls but they're not in my class anymore.
I'm in the start of 8th grade now, and i've noticed something. There's a girl in my classes, called Lauren. She's really quiet and has been for the last few years there, never hangs out with anyone, just sits alone. no one seems to freaking care about her at all, and now she's in my form. I never see her with anyone, she never speaks up in class, and for the last few weeks for some reason, i feel like a stalker. I don't know if she has a disorder or something, but i have feelings for her.. Not in a gay way at all. I just want to look out for her and you know, make her SMILE FOR ONCE. It makes me so depressed, it's like we're a great match.
I'm pretty much a lone wolf there, and i'm kind of used to it now. I've seen the school counseller lady and she's nice and everything, and i suggested to the lady "Oh, there's a girl i think i should try and be friends with, her name is Lauren" And she said, "Oh! Lauren xxxx?" (Not giving out last names here) And it was right. There are 10 laurens in 8th grade, and i wondered.. How could she guess that so quickly?
I always see teachers sitting with her talking to her and etc, and she always hides at recess/lunch..
I can't feel anything but try and find out everything about her.
I can't help it, for some reason i always feel myself looking over in her direction and just feeling so sorry for her, I don't want to ruin her life more, but..
But now i know. She's depressed and suicidal. And so am i.
I want to be her friend.. I want to make her happy, not in a gay-way, again. She looks as if shes seen something horrible in her life, and i saw cut marks on her arm. I think my same counseller has been talking with her.
"Lauren" doesn't show any interest in anyone. I stole a essay we had to write about ourselves. I don't care if she has mental issues or anything like that, i want her to just, be happy... BECAUSE I FEEL SO DAMN HORRIBLE WHEN I SEE HER JUST SITTING ALONE, AND I FEEL LIKE SUCH A JERK FOR LETTING THOSE "SNOBS" TREAT HER THE WAY THEY DO.
She always copies things i do and in classes, she sits next to me. I don't know if it means she likes me, or is just "Oh, i have no friends im gunna sit here" Shes starting to kind of open up to me a bit, and follows me around in secret.. but i don't know.. is she rude, or just a total introvert?
i really don'y know what to do. i'm too shy.
Bye.