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goldfish23
April 2nd, 2017, 01:57 PM
I feel pretty stupid writing this but I need to sort it out.
In November I went out with my uni friends on a night out, I was drunk and I met a guy at my Student Union from my year at university (never met him before) he bought me a few drinks and we danced, then my friends left early without me as I said I'd be fine with this guy (why). Then after a while he said we could go back to his flat and order pizza. Last thing I remember is being in his kitchen on the sofa feeling quite drunk, under the impression we were going to get pizza. Next thing I remember is waking up in his bed, completely naked, next to him, also naked. I remember feeling so confused and I immediately got dressed and went to the toilet. When I came back into his room he told me straight up, you need to get the morning after pill. I asked why? He said, we had sex. I said, no we didn't I'd remember something like that. Anyway this conversation lasted about two minutes before I left his flat because at the time I thought he was making it up as I would definitely remember it. Later on that day I got a message from him through facebook saying, you need to get the pill. I replied saying that we didn't have sex and he said, we did and I came in you, sorry I shouldn't have. I didn't reply and I didn't get the pill because I still didn't believe him. I was so angry because I thought he was just making it all up but I also felt scared and slightly ashamed that I couldn't even remember what happened between being on the sofa and being naked in his bed. Btw got my period so no worries on the pregnancy front.
Anyway, since then I've had time to think and things don't make sense to me still. First of all, did I just black out and that's why I can't remember? Did he drug me or plan this? Why did he have to tell me he came in me? I feel as though if I was functioning properly then surely I'd know he came in me (or I wouldn't have even let it happen in the first place) which makes me think maybe I was unconscious and then he had sex with me - in which case he knew I wouldn't know he came in me? Does this mean I was raped?
I dont know what to think about it, I haven't spoke to anyone about it and it would be useful to get someone else's point of view. Thanks

Just JT
April 2nd, 2017, 02:10 PM
Sounds like rape to me. You need to talk to a professional and get some counseling to help you sort things out better than you can do here

Also those texts messages, don't delete them. There evidence.

Please just talk to someone. It'll feel really good getting some of this off your shoulders

clobo
April 2nd, 2017, 03:03 PM
To me that is rape, if you didn't agree to sex or was too drunk to be thinking straight even if you said yes at the time he shouldn't have even have gone that far.

Uniquemind
April 2nd, 2017, 07:14 PM
That is rape with additional circumstantial evidence drugs were used.

I forgot the exact classification but there are some drugs that can mess up your memory or prevent it from working which is why you have gaps in your memory.

I also suggest going to a clinic so as to obtain a full STD and STI check. Request a check for herpes as well.

If he did this to you he probably has done this to other people while increasing the chances he's spreading STDs around to all.

sketchyheart
April 3rd, 2017, 12:39 PM
If you were drunk, and he wasn't, then it was rape. Report it immediately.