goldfish23
April 2nd, 2017, 01:57 PM
I feel pretty stupid writing this but I need to sort it out.
In November I went out with my uni friends on a night out, I was drunk and I met a guy at my Student Union from my year at university (never met him before) he bought me a few drinks and we danced, then my friends left early without me as I said I'd be fine with this guy (why). Then after a while he said we could go back to his flat and order pizza. Last thing I remember is being in his kitchen on the sofa feeling quite drunk, under the impression we were going to get pizza. Next thing I remember is waking up in his bed, completely naked, next to him, also naked. I remember feeling so confused and I immediately got dressed and went to the toilet. When I came back into his room he told me straight up, you need to get the morning after pill. I asked why? He said, we had sex. I said, no we didn't I'd remember something like that. Anyway this conversation lasted about two minutes before I left his flat because at the time I thought he was making it up as I would definitely remember it. Later on that day I got a message from him through facebook saying, you need to get the pill. I replied saying that we didn't have sex and he said, we did and I came in you, sorry I shouldn't have. I didn't reply and I didn't get the pill because I still didn't believe him. I was so angry because I thought he was just making it all up but I also felt scared and slightly ashamed that I couldn't even remember what happened between being on the sofa and being naked in his bed. Btw got my period so no worries on the pregnancy front.
Anyway, since then I've had time to think and things don't make sense to me still. First of all, did I just black out and that's why I can't remember? Did he drug me or plan this? Why did he have to tell me he came in me? I feel as though if I was functioning properly then surely I'd know he came in me (or I wouldn't have even let it happen in the first place) which makes me think maybe I was unconscious and then he had sex with me - in which case he knew I wouldn't know he came in me? Does this mean I was raped?
I dont know what to think about it, I haven't spoke to anyone about it and it would be useful to get someone else's point of view. Thanks
In November I went out with my uni friends on a night out, I was drunk and I met a guy at my Student Union from my year at university (never met him before) he bought me a few drinks and we danced, then my friends left early without me as I said I'd be fine with this guy (why). Then after a while he said we could go back to his flat and order pizza. Last thing I remember is being in his kitchen on the sofa feeling quite drunk, under the impression we were going to get pizza. Next thing I remember is waking up in his bed, completely naked, next to him, also naked. I remember feeling so confused and I immediately got dressed and went to the toilet. When I came back into his room he told me straight up, you need to get the morning after pill. I asked why? He said, we had sex. I said, no we didn't I'd remember something like that. Anyway this conversation lasted about two minutes before I left his flat because at the time I thought he was making it up as I would definitely remember it. Later on that day I got a message from him through facebook saying, you need to get the pill. I replied saying that we didn't have sex and he said, we did and I came in you, sorry I shouldn't have. I didn't reply and I didn't get the pill because I still didn't believe him. I was so angry because I thought he was just making it all up but I also felt scared and slightly ashamed that I couldn't even remember what happened between being on the sofa and being naked in his bed. Btw got my period so no worries on the pregnancy front.
Anyway, since then I've had time to think and things don't make sense to me still. First of all, did I just black out and that's why I can't remember? Did he drug me or plan this? Why did he have to tell me he came in me? I feel as though if I was functioning properly then surely I'd know he came in me (or I wouldn't have even let it happen in the first place) which makes me think maybe I was unconscious and then he had sex with me - in which case he knew I wouldn't know he came in me? Does this mean I was raped?
I dont know what to think about it, I haven't spoke to anyone about it and it would be useful to get someone else's point of view. Thanks