My depressing future?... Feeling terrible

[Miserabilia]

Sigh...
Where do I start?

I don't really belong anywhere.
I'm kind of an a**hole, I'm annoying, but I'm not extrovert.
I have social anxiety but I'm desperate to speak out, and when I do I just feel shame.
I wish I could belong to some group.
I wish I could belong to nice and open people, or to depressed and lonely people.
But I don't.

I'm always floating somewhere in between.
And I'm so sick of it.
I'm not a nice person, I'm not a good looking person,
I don't have anything that can get people to like me as a person;
so I hide away in the internet and as a sarcastic person.

When I see my future is see myself happy;
as a person that's just alone, and I'm fine with it;
no friends, just living by myself, don't have to go out in public.
When I want to make social contact, I can, and there's no pressure.
I'll be happyly lonely, and the sad part is that I want that.

[Hollywood]

Sigh...
Where do I start?

I don't really belong anywhere.
I'm kind of an a**hole, I'm annoying, but I'm not extrovert.

You're not an asshole, not at all. I think you're a really nice guy, actually.

I have social anxiety but I'm desperate to speak out, and when I do I just feel shame.
I wish I could belong to some group.
I wish I could belong to nice and open people, or to depressed and lonely people.
But I don't.

I have social anxiety as well, it's quite bad actually. I know exactly how you feel, wanting to mingle and socialize but just feeling overwhelmed by it all. It's okay, and it's not your fault. VT is a great escape for socially inept people like us.

I'm always floating somewhere in between.
And I'm so sick of it.
I'm not a nice person, I'm not a good looking person,
I don't have anything that can get people to like me as a person;
so I hide away in the internet and as a sarcastic person.

You don't have to "get" people to like you, you're probably just a unique guy like I am. I guarantee you there's someone else out there like you, and if a bunch of people don't like you then forget them. A bunch of people don't like me too, they think I'm a creep or a dork. Who cares what "they" think?

When I see my future is see myself happy;
as a person that's just alone, and I'm fine with it;
no friends, just living by myself, don't have to go out in public.
When I want to make social contact, I can, and there's no pressure.
I'll be happyly lonely, and the sad part is that I want that.

It's impossible to know what the future really holds, things could very easily turn around for you. I was in deep shit no more than a month ago, but good things happened and now my outlook is much brighter. Just hang in there man, and know that I and many other VTers are here for you.

[Miserabilia]

You're not an asshole, not at all. I think you're a really nice guy, actually.



I have social anxiety as well, it's quite bad actually. I know exactly how you feel, wanting to mingle and socialize but just feeling overwhelmed by it all. It's okay, and it's not your fault. VT is a great escape for socially inept people like us.



You don't have to "get" people to like you, you're probably just a unique guy like I am. I guarantee you there's someone else out there like you, and if a bunch of people don't like you then forget them. A bunch of people don't like me too, they think I'm a creep or a dork. Who cares what "they" think?



It's impossible to know what the future really holds, things could very easily turn around for you. I was in deep shit no more than a month ago, but good things happened and now my outlook is much brighter. Just hang in there man, and know that I and many other VTers are here for you.

Thanks :)

[NeuroTiger]

My friend, life can certainly be viewed in different angles.
Trying moving a little bit(changing your angle; a change in mindset) and then tell us what you see.

[Pulp501]

Sigh...
Where do I start?

I don't really belong anywhere.
I'm kind of an a**hole, I'm annoying, but I'm not extrovert.
I have social anxiety but I'm desperate to speak out, and when I do I just feel shame.
I wish I could belong to some group.
I wish I could belong to nice and open people, or to depressed and lonely people.
But I don't.

I'm always floating somewhere in between.
And I'm so sick of it.
I'm not a nice person, I'm not a good looking person,
I don't have anything that can get people to like me as a person;
so I hide away in the internet and as a sarcastic person.

When I see my future is see myself happy;
as a person that's just alone, and I'm fine with it;
no friends, just living by myself, don't have to go out in public.
When I want to make social contact, I can, and there's no pressure.
I'll be happyly lonely, and the sad part is that I want that.

I'm similar, I'm an asshole and I have no good qualities. But you seem more content to be alone. I can only see myself happy is with someone.

[Miserabilia]

My friend, life can certainly be viewed in different angles.
Trying moving a little bit(changing your angle; a change in mindset) and then tell us what you see.

Okay :)
I'm similar, I'm an asshole and I have no good qualities. But you seem more content to be alone. I can only see myself happy is with someone.
Im not sure...
I could be happy with someone, but I'd prefer being alone and only seeking contact when I'm really ready for it

[imthomas]

You're not an asshole

[Miserabilia]

You're not an asshole

thanks. I'm kind of assholy in real life though :P

[Hyper]

Don't know you at all. But I've experienced most of what you said.

First judging by that 1 pic you have in your profile. You aren't ugly.

We do these things to ourselves. We beat ourselves down and keep listening to that nagging little voice somewhere inside that keeps telling us ''we're ugly, dumb, an asshole'' and so on and on...

But it's not true. It only becomes true when you let it. It's constant sabotage on yourself shit can't get better if we are always believing it wont.

I was fortunate enough to have the support of my mother who also had similar issues growing up so she understood me. I would hope you have someone you can trust enough to open up to, having that someone to sort of ''pick you up'' on bad days is a big help.

Now I'm 20 and I'll tell you honestly I'm not fully over my anxiety. When I'm heavily depressed it sort of ''flares up'' again. But generally I'm completely fine. The social anxiety part is almost entirely gone.

Now I just have irrational anxiety about schools and groups of snotty little teenagers but I can live with that because over the years I've come to accept and understand the experiences and psychology that have made me this way.

I hope you can do the same and remember this site is always around to help.

[Miserabilia]

Don't know you at all. But I've experienced most of what you said.

First judging by that 1 pic you have in your profile. You aren't ugly.

We do these things to ourselves. We beat ourselves down and keep listening to that nagging little voice somewhere inside that keeps telling us ''we're ugly, dumb, an asshole'' and so on and on...

But it's not true. It only becomes true when you let it. It's constant sabotage on yourself shit can't get better if we are always believing it wont.

I was fortunate enough to have the support of my mother who also had similar issues growing up so she understood me. I would hope you have someone you can trust enough to open up to, having that someone to sort of ''pick you up'' on bad days is a big help.

Now I'm 20 and I'll tell you honestly I'm not fully over my anxiety. When I'm heavily depressed it sort of ''flares up'' again. But generally I'm completely fine. The social anxiety part is almost entirely gone.

Now I just have irrational anxiety about schools and groups of snotty little teenagers but I can live with that because over the years I've come to accept and understand the experiences and psychology that have made me this way.

I hope you can do the same and remember this site is always around to help.

thanks :)