getting bad again

[AdolescentBoyBlue]

Why was i born a sad person?i would say its not fair but neither is life.i thought my depression would go away but im pretty sure its staying with me for life...however long that is.. i hate when people say "you need to try to get bettter" its like wtf?you think i like this? You think im not trying? Its hard living like this,I'm feel crappy all the time and have to pretend I'm happy for my family because they thought that after the psychward i was all better....i honestly don't know if they can tell that im unhappy or not. I dont even feel like talking or being awake but when im asleep im having nightmares,i started doing this thing where i just sit under the shower because i feel like breaking down.my wrist hurt really bad again and it make me wriggel in my bed and silently scream.i usually get into fights with my family but i dont even have the energy to that. I feel so alone and empty.im totally lost,i dont know what im doing.i never thought that this was how i was going to end up..the problem child

[Miserabilia]

I know how you feel.
People act like it's so easy, like you can just choose to get over it.

[Hundred Spirited God]

Why was i born a sad person?i would say its not fair but neither is life.i thought my depression would go away but im pretty sure its staying with me for life...however long that is.. i hate when people say "you need to try to get bettter" its like wtf?you think i like this? You think im not trying? Its hard living like this,I'm feel crappy all the time and have to pretend I'm happy for my family because they thought that after the psychward i was all better....i honestly don't know if they can tell that im unhappy or not. I dont even feel like talking or being awake but when im asleep im having nightmares,i started doing this thing where i just sit under the shower because i feel like breaking down.my wrist hurt really bad again and it make me wriggel in my bed and silently scream.i usually get into fights with my family but i dont even have the energy to that. I feel so alone and empty.im totally lost,i dont know what im doing.i never thought that this was how i was going to end up..the problem child

yea i know what its like for people to not understand,i wanted to help my friend but my family would always tell me to fix my life first,its always about what THEY want,and i know its hard but life is never going to be easy,you cant live a sinless life,but in the end,its worth it,if you need someone to talk to,add me,im always open for questions :)