redrider12
September 5th, 2016, 11:54 PM
So a little preface. I'll try not to go into the fine details in the latter part of this, but if I do, I'm happy to change them.
So a few months ago, I met a girl while on vacation. My family always goes out East to the beach each year, so nothing unusual for me. I was totally not expecting to meet anyone, though.
So I'm 18 as of now. And as it would happen, she's 20. Age isn't really much more than a number to me, it's a game of maturity (not that it matters, but my parents are 6 years apart, so they are my example).
We got to talking, and it turned out she was in college not too far from where I live. 3 hours to be exact - which certainly isn't "close", but it's easily doable.
We talked all summer, and finally agreed to meet up and catch a baseball game (go KC!) on her way back to school. I had no idea what to expect, frankly, as I'd never really done that type of thing before. It'd been a long time since I was in a relationship with any substance.
It went very well, and we both made plans again for what was this past weekend.
She came into the city and we spent the weekend out exploring. It was absolutely amazing - I'd spent the last three years of my life convincing myself that here I was, everything that decent girls hate. Until I met her. She makes me so happy on so many levels.
At the end of the weekend, there was a little bit of intimacy that I never in my wildest dreams would have expected. From the very beginning, we were intentional not to skip steps, to do it the right way not the sexual way. She sprang it on me, and being the 18 y/o male I am, I couldn't possibly resist.
We've had many discussions about boundaries, and we both agreed both before and as we were doing it that neither of us was uncomfortable doing it. It scared the crap out of me, being in a position where the logical side of me was saying too soon, but the primal side was saying yes.
This next weekend, I'm coming out to see her. We're going to be alone for the night in a hotel room away from campus. Frankly, I'm scared as hell that I'm going to do something wrong. Not wrong as in physical actions (been there enough times to know), but wrong as in breaching her trust by agreeing to do certain things. She was the one who got into it over the weekend, it wasn't me.
I really, really want this to last. I trust her, and she trusts me. I just don't want to let her down. Don't get me wrong, I want to have fun. But I don't want to do anything in the heat of the moment that either of us will regret.
Anyone have any words of insight?
So a few months ago, I met a girl while on vacation. My family always goes out East to the beach each year, so nothing unusual for me. I was totally not expecting to meet anyone, though.
So I'm 18 as of now. And as it would happen, she's 20. Age isn't really much more than a number to me, it's a game of maturity (not that it matters, but my parents are 6 years apart, so they are my example).
We got to talking, and it turned out she was in college not too far from where I live. 3 hours to be exact - which certainly isn't "close", but it's easily doable.
We talked all summer, and finally agreed to meet up and catch a baseball game (go KC!) on her way back to school. I had no idea what to expect, frankly, as I'd never really done that type of thing before. It'd been a long time since I was in a relationship with any substance.
It went very well, and we both made plans again for what was this past weekend.
She came into the city and we spent the weekend out exploring. It was absolutely amazing - I'd spent the last three years of my life convincing myself that here I was, everything that decent girls hate. Until I met her. She makes me so happy on so many levels.
At the end of the weekend, there was a little bit of intimacy that I never in my wildest dreams would have expected. From the very beginning, we were intentional not to skip steps, to do it the right way not the sexual way. She sprang it on me, and being the 18 y/o male I am, I couldn't possibly resist.
We've had many discussions about boundaries, and we both agreed both before and as we were doing it that neither of us was uncomfortable doing it. It scared the crap out of me, being in a position where the logical side of me was saying too soon, but the primal side was saying yes.
This next weekend, I'm coming out to see her. We're going to be alone for the night in a hotel room away from campus. Frankly, I'm scared as hell that I'm going to do something wrong. Not wrong as in physical actions (been there enough times to know), but wrong as in breaching her trust by agreeing to do certain things. She was the one who got into it over the weekend, it wasn't me.
I really, really want this to last. I trust her, and she trusts me. I just don't want to let her down. Don't get me wrong, I want to have fun. But I don't want to do anything in the heat of the moment that either of us will regret.
Anyone have any words of insight?