kittycat72
September 10th, 2016, 06:30 PM
I've posted about this same person over and over and things keep changing sadly :< but okay, I'll try to explain this without causing migraines of confusion.
ALSO: most of these actions in the story are mainly virtually rather than in person
so a long time ago, this girl liked me but was dating, then later i realized i liked her an incredible amount, so we started talking and stuff (mainly over virtual means) and after a year, she said she loved me and if she could restart and choose who to date between me and her bf, she'd date me. I was really happy, and we got even to the point where she was saying she wanted for us to kiss as these get togethers that she was invited to, but every time i didn't know what to do when the moment came so it didn't happen, and she'd question why didn't i kiss her, and i apologized and stuff, but that was actually my fault. and we said we'd try again next time, and it didn't happen cause I thought she was going to try to lead, but she didn't and then she said next time i would have a party, she would lead (i know it's stupid for me to be the person not able to lead but i'm nervous because I barley know anything and i don't want to disappoint her lol)
everything seemed sorta good, right? WELLLLLLL bad stuff hit the fan and now everything is messed up. after two years since she decided that she liked me and what not, she started ignoring me after she said she was having a fight with her boyfriend and when i questioned what was wrong, she just said she didn't want to talk to me and she just wanted to be left alone and sorta got mad i thought she was ignoring me. after a week, she was asking if we could try to be hide the weird relationship we had because it was making her feel guilty because she has her boyfriend still. I said that we can reduce it and hide stuff, and she agreed. then later i think i said i wanted to just explain stuff why i do wana keep it semi-visible, and so we called on skype and she ended up saying she wanted to end our whole relationship. it was REALLY sudden and there literally were no reasons i could see why. we fought that night about it, her kinda over doing it intentionally by saying really hurtful things like "I love [her bf] and only [her bf]". the next morning she blocked me when she asked if i wanted to be her friend and i replied with that i wanted to have some time before i can just be her regular friend again. (i later found out she said she was on her period during this whole fight) so it stayed that way for a while, her friends started hating me and she started spreading lies about me being the only one interested in her and she never liked me.
After a week or so, her friend messaged me and said "[the girl] wants to talk to you, its really important". so i unblocked her back and she asked if I logged into her account on facebook. thats it. i was kinda pissed that those were the first words she says to me after blocking me for a while. I asked if she was keeping me unblocked, and after an hour, she replied with she would for now.
i asked if she liked me or anything like that, and she hated every time i said it and always said no, i never liked you, etc. she blocked and unblocked me a couple times after for similar reasons. after a final blocking, she then unblocked me and started talking again. she said her and her boyfriend broke up, and usually they break up and get together again, but it's been a couple months and she's pretty sure it's final. she said she unblocked me because of stuff she heard i was saying about her. i asked her about the whole relationship thing and she said she understood what i meant and just wants to reset with that. To me that was a pretty happy thing for then. after two weeks or so, (probably a huge mistake) i asked if in the future is there any possibility or dating or anything, and she said no and it'll never happen. it became kinda a bad thing that i kept bringing up because i didn't know why she was acting that way, and she eventually said that she just didn't want to go back to dating for a "really really long time". that was at least a better resting point for me, so i was content with that.
Over the next week or two, she got REALLY irritated that i kept "spamming" her (meaning i would message one message after 10 minutes if she left me on read or if she didn't respond, i'd message after several hours). and there was this recent morning when she left me on read after i said good morning which she almost all the time replies back to, and because she was doing the left on read stuff so much, i got irritated and sent a message, and she started ignoring me from then on because i apparently yelling horribly at her in my message. i got her to talk towards that afternoon, and she then said it was because of that message that she was ignoring me, and that she was done with me because i'm constantly "clingy and yelling at her". i kept apologizing and she kept saying nope, i'm done with you. she blocked me, then i took it into a skype call a couple days later and she was laughing the whole time to the point that she kept muting herself so she wouldn't laugh so loudly. this fucking pissed me off. she was laughing at every single apology i tried making, and kept saying "I'm done with you" and that she was getting rid of me from her life. she even blamed me for her "bad grades", which was maybe 1 b out of her straight a's. i tried telling her i only yelled in messages because i'm angry, and she would get the same way also if she was angry, but she refused to say that she ever caused any problems in anything and that everything was my fault. I even told her that i'm going to go see a psychologist to help me with my clinginess problems and every problem possible, but she didn't care and kept laughing and said that it's a problem with me. then she ended the call after a good 30 minutes of talking. she told me to leave her alone several times in all caps, and then her friends all tell me the same thing, some more violently then others (luckily not physically ). she still left me unblocked on xbox messaging and skype, but blocked me on everything else like snapchat, text, facebook, etc. she's really caused a really severe number on me at this point.
