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[Ineedyou]

When I was 10 I saw a picture of a guy shirtless and i got a weird feeling, i began looking into it more because i was curious. When I was 11 i found out about sex, i found out that i was supposed to like girls and not guys. From 11 to 13 I tried to reject the feelings, I ignored them and forced myself to like girls. When I was 14 I gave up on forcing myself to like girls, i began watch gay porn. I kept my sexuality a secret from everyone. Now 17, no one knows who I am, i push everyone away who begins to get close, i can't let anyone know my secret. I fear the future of my life, I was told my whole life that gays are bad, I've watched my "friends" make fun of gays as i just sit their in silence, I've heard my family members talk down about gays, Ive seen the hate of the world and how they view me. Im sick of having to hide myself from everyone, but i can't let my secret out, i can't lose my friend and family. My parents are going to die not knowing who their son was. Im going to be alone forever because i cant love anyone without being disowned by everyone i know. I can't take it, i cant take putting on this show for everyone, i cant take pretending to be who im not, i cant take having to lie to everyone, i cant take myself. I hate myself, i hate the real me, i wish i was the person that i pretend to be, i wish i was normal, i wish i wasn't "gay" "faggot" "disgusting" "nasty" "unnatural"

At least you guys know my secret...

[Sailor Mars]

I find it more disgusting and unnatural that such a kind person feels spiteful of themselves because of others.

Like who you want to like.

Be who you want to be.

Don't change or feel repulsed by your natural attraction to dick just because someone else says you need to be. You're you, not who your family thinks you are. If you don't want to live a lie, then don't. It's not easy, but it is that simple.

You're free to chill with us dude.

[Bmble_B]

Dude, I went through exactly what you went through when I was younger. I saw a naked guy and got the weird feeling you had too. Then eventually I started realizing my sexuality, and tried to suppress it saying I liked girls. And eventually it didn't work. But then I realized I'm unique and that there's nothing wrong with me. I hope you realize you're perfect too, if you need someone I'm here.

[northy]

When I was 10 I saw a picture of a guy shirtless and i got a weird feeling, i began looking into it more because i was curious. When I was 11 i found out about sex, i found out that i was supposed to like girls and not guys. From 11 to 13 I tried to reject the feelings, I ignored them and forced myself to like girls. When I was 14 I gave up on forcing myself to like girls, i began watch gay porn. I kept my sexuality a secret from everyone. Now 17, no one knows who I am, i push everyone away who begins to get close, i can't let anyone know my secret. I fear the future of my life, I was told my whole life that gays are bad, I've watched my "friends" make fun of gays as i just sit their in silence, I've heard my family members talk down about gays, Ive seen the hate of the world and how they view me. Im sick of having to hide myself from everyone, but i can't let my secret out, i can't lose my friend and family. My parents are going to die not knowing who their son was. Im going to be alone forever because i cant love anyone without being disowned by everyone i know. I can't take it, i cant take putting on this show for everyone, i cant take pretending to be who im not, i cant take having to lie to everyone, i cant take myself. I hate myself, i hate the real me, i wish i was the person that i pretend to be, i wish i was normal, i wish i wasn't "gay" "faggot" "disgusting" "nasty" "unnatural"

At least you guys know my secret...

I can really relate to this as my experiences have been very similar. I'm managing to pull through it now at last, having come to accept who I am. You shouldn't deny who you are because you can't change it and in time you will accept that. You are born like that and you should be proud of who you are. Your sexuality is a single part of you, a multi-faceted person. It is as much a part of you as your eye colour, not something you can change and not something people will judge you on. Many people are accepting, you just need to find the right people. You don't have to lie, just work round the question. Telling lies will increase stress and pressure on you, as you will have to try and remember what you said. It only will make things worse.
Message me for support if you'd like.

[Vermilion]

When I was 10 I saw a picture of a guy shirtless and i got a weird feeling, i began looking into it more because i was curious. When I was 11 i found out about sex, i found out that i was supposed to like girls and not guys. From 11 to 13 I tried to reject the feelings, I ignored them and forced myself to like girls. When I was 14 I gave up on forcing myself to like girls, i began watch gay porn. I kept my sexuality a secret from everyone. Now 17, no one knows who I am, i push everyone away who begins to get close, i can't let anyone know my secret. I fear the future of my life, I was told my whole life that gays are bad, I've watched my "friends" make fun of gays as i just sit their in silence, I've heard my family members talk down about gays, Ive seen the hate of the world and how they view me. Im sick of having to hide myself from everyone, but i can't let my secret out, i can't lose my friend and family. My parents are going to die not knowing who their son was. Im going to be alone forever because i cant love anyone without being disowned by everyone i know. I can't take it, i cant take putting on this show for everyone, i cant take pretending to be who im not, i cant take having to lie to everyone, i cant take myself. I hate myself, i hate the real me, i wish i was the person that i pretend to be, i wish i was normal, i wish i wasn't "gay" "faggot" "disgusting" "nasty" "unnatural"

At least you guys know my secret...

