Bullied

[Nick M]

I have been feeling depressed for about 4 years. I don't even leave the house anymore because I am afraid I will get bullied again. I would never kill myself, but I still feel horrible all the time. When I was in school, I was always getting bullied and it got so bad to the point that I had to start doing Online Home Schooling. People I have never even seen before walking down the halls were telling me I should go kill myself because I am worthless and I don't deserve to live. I never even did anything to anyone, and ALL of my friends turned on me. I still have no clue what I did wrong, I guess I was just the 1 kid that everyone likes to pick on in that school. I get very lonely since I have no friends and no family that likes my mom's side. That's the reason why I am on VT right now and not doing something else. I also have herniated disks in my back and neck so I can't do any physical activity and that caused me to gain weight and that makes me even more depressed and I don't know how to lose it.
Sorry for the long post, any advice?

[Croconaw]

I know exactly how you feel. I got bullied every single day before I transferred school districts. I don't get bullied anymore and I have a few friends. In my new school, my grades are much better. Over the summer, I was actually thinking of going to a cyber school. Although, I thought it would be beneficial to attend a public school instead. I had friends that turned on me and bullied me behind my back. I became so desperate for friends that I resorted to paying them to hang out with me. It was absolutely horrible because I came home crying every fucking day. I hated getting up in the morning to the same damn thing. I wake up, get bullied, come home, go to bed, and the cycle repeats. I am so much happier in my new school because I did something about it. I don't know if this helped you, but I do understand what you're going through right now.

[TheKingIam]

Just try and be more confident :/ ignore the insults because they don't know you at all and they shouldn't judge someone (let alone tell you to kill yourself) based on second hand info

Ignore the insults, your better than that, it gets better

[Tvex]

Do not let other people put you down. You mention you don't want to leave the house in fear you will be bullied. All those kids did was leave a lasting impression in your memory and those memories are preventing you from living out your life. Bullies are bullies for a reason. They pick on people for several reasons. Mostly because they envy other people and get self gratification from hurting other people. They continue the behavior not realizing that they are actually deteriorating the victims mental health, self confidence, self esteem .etc Also, friends who turn on your weren't your friends in the first place. Know inside that you are not worthless. I use to be what people call an "easy target". Very easy to mess with and people saw my weaknesses, But after learning to not care anymore I turned on people and stood up for myself and made my message clear to those who had something to say. Lets just say those bullies took 2 steps back.

[NeuroTiger]

Every human being has his place on planet Earth.
So obviously, you are not worthless.
Be strong!
These are the hurdles of life!!!
Come on dude!!!

[Kurgg]

Ignore and don't care.
The bullies have themselves problems with confidence, so they deal with it by bullying the weaker people. Have some friends to support you and to hang out with you. It is far unlikely happening, if there's more of you.
Never answer to their insults, as it will provoke them!