Spyware
February 25th, 2008, 09:14 PM
Hello, I just thought of making a new thread... due to now being a different topic from the last one I made. I think I got over my past, except the really bad experience from camp that happened this summer. For more details on how I grew up:
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=18319
From the replies, I was able to get over a majority of my past, got a group of friends, and connected with a few of them through hobbies... but although.. I still have problems. Although my past thread was pretty much talking about my past, I want this to be aimed at my current social issues..
I'm a very quiet and shy person, and I absolutely hate that about myself. Being quiet got me to isolate myself from others in a daily basis, and it always get's difficult to form friendships with other people... as well makes them feel I'm not a interesting person, and their probably right. I usually get taken advantage of, I always get stepped on all over by people, and really have no clue how to stand up for myself... How I never had a father in my life, I think I just never had a male role model in my life and it's the reason why I'm like this. I feel really lonely, and it's the reason why I'm so depressed. I'm not appreciated or is my existence acknowledged anywhere in this world, not even my mother cares about me anymore. My group of friends don't really treat me like anything neither how I don't contribute to their conversations.
With no one noticing, my achievements most of the time just feel pointless as I have no one to really share my joy with. Sure I won something, but in the end of the day, did I really get what I want? It pretty much comes to the point where I feel like I really have no point in living anymore, and would make no difference if I just suddenly died tomorrow. I just feel extremely lonely..
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=18319
From the replies, I was able to get over a majority of my past, got a group of friends, and connected with a few of them through hobbies... but although.. I still have problems. Although my past thread was pretty much talking about my past, I want this to be aimed at my current social issues..
I'm a very quiet and shy person, and I absolutely hate that about myself. Being quiet got me to isolate myself from others in a daily basis, and it always get's difficult to form friendships with other people... as well makes them feel I'm not a interesting person, and their probably right. I usually get taken advantage of, I always get stepped on all over by people, and really have no clue how to stand up for myself... How I never had a father in my life, I think I just never had a male role model in my life and it's the reason why I'm like this. I feel really lonely, and it's the reason why I'm so depressed. I'm not appreciated or is my existence acknowledged anywhere in this world, not even my mother cares about me anymore. My group of friends don't really treat me like anything neither how I don't contribute to their conversations.
With no one noticing, my achievements most of the time just feel pointless as I have no one to really share my joy with. Sure I won something, but in the end of the day, did I really get what I want? It pretty much comes to the point where I feel like I really have no point in living anymore, and would make no difference if I just suddenly died tomorrow. I just feel extremely lonely..