CashMeSadi
March 9th, 2017, 03:44 PM
I've been looking into activities that have my interests but it's either not in my state or requires something I don't have. I would join clubs at my school but I hate school and want to stay far away from the building as possible. I only want to be present when it's school hours. My mom made the claim that school would help me be happier, but it hasn't, as I predicted. People are mean and stick to their groups of friends, so there's no one who I consider a friend at my school. Maybe a buddy or two, but that's it. I'm a huge loner. When I'm not hanging out with my friend (we don't go to the same school) I am stuck in the house bored to death. Not good for my depression. I would really like to get out more but I don't know what to do or where to start. I feel like I have no life, which is most likely true. I'm 14, so I don't have a car to take myself places, I'm dependent on my parents for transportation but my dad is in another state and my mom is either too tired or working. I used to hang out with my peers in my neighborhood but they ditched me long after (I don't know why) and I never felt like I belonged with them, anyway, so I no longer go outside in my neighborhood. That usually kept me occupied and happy. But now it's like, what do I do? I'm looking into future jobs and volunteering. And I would love to do ballet but I guess they don't teach beginners ballet to teens???? My mom says that usually ballet is taught young, so that's why. I don't know. I need something to do before I go crazy.