DoodleBug36
August 24th, 2016, 03:44 PM
So basically, about 5 weeks ago, my best friend invited me on a day out to Edinburgh. Obviously I said yeas, I'd love to go. However, on the bus there, she turned to me and said is it okay if I ask a guy she has been talking to online if he wants to meet up with us. I said no, I want it to be just the two of us....and anyway I would feel like a third wheel! She disregarded my comment and invited him anyway.😢 Anyway, we got into Edinburgh and met up with this other guy. My initial thoughts were he seems like a nice guy, and he's the sort of guy my friend tends to go for....and they are well suited!! It was only after about 4 or 5 hours I started to think he's a really great guy!
A couple of weeks passed afterwards and we met up again. This time I didn't feel like a third wheel which I was ecstatic about! My friend said to me I was acting funny, but I just shrugged it off as her being weird!
We met up with him again last week and I was really looking forward to it. A couple of days before we were due to meet up with him my friend and I were talking and she was asking really awkward questions about how I was feeling about things! "She said I really like him!" I stupidly reported "I don't blame you!" This lead her to ask if I fancied him!!! At this point I start to panic and deny everything! She saw right through my lies and screamed out "you do, don't you"!? After that, I couldn't hide it, and said yes. She tried to make light if it, but it really hurts me to think her and I both fancy the same guy ( who is bi ), he only knows she fancies him, and she is happy to accept me fancying him! I also told my friend the other night that there's a tiny bit of me wants to see if fail between them, and she was so understanding, and when I asked if she forgave me, get response was "there is nothing I can forgive you for! You've done nothing except be truly open with me and Im glad. Obviously you are going to want to see it fail, you fancy him....it's the same with anyone who fancies their friends guy, jealousy wants to see it fail. Therefore I have no reason to need to forgive you!"
I can't stop thinking about this guy!! I've cried myself to sleep most nights for the past month, and I can't get him off my mind! Am I a bad friend for being so open? Am I a bad friend because I fancy the guy my best friend wants a relationship with? I just don't know!! My friend says I have nothing g to worry about, but I think if I had nothing to worry about, I would be able to see this guy as a friend too, but I can't! What does any of this mean???
A couple of weeks passed afterwards and we met up again. This time I didn't feel like a third wheel which I was ecstatic about! My friend said to me I was acting funny, but I just shrugged it off as her being weird!
We met up with him again last week and I was really looking forward to it. A couple of days before we were due to meet up with him my friend and I were talking and she was asking really awkward questions about how I was feeling about things! "She said I really like him!" I stupidly reported "I don't blame you!" This lead her to ask if I fancied him!!! At this point I start to panic and deny everything! She saw right through my lies and screamed out "you do, don't you"!? After that, I couldn't hide it, and said yes. She tried to make light if it, but it really hurts me to think her and I both fancy the same guy ( who is bi ), he only knows she fancies him, and she is happy to accept me fancying him! I also told my friend the other night that there's a tiny bit of me wants to see if fail between them, and she was so understanding, and when I asked if she forgave me, get response was "there is nothing I can forgive you for! You've done nothing except be truly open with me and Im glad. Obviously you are going to want to see it fail, you fancy him....it's the same with anyone who fancies their friends guy, jealousy wants to see it fail. Therefore I have no reason to need to forgive you!"
I can't stop thinking about this guy!! I've cried myself to sleep most nights for the past month, and I can't get him off my mind! Am I a bad friend for being so open? Am I a bad friend because I fancy the guy my best friend wants a relationship with? I just don't know!! My friend says I have nothing g to worry about, but I think if I had nothing to worry about, I would be able to see this guy as a friend too, but I can't! What does any of this mean???