help

[Φρανκομβριτ]

As some of you may know, I have gotten pretty heavy into drugs. At points, I was into Cocaine bad, sometimes extacy, but I feel it's gotten worse. I started using ketamine almost daily, and now that I'm away, I have nothing, and I honestly don't know what to do. It's not like taking a walk or writing or reading fills this void. I want to tear me skin off my bones and scream. What do I do?

[Bobby]

Your addicted and I know this sounds a bit extreme.

But you need to go to rehab.

[Patchy]

Have you spoken to anyone like a councillor or your family?

[Aηdy]

Yeah dude you need some help. There's no way you're going to fight a heavy addiction like that by yourself.

[Patchy]

You need to talk to people who can help you day to day, VT can only help you so much, you really need to talk to people who can help you day to day and who know you personally.

[serial-thrilla]

could you tell us what drug specifically you are struggling with?

[Φρανκομβριτ]

specifically, ketamine

Im not really addicted to drugs, Im addicted to not being sober. I know i need help, but rehab isnt an option. Money is already a struggle with my family and there is no way we could do that. the closest I have right now is codys, where there isnt anything around me

[serial-thrilla]

i had the same problem awhile ago, i couldnt stand to be sober, but i realized and accepted the fact that it is the natural human state. I found ways to enjoy being sober like sports and hobbies and what not. I still do use some drugs occasionally but for the most part i have found myself liking being sober. Im not sure if it will work the same for you but i know where your coming from.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

i had the same problem awhile ago, i couldnt stand to be sober, but i realized and accepted the fact that it is the natural human state. I found ways to enjoy being sober like sports and hobbies and what not. I still do use some drugs occasionally but for the most part i have found myself liking being sober. Im not sure if it will work the same for you but i know where your coming from.

I have no hobbies, and I just dont do sports, but thanks anyways matt.

Does anyone know anything I can do to maybe make it a bit easier? Im feeling a bit better no then i did when i started the thread

[Serenity]

Read. Get lost in someone else's reality. It's what I do when I need to get away from myself.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Read. Get lost in someone else's reality. It's what I do when I need to get away from myself.

thanks val :)

[Serenity]

Yup :daisy: Anytime I can

[spawn123]

specifically, ketamine

Im not really addicted to drugs, Im addicted to not being sober. I know i need help, but rehab isnt an option. Money is already a struggle with my family and there is no way we could do that. the closest I have right now is codys, where there isnt anything around me

not being sober is addiction man.use less and less every day,and train some sports for goodness sake

[serial-thrilla]

i mean without any hobbies or anything to keep you occupied what else could stop you from turning to drugs? i suggest that you get into some things your interested in, it helped me alot.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

I don't think you quite understand

I'm in but fuck nowhere. If I wanted drugs, I'd have to drive atleast 2 hours

I've accepted the fact that it is what it is, but that doesn't make the feinding go away.

There isn't anything really to do out here unless you have a car...
read, write, tv, clean...
way too cold to get outside, and if it was a nice day, I'd slip on the ice and sprain my wrist again!!

[serial-thrilla]

is this your permanent place of residence?

[Φρανκομβριτ]

semi-permanent. I'm going back to toronto in april for 3 weeks, back here for another month, the im not sure

[Serenity]

Ever try working out? Like heart-pumping, sweaty physical activity.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

yeah, but im an athsmatic smoker

[Serenity]

Hm. How about drawing/painting? Always said to be a good outlet. What about meditating or yoga? I've never tried it but I'm joining a class soon and people say it's good for the soul. Idk I'm just kinda pulling stuff out of the air since your options are so limited.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

ill try that! Val, youre amazing

[Serenity]

:daisy: I do what I can *salute*