I've left her alone since three days ago when she went as far to threaten that if i didn't leave her alone, she'd go to higher authorities and that i was harassing her by not stopping talking to her (even though she could just block me). I asked her friend about the situation and she said she doesn't know how long the girl is going to last hating me, but "please leave her alone". i feel bad, i honestly do, but the girl has kinda been a dick also.
HONESTLY, i feel that i seriously am in love with her, and i can't just let her go. seriously. thank you for reading it all so much, but please don't just say to move on, because i just can't. She's literally like a dream girl to me, and likes all the stuff I like, and I find her to literally be the most beautiful person that exists, but she's not like the super popular girl everyone knows about that everyone has a crush on.
I'm leaving her alone for as long as possible, but i don't know how easy it will be anymore because every-time i see her at school with her friends, she's laughing as loud as possible and looks so happy. I feel like theres a lot of misunderstanding between me and her, and idk how to deal with it. Maybe is there some way after a week or two if she hasn't said anything, to ask that me and her go somewhere in person and talk and work things out?
When she kept telling me to leave her alone and i told her that we need to work things out, she said she doesn't want to work things out and that she doesn't like me and doesn't want to be my friend, which kinda hurts a lot.
thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much in advance for any help. i'm really stressed about this to the point where i'm about to crack and possibly start going down the road of extreme depression, which doesn't usually end well sadly. I dont want to lose her by any means, but ok thanks again!
ALSO: most of these actions in the story are mainly virtually rather than in person
so a long time ago, this girl liked me but was dating, then later i realized i liked her an incredible amount, so we started talking and stuff (mainly over virtual means) and after a year, she said she loved me and if she could restart and choose who to date between me and her bf, she'd date me. I was really happy, and we got even to the point where she was saying she wanted for us to kiss as these get togethers that she was invited to, but every time i didn't know what to do when the moment came so it didn't happen, and she'd question why didn't i kiss her, and i apologized and stuff, but that was actually my fault. and we said we'd try again next time, and it didn't happen cause I thought she was going to try to lead, but she didn't and then she said next time i would have a party, she would lead (i know it's stupid for me to be the person not able to lead but i'm nervous because I barley know anything and i don't want to disappoint her lol)
everything seemed sorta good, right? WELLLLLLL bad stuff hit the fan and now everything is messed up. after two years since she decided that she liked me and what not, she started ignoring me after she said she was having a fight with her boyfriend and when i questioned what was wrong, she just said she didn't want to talk to me and she just wanted to be left alone and sorta got mad i thought she was ignoring me. after a week, she was asking if we could try to be hide the weird relationship we had because it was making her feel guilty because she has her boyfriend still. I said that we can reduce it and hide stuff, and she agreed. then later i think i said i wanted to just explain stuff why i do wana keep it semi-visible, and so we called on skype and she ended up saying she wanted to end our whole relationship. it was REALLY sudden and there literally were no reasons i could see why. we fought that night about it, her kinda over doing it intentionally by saying really hurtful things like "I love [her bf] and only [her bf]". the next morning she blocked me when she asked if i wanted to be her friend and i replied with that i wanted to have some time before i can just be her regular friend again. (i later found out she said she was on her period during this whole fight) so it stayed that way for a while, her friends started hating me and she started spreading lies about me being the only one interested in her and she never liked me.