Your not a faggot. I hate the term if I here anyone at college use the word I get very annoyed. You are normal for yourself. Don't let people tell you otherwise. History is full of gay people.

What is unnatural is being someone you aren't.

Where are you from ? And I'm sure there are gay people in your year at school and even gay people who are your religion.

You are a beautiful person.

[ska8er]

Whoa-Chill Bro-Ur beating urself up too much.
What makes u think u r going to b alone forever?
If u have these feelings-they r not wrong even tho
u hear bad things about being this way. I'm sure u
will meet someone in ur life that u will bond with in
some way. So ur keeping a secret now-sure it sucks
but that doesn't mean ur life is over. Just chill for now
and c what plays out.

[lemondrop]

Everything is ok, sexuality is just a thing. The most important is personality. Try to meet some people with the same thing it will be easier,also more things in common

[DoodleSnap]

There is so much to look forward to in life. I have been in a position where I struggled to see what the world had to offer me in the past, albeit for different reasons, but I managed to get through it and now I am finally starting to see some of the possibilities and fantastic things that I want to experience.

I know it's hard to look at all of these people all around you, and hear the way they talk about homosexuality, but you have to be confident in yourself, confident in knowing that you are on the right side of history. People will look back now upon homophobia in the same way that people look back upon other forms bigotry: as worthless and illogical nonsense. You have to remember that it is just that: nonsense.

I can't stop you from feeling this way entirely, but if you ever need to talk through some of your feelings, or explain how you feel ever, please don't hesitate to send me a VM or however you want.

Good luck.

[Bull]

Your not a faggot. I hate the term if I here anyone at college use the word I get very annoyed. You are normal for yourself. Don't let people tell you otherwise. History is full of gay people.

What is unnatural is being someone you aren't.

Where are you from ? And I'm sure there are gay people in your year at school and even gay people who are your religion.

You are a beautiful person.

My friend Tom is totally correct. You are totally normal. Stand tall and be the you God made you. We are here to support you. Call on us.

Peace and love

[BeautyBelle]

When I was 10 I saw a picture of a guy shirtless and i got a weird feeling, i began looking into it more because i was curious. When I was 11 i found out about sex, i found out that i was supposed to like girls and not guys. From 11 to 13 I tried to reject the feelings, I ignored them and forced myself to like girls. When I was 14 I gave up on forcing myself to like girls, i began watch gay porn. I kept my sexuality a secret from everyone. Now 17, no one knows who I am, i push everyone away who begins to get close, i can't let anyone know my secret. I fear the future of my life, I was told my whole life that gays are bad, I've watched my "friends" make fun of gays as i just sit their in silence, I've heard my family members talk down about gays, Ive seen the hate of the world and how they view me. Im sick of having to hide myself from everyone, but i can't let my secret out, i can't lose my friend and family. My parents are going to die not knowing who their son was. Im going to be alone forever because i cant love anyone without being disowned by everyone i know. I can't take it, i cant take putting on this show for everyone, i cant take pretending to be who im not, i cant take having to lie to everyone, i cant take myself. I hate myself, i hate the real me, i wish i was the person that i pretend to be, i wish i was normal, i wish i wasn't "gay" "faggot" "disgusting" "nasty" "unnatural"

At least you guys know my secret...
Wow, that's really blunt and honest. Your feelings are totally understandable, especially with how people in your life talk about gay people.

Just try to let go of this a little, you're really hurting and that's normal. But just try to relax and take a deep breath, it's going to be ok. You'll find people you can be yourself with, you won't be alone forever. Heck, maybe your friends and family will come around, it's harder to be intolerant when it's somebody you care about.

Stop being so hard on yourself, ok? I know you're hurting a lot right now, but you don't deserve to be talked about that way, not even by you yourself. We're here for you, and you'll find other people to be there for you too ;)