TriadChump
November 29th, 2017, 09:37 PM
Long vent story, you've been warned.
No matter how hard I try, I can't get this girl off my mind.
I've known her since middle school but haven't talked to her much until this year. She started talking to me first. I distinctly remember whistling in the hall, just minding my own business, when she came up to me. She had been walking in front of me when she turned around, smiled at me and made some comment about knowing that I was walking behind her because of my whistling (I whistle in the hallways a lot). Then she started talking to me about a practice test we took in English before we parted ways. After that, I stopped to think. Before that day, she had randomly said hi to me several times and made quick small talk with me when I was with a mutual friend. I thought, why had she started talking to me out of the blue?
I started to feel attracted to her. She's pretty, but the thing I liked the most about her was the fact that she seemed pretty okay with my weird shenanigans. I crack a lot of jokes and sometimes act in ways that earn me a few strange looks. She didn't look at me weird when I did these things and even found them funny (she happened to be present when I sang the entire Chinese national anthem. She smiled.)
We only have English together, so I hardly saw her. I tried making conversation a few times. It was awkward. Eventually, I asked for her number and texted her. After some small talk over text and me making more jokes, I asked her out. She said "I'm not looking to date rn". I interpreted that as "yeah, I'm really not willing to hang out with some guy like you". Rejected.
This was a week ago. I wish she straight up told me "no", because some stupid part of my brain keeps thinking that I still have a chance. I can't stop thinking about her and have so many questions. Was I misreading her this whole time? Was she just trying to be friendly? Is this a definite end?
I'm definitely overanalyzing everything. I have kinda low self-esteem and took this whole thing pretty bad. I just feel like an idiot, a weirdo, a creep.
Somebody help a brother out.
No matter how hard I try, I can't get this girl off my mind.
I've known her since middle school but haven't talked to her much until this year. She started talking to me first. I distinctly remember whistling in the hall, just minding my own business, when she came up to me. She had been walking in front of me when she turned around, smiled at me and made some comment about knowing that I was walking behind her because of my whistling (I whistle in the hallways a lot). Then she started talking to me about a practice test we took in English before we parted ways. After that, I stopped to think. Before that day, she had randomly said hi to me several times and made quick small talk with me when I was with a mutual friend. I thought, why had she started talking to me out of the blue?
I started to feel attracted to her. She's pretty, but the thing I liked the most about her was the fact that she seemed pretty okay with my weird shenanigans. I crack a lot of jokes and sometimes act in ways that earn me a few strange looks. She didn't look at me weird when I did these things and even found them funny (she happened to be present when I sang the entire Chinese national anthem. She smiled.)
We only have English together, so I hardly saw her. I tried making conversation a few times. It was awkward. Eventually, I asked for her number and texted her. After some small talk over text and me making more jokes, I asked her out. She said "I'm not looking to date rn". I interpreted that as "yeah, I'm really not willing to hang out with some guy like you". Rejected.
This was a week ago. I wish she straight up told me "no", because some stupid part of my brain keeps thinking that I still have a chance. I can't stop thinking about her and have so many questions. Was I misreading her this whole time? Was she just trying to be friendly? Is this a definite end?
I'm definitely overanalyzing everything. I have kinda low self-esteem and took this whole thing pretty bad. I just feel like an idiot, a weirdo, a creep.
Somebody help a brother out.