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BunniBoi
May 17th, 2016, 11:35 PM
it's been bothering me for 3 years now, my cousins and I were next to the X-mas tree laying down together it was the middle of the night we were all awake talking then after 30 minutes we experimented. No, you know, but anyway after that they stopped playing with me and now i feel like it's my fault, i just feel dirty, they were my only friends and i lost them i'm a fucking idiot :(
kevenity
May 18th, 2016, 12:22 AM
Don't beat yourself up, it's not your fault! They decided to do it with you so don't blame yourself entirely. Are you unable to talk to your cousins now? what's it like whenever you see them??
BunniBoi
May 19th, 2016, 08:44 AM
Don't beat yourself up, it's not your fault! They decided to do it with you so don't blame yourself entirely. Are you unable to talk to your cousins now? what's it like whenever you see them??

when i try and talk to them they stare at me, they talk about me, on the phone they hang up on me, and when i go to go home the family hugs me and they don't
BunniBoi
May 19th, 2016, 08:07 PM
How old are they?

they're both my age
Supermeggs12
May 19th, 2016, 11:00 PM
It's not your fault... as long as the ordeal was consensual.
BunniBoi
May 19th, 2016, 11:49 PM
It's not your fault... as long as the ordeal was consensual.

i don't quite remember if it was consensual but their nice guys they wouldn't force anything on me

well their not nice because they're mean to me but you know what i mean, right?

Double posts merged. ~ Abhorrence.
Falcons_11
May 21st, 2016, 07:45 PM
It's not your fault... as long as the ordeal was consensual.

I agree with Supermeggs. If all of you agreed to experiment for a while it can't be your fault. They are the ones being mean, not you. If they don't want to be friendly towards you I would just let it go and stay away from them. Maybe later on they will come back and be friends with you. But don't beat yourself up over it. You aren't at fault here.
JordanB777
May 24th, 2016, 04:19 PM
I wouldn't feel bad man. People experiment all the time. It sounds like they just have mixed feelings about doing it and it's probably new to them. Maybe after time they will feel better. They might just want some space. Good luck. :)