Gustave_the_Croc
February 28th, 2014, 10:01 AM
Last year was an eventful year for me, creating a friendship, falling in love with that friend and not knowing it at the time. After that and some other 'instances' I feel like I've been pushed away from having a close friendship with a girl, considering one, or in my case both of you develop feelings for one another.
I'm 16 years of age and never had a girlfriend, I consider myself a perhaps, 'hopeless romantic', I find girls with visible make-up a turn off. Whenever I feel I like someone I like their personality before their looks and sometimes forget about caring about looks all together if I believe they have a beautiful mind, which in my books over rules a beautiful body.
So, even when I've liked these girls, I've never felt the want to actually date them, I'd rather have them as people I talk to at school, without getting personal. But there is this one girl I've started talking to last year on facebook and I've only really had one conversation with her in my OP support class. She is really smart, she does a lot of high end subjects at school and strives to get a good OP score, as do I. She is also an avid Halo fan like me and she freakin' Russian, I dig Russia (the country lol, don't ask why). She is perfect for me, she in my opinion is the one I've been waiting for.
Now for the problem, when I started talking to her on FB it was early morning and she was the only person online to talk to, so whatever. I talked to her about stuff, over the course of few days we talked, both of us evenly starting our own conversations. But, a lot of the time she talked about this guy she liked (or still likes or goes out with). He's an idiot, not gonna lie. They still hang out and stuff, but I don't know if they are seeing each other. Now, since I think she is perfect for me, I want to ask her out. But I don't want her to say no, because she is really nice person that I enjoy talking to, except I don't think I could go through a close friendship with a girl ever again.
Last time we talked was wednesday in my OP support class that she just moved into. When we were walking out of class to go home, I was talking to her about a book I've been reading, but when we came to where we had to split off, we stood their for a moment until I turned around and said "Cya!", maybe she was waiting for me to say something, I don't know. But I feel like the reason she was splinting off from me was to go to the other guy, who she says is her best friend and he says she is his bestfriend. I've been in that situation before, I think they do like each other without knowing it.
Another issue I have is my physicality, I eat healthing the same things everyweek, but I have to maintain a constant weight of about 100kg for the sport I do, gaining muscle and loosing fat would work and I can do that, because I have done that, but I just don't have the time to go to the gym. I feel personality might not be enough, for some people. But It's hard to judge myself, because I know certain parts of me are good, my face is good looking according to certain 'girls who are menial friends' and my shoulders are freakin' tank, but I do store a lot of weight in my gut, and I don't know what people think of that.
So yeah if you've bothered to read this, than you're awesome, Some feedback would be nice too.
I'm 16 years of age and never had a girlfriend, I consider myself a perhaps, 'hopeless romantic', I find girls with visible make-up a turn off. Whenever I feel I like someone I like their personality before their looks and sometimes forget about caring about looks all together if I believe they have a beautiful mind, which in my books over rules a beautiful body.
So, even when I've liked these girls, I've never felt the want to actually date them, I'd rather have them as people I talk to at school, without getting personal. But there is this one girl I've started talking to last year on facebook and I've only really had one conversation with her in my OP support class. She is really smart, she does a lot of high end subjects at school and strives to get a good OP score, as do I. She is also an avid Halo fan like me and she freakin' Russian, I dig Russia (the country lol, don't ask why). She is perfect for me, she in my opinion is the one I've been waiting for.
Now for the problem, when I started talking to her on FB it was early morning and she was the only person online to talk to, so whatever. I talked to her about stuff, over the course of few days we talked, both of us evenly starting our own conversations. But, a lot of the time she talked about this guy she liked (or still likes or goes out with). He's an idiot, not gonna lie. They still hang out and stuff, but I don't know if they are seeing each other. Now, since I think she is perfect for me, I want to ask her out. But I don't want her to say no, because she is really nice person that I enjoy talking to, except I don't think I could go through a close friendship with a girl ever again.
Last time we talked was wednesday in my OP support class that she just moved into. When we were walking out of class to go home, I was talking to her about a book I've been reading, but when we came to where we had to split off, we stood their for a moment until I turned around and said "Cya!", maybe she was waiting for me to say something, I don't know. But I feel like the reason she was splinting off from me was to go to the other guy, who she says is her best friend and he says she is his bestfriend. I've been in that situation before, I think they do like each other without knowing it.
Another issue I have is my physicality, I eat healthing the same things everyweek, but I have to maintain a constant weight of about 100kg for the sport I do, gaining muscle and loosing fat would work and I can do that, because I have done that, but I just don't have the time to go to the gym. I feel personality might not be enough, for some people. But It's hard to judge myself, because I know certain parts of me are good, my face is good looking according to certain 'girls who are menial friends' and my shoulders are freakin' tank, but I do store a lot of weight in my gut, and I don't know what people think of that.
So yeah if you've bothered to read this, than you're awesome, Some feedback would be nice too.