After a week or so, her friend messaged me and said "[the girl] wants to talk to you, its really important". so i unblocked her back and she asked if I logged into her account on facebook. thats it. i was kinda pissed that those were the first words she says to me after blocking me for a while. I asked if she was keeping me unblocked, and after an hour, she replied with she would for now.
i asked if she liked me or anything like that, and she hated every time i said it and always said no, i never liked you, etc. she blocked and unblocked me a couple times after for similar reasons. after a final blocking, she then unblocked me and started talking again. she said her and her boyfriend broke up, and usually they break up and get together again, but it's been a couple months and she's pretty sure it's final. she said she unblocked me because of stuff she heard i was saying about her. i asked her about the whole relationship thing and she said she understood what i meant and just wants to reset with that. To me that was a pretty happy thing for then. after two weeks or so, (probably a huge mistake) i asked if in the future is there any possibility or dating or anything, and she said no and it'll never happen. it became kinda a bad thing that i kept bringing up because i didn't know why she was acting that way, and she eventually said that she just didn't want to go back to dating for a "really really long time". that was at least a better resting point for me, so i was content with that.
Over the next week or two, she got REALLY irritated that i kept "spamming" her (meaning i would message one message after 10 minutes if she left me on read or if she didn't respond, i'd message after several hours). and there was this recent morning when she left me on read after i said good morning which she almost all the time replies back to, and because she was doing the left on read stuff so much, i got irritated and sent a message, and she started ignoring me from then on because i apparently yelling horribly at her in my message. i got her to talk towards that afternoon, and she then said it was because of that message that she was ignoring me, and that she was done with me because i'm constantly "clingy and yelling at her". i kept apologizing and she kept saying nope, i'm done with you. she blocked me, then i took it into a skype call a couple days later and she was laughing the whole time to the point that she kept muting herself so she wouldn't laugh so loudly. this fucking pissed me off. she was laughing at every single apology i tried making, and kept saying "I'm done with you" and that she was getting rid of me from her life. she even blamed me for her "bad grades", which was maybe 1 b out of her straight a's. i tried telling her i only yelled in messages because i'm angry, and she would get the same way also if she was angry, but she refused to say that she ever caused any problems in anything and that everything was my fault. I even told her that i'm going to go see a psychologist to help me with my clinginess problems and every problem possible, but she didn't care and kept laughing and said that it's a problem with me. then she ended the call after a good 30 minutes of talking. she told me to leave her alone several times in all caps, and then her friends all tell me the same thing, some more violently then others (luckily not physically ). she still left me unblocked on xbox messaging and skype, but blocked me on everything else like snapchat, text, facebook, etc. she's really caused a really severe number on me at this point.
I've left her alone since three days ago when she went as far to threaten that if i didn't leave her alone, she'd go to higher authorities and that i was harassing her by not stopping talking to her (even though she could just block me). I asked her friend about the situation and she said she doesn't know how long the girl is going to last hating me, but "please leave her alone". i feel bad, i honestly do, but the girl has kinda been a dick also.
HONESTLY, i feel that i seriously am in love with her, and i can't just let her go. seriously. thank you for reading it all so much, but please don't just say to move on, because i just can't. She's literally like a dream girl to me, and likes all the stuff I like, and I find her to literally be the most beautiful person that exists, but she's not like the super popular girl everyone knows about that everyone has a crush on.
I'm leaving her alone for as long as possible, but i don't know how easy it will be anymore because every-time i see her at school with her friends, she's laughing as loud as possible and looks so happy. I feel like theres a lot of misunderstanding between me and her, and idk how to deal with it. Maybe is there some way after a week or two if she hasn't said anything, to ask that me and her go somewhere in person and talk and work things out?
When she kept telling me to leave her alone and i told her that we need to work things out, she said she doesn't want to work things out and that she doesn't like me and doesn't want to be my friend, which kinda hurts a lot.
thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much in advance for any help. i'm really stressed about this to the point where i'm about to crack and possibly start going down the road of extreme depression, which doesn't usually end well sadly. I dont want to lose her by any means, but ok thanks again!