okay42day
September 30th, 2016, 09:34 AM
Just wanted to say hi and give a quick honest intro. I live in the United Kingdom with my FtM transgender brother and our single mother. Our mum has a lot of heath issues and is unable to work so our only income is from me and my older brother. I currently have no job and my brother works at McDonald's (which I did for a year, worst decision of my life, rather be broke tbh). I'm only recently without work, just can't bring myself to sell my happiness and soul for £6.00/hr again (found a job that pays £8.40/hr so there is hope, lol!)
We live in a two bedroom council house, brother has slept on the couch for nearly 3 years since coming back home (left for a year to work a live-in job elsewhere which didn't work out). Family life is pretty unstable, daddy-o left when I was about 1 (almost 18 now) and hasn't been about since. He messed up quite a bit at the start and somehow landed my mum in thousands worth of debt. She'd give him money to spend on the rent and instead of paying the rent he'd go and give it to a lady named Maureen who worked at a local pub in our village so that he could drink without having the incovenience of handing over the cash, lol.
Mum has severe depression, diagnosed with fibromyalgia, carpal tunnel syndrome, and I'm not sure what else. They've been doing tests for the last 2 and a half years, but still aren't sure what's going on. Regardless of what her health issues are, she won't be able to go back to work ever by the looks of it.
I have a nice group of friends and I am quite close to my brother. Not close to my mother at all, she gets upset a lot because of her situation and the fact she did not want kids in the first place. I know she loves us but she definitely resents the fact she had both me and my brother. Recently contacted daddy-o on the sly, if mum found out she'd be so upset because of how he left us so I'm keeping that quiet lol. In all honesty I'm just hoping to get a bit of help from him, as bad as that sounds. I don't have any ill feelings towards him, he's just a stranger who feels obligated to help me out. At the minute, I need all the help I can find.
Yeah, just feel lonely more or less constantly. I don't know if that's because life is a bit bleak at the minute, more precarious than it has been in a long time, or if it's because I am just somebody who feels lonely a lot. I took a break from my 60 hour work weeks to try and find a job I would enjoy a bit more. No luck, lol. Getting ready to sell my soul for a pittance again and I'm going to need a place to vent. Hopefully I can use this place. :whoops:
Bit of a long and boring intro but that's me :P
We live in a two bedroom council house, brother has slept on the couch for nearly 3 years since coming back home (left for a year to work a live-in job elsewhere which didn't work out). Family life is pretty unstable, daddy-o left when I was about 1 (almost 18 now) and hasn't been about since. He messed up quite a bit at the start and somehow landed my mum in thousands worth of debt. She'd give him money to spend on the rent and instead of paying the rent he'd go and give it to a lady named Maureen who worked at a local pub in our village so that he could drink without having the incovenience of handing over the cash, lol.
Mum has severe depression, diagnosed with fibromyalgia, carpal tunnel syndrome, and I'm not sure what else. They've been doing tests for the last 2 and a half years, but still aren't sure what's going on. Regardless of what her health issues are, she won't be able to go back to work ever by the looks of it.
I have a nice group of friends and I am quite close to my brother. Not close to my mother at all, she gets upset a lot because of her situation and the fact she did not want kids in the first place. I know she loves us but she definitely resents the fact she had both me and my brother. Recently contacted daddy-o on the sly, if mum found out she'd be so upset because of how he left us so I'm keeping that quiet lol. In all honesty I'm just hoping to get a bit of help from him, as bad as that sounds. I don't have any ill feelings towards him, he's just a stranger who feels obligated to help me out. At the minute, I need all the help I can find.
Yeah, just feel lonely more or less constantly. I don't know if that's because life is a bit bleak at the minute, more precarious than it has been in a long time, or if it's because I am just somebody who feels lonely a lot. I took a break from my 60 hour work weeks to try and find a job I would enjoy a bit more. No luck, lol. Getting ready to sell my soul for a pittance again and I'm going to need a place to vent. Hopefully I can use this place. :whoops:
Bit of a long and boring intro but that's me :P