Spying on my cousin - should I feel guilty?

[asgeir.alterego]

Okay, so this happened almost two years before. My aunt and her family including my cousin Amy came to visit 2-3 times a year. On this particular event, their car broke down, it didn't ignite. My father called for a mechanic but he said he could only come on the next morning so they decided to stay for the night. I had to move to the couch which was in my bedroom because she got my bed. But at least we shared the same room. Here I should mention that I never find her attractive, but her body was quite developed because she is 4 years older then I am. I was already in bed, and it she was preparing to go to the bath. She told me that she likes to have very long showers -now I am starting to know why :P- so I told him I will be asleep by the time she comes back. As she left, I couldnt help noticing that the t-shirt which was intended to be her night gown was left on my chair. No need to mention, suddenly I wasnt sleepy anymore. In the next 20 minutes my thoughts were: "OMG I gonna see her naked!" and "What am I thinking, she is my cousin!". By the time she finished, my curiosity came over my guilt. I closed one eye, partly covered the other and pretended to be sleeping. Actually my heart was beating so hard I was afraid she will hear it! I got all sweaty but it was worth it. She came in, towel wrapped around her body, she took a long look in my direction, trying to decide if I am sleeping or not. Lucky for me only the night lamp was lit. After a few seconds hesitation, she finally dropped the towel. She wasnt all naked: she pulled her panties back, but I SAW HER TITS!! As she pulled the t-shirt over her head I even dared to open my other eye too to take a better look at the first pair of breasts I ever saw IRL (and last too up to date :P). I didnt dare to move a muscle, not even after I heard her falling asleep. It was only a couple of seconds but it kept me awake for the next couple of hours.
My point is, what really bothers me that I didnt feel bad for her next morning, or ever since then. Every time I meet her, I always remember this experience, but I never feel guilty. What do you think, should I be ashemed? Have any of you ever had similar experience?

[dreamofdante]

Okay, so this happened almost two years before. My aunt and her family including my cousin Amy came to visit 2-3 times a year. On this particular event, their car broke down, it didn't ignite. My father called for a mechanic but he said he could only come on the next morning so they decided to stay for the night. I had to move to the couch which was in my bedroom because she got my bed. But at least we shared the same room. Here I should mention that I never find her attractive, but her body was quite developed because she is 4 years older then I am. I was already in bed, and it she was preparing to go to the bath. She told me that she likes to have very long showers -now I am starting to know why :P- so I told him I will be asleep by the time she comes back. As she left, I couldnt help noticing that the t-shirt which was intended to be her night gown was left on my chair. No need to mention, suddenly I wasnt sleepy anymore. In the next 20 minutes my thoughts were: "OMG I gonna see her naked!" and "What am I thinking, she is my cousin!". By the time she finished, my curiosity came over my guilt. I closed one eye, partly covered the other and pretended to be sleeping. Actually my heart was beating so hard I was afraid she will hear it! I got all sweaty but it was worth it. She came in, towel wrapped around her body, she took a long look in my direction, trying to decide if I am sleeping or not. Lucky for me only the night lamp was lit. After a few seconds hesitation, she finally dropped the towel. She wasnt all naked: she pulled her panties back, but I SAW HER TITS!! As she pulled the t-shirt over her head I even dared to open my other eye too to take a better look at the first pair of breasts I ever saw IRL (and last too up to date :P). I didnt dare to move a muscle, not even after I heard her falling asleep. It was only a couple of seconds but it kept me awake for the next couple of hours.
My point is, what really bothers me that I didnt feel bad for her next morning, or ever since then. Every time I meet her, I always remember this experience, but I never feel guilty. What do you think, should I be ashemed? Have any of you ever had similar experience?

You're just curious man. Nothing to be ashamed of.

[NeuroTiger]

Well, you're not the one to be blamed after all.
I thought you were going to watch her take her shower! :P
It isn't that bad, dude, just chilled!

[backjruton]

I would happily spy on my cousin if he masturbated (I don't know if he does) and if I actually saw him for more than just Christmas day. He's only a year younger than me so it wouldn't be too bad, but I don't know if he shares my same interests as it would be nice to experiment with someone even though they are family XD

I wouldn't feel too bad about spying

[AlexOnToast]

Personally, I wouldnt do it. I would feel guilty being there without them knowing - I invasions of privacy.
But thats just me I guess

[NotShortButFunsized]

isn't this storytelling?

and yes, you should have more respect for girls, especially a relative.

[everlong]

I've never done that, but nah, nothing to be ashamed of.

[ImAurora]

It's normal to be curious about those things. She didn't find out, nothing else happened, no harm done.

[Body odah Man]

Okay, so this happened almost two years before. My aunt and her family including my cousin Amy came to visit 2-3 times a year. On this particular event, their car broke down, it didn't ignite. My father called for a mechanic but he said he could only come on the next morning so they decided to stay for the night. I had to move to the couch which was in my bedroom because she got my bed. But at least we shared the same room. Here I should mention that I never find her attractive, but her body was quite developed because she is 4 years older then I am. I was already in bed, and it she was preparing to go to the bath. She told me that she likes to have very long showers -now I am starting to know why :P- so I told him I will be asleep by the time she comes back. As she left, I couldnt help noticing that the t-shirt which was intended to be her night gown was left on my chair. No need to mention, suddenly I wasnt sleepy anymore. In the next 20 minutes my thoughts were: "OMG I gonna see her naked!" and "What am I thinking, she is my cousin!". By the time she finished, my curiosity came over my guilt. I closed one eye, partly covered the other and pretended to be sleeping. Actually my heart was beating so hard I was afraid she will hear it! I got all sweaty but it was worth it. She came in, towel wrapped around her body, she took a long look in my direction, trying to decide if I am sleeping or not. Lucky for me only the night lamp was lit. After a few seconds hesitation, she finally dropped the towel. She wasnt all naked: she pulled her panties back, but I SAW HER TITS!! As she pulled the t-shirt over her head I even dared to open my other eye too to take a better look at the first pair of breasts I ever saw IRL (and last too up to date :P). I didnt dare to move a muscle, not even after I heard her falling asleep. It was only a couple of seconds but it kept me awake for the next couple of hours.
My point is, what really bothers me that I didnt feel bad for her next morning, or ever since then. Every time I meet her, I always remember this experience, but I never feel guilty. What do you think, should I be ashemed? Have any of you ever had similar experience?

I dunno really. On the one hand I might have done the same at that age, on the otherhand it is pretty wrong and I would have been pretty guilty about it afterwards. I think the fact you didn't feel any guilt is wrong, but the fact that you did it is alrite.

[Dwemer]

I wouldnt worry about it. Be glad a chance like this happened it might very well be your last :p

[Zachary G]

I dont see what all of the hub-bub is about, it was only a case of teenage curiosity and its not like you are peeping on her all of the time. it was a one time deal and it was perfectly normal.

[canonguy3]

No biggie. Would you be upset if she snuck a peek of you? I know I wouldn't really care.

[deregisterme]

I would have definitely have looked in your situation.

[yonkers7]

Guilt-yes....shame-not necessarily

[ninja789]

you are just curious

[lacey02]

I think only fear of getting caught stops most people who say they would not look. If there was a guarantee that you would not be caught, I think almost everyone would look.:yes:

[Emerald Dream]

I think only fear of getting caught stops most people who say they would not look. If there was a guarantee that you would not be caught, I think almost everyone would look.:yes:

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