LoverForever200
April 3rd, 2016, 03:40 PM
Hello everyone. First of all, I'm french and not bilingual so i'm sorry for my poor language. I hope I'm in the good category for my post. I'm going to try to summarise my story which is quite long.
So I'm a guy, 16 yo and I'm going to high school. Let's talk about my two friends. Because my story is about 3 persons. So there's this girl, F. I've met her 10 years ago, she is my bestfriend since that day. We have done all our studies together, and will still do now, we re going at the same high school. There's this guy, K. We met him 5 years ago with F. Very nice, he became my best friend too. And be became F's boyfriend.
We were all friend and everything was all right till 3 years ago, when I was in 4eme (8th grade). This year, I started to notice that he was staring at me. I started to have feeling for K. He was the first and only guy I felt something for. I mean, I've loved girls before I liked him and I still do. Anyway, I started to love him, I told him, in facebook, not the good way I know and I regret. I have never seen his reaction live. So he told me he did not feel this way about me, he liked me as a friend.
So we both talk about it with F, she s my bbf and her gf so she would understand. And we were just 13. And I told them that I might have been wrong about my feelings, I had probably consider him as a great friend. That's true, I've trouble to make difference between friendship and love. And I told him, yeah we re just friends, I'm going to forget about this stupid feelings.
But I never did... I still felt something strong for him, he also still stared at me. I considered it as strong friendship until last year. He invited me F and another friend for a sleepover. F slept in his room, our friend solo in a sofa. And K and I both slept in the second sofa. (hot details coming)
During the night, I felt excited and I kinda touch him. Actually I touch his cock. I don't know how to describe how I felt (don't have the vocabulary...) but i was turned on and I was curious to touch it. I don't know if he was asleep but the following morning, when we were talking to each others or even to our other friends he looked at me in a weird way, like he had something to ask. But he did not, and we did not talk about the previous night.
Till last year we re not in the same high school. In france middle school lasts 4 years and high school lasts 3 years. So I can't see him every day, but we text each other a lot. And when F invites us with other friends he stills look at me especially when he s talking, like if he wants to make sure I'm listening.
This year, till September, we saw each other a lot. I'm going talk about only some moments. So the 11th of november (the day off), F invited only both us to sleepover. She was sleeping in her room, and with K we both sleep in a sofa. Something happened this night too. I touched him again. But I'm quite sure he was not asleep and let me do. He breathed irregularly and he moved aside when I stopped.
Anyway, I felt guilty about that, then I decided to meet him on December to apologise, I came to meet him in a public. Place. And I was like, it s the last time I talk to him, he will never forgive me... Then I told him I had never stop to love him till 8th grade, that I had touched him twice. I remember his reaction. I was staring the ground and he told me (trying to translate...): I don't blame you, I was asleep the whole time, but we re never gonna sleep together. And I think you should get you a girlfriend to forget about your feelings.
That's what he said. I was shocked. Because first he didn't blame me for what I had done. And next he even forgave me. And he was right I had to forget, I mean it's true, he s the only guy I had feelings for. Except him, I love girls. I love girls emotionally, physically and sexually. He's not a girl, but he s the only boy I love in the three ways as well. I decided to take some distance because I wanted to forget about him. I was okay with that.
I invited him for Xmas (so the distance did not last long^^)
We were only me and him, playing video games. I don't like to lose, so when I lose, and Ive lost, I fought with him (on a friend way). But I realised we were closer than before. Yes before he was a little touchy, but during the Xmas Holiday, I invited him three times, and all the time, he was close to me, always teasing me, being touchy...
That's what I don't understand, you tell a friend you love him and you've abused him and he is getting closer to you... My question is: do you think is straight? Okay I know it's hard to answer. But do you think his behaviour toward me is normal? I mean would a straight guy who has a girlfriend be that close to a guy in lover with his. And especially getting closer after I told him.
The most recent fact I can tell you is last week, for "Paques" (I do not know how to translate sorry). F invited us with another friend to sleepover. As always, I slept with K in the same bed. Even if I felt umconfortable at the begging, he was also uncomfortable but he does not want to admit it in our texts. Anyway we slept together. I did not sleep a lot but nothing happened this night. He was just very close to me in the bed. I mean I was turning face to the wall, he was turning face to me and getting closer. And the morning I noticed he was moving every 5 secs. Okay he moves a lot during the night, but Im pretty sure he was awake the morning. So he was moving a lot and he put his leg on mine and stayed like that for about 10 mn. I was faking to be asleep ^^
So. Thank you for those of you who read it all. So sorry for my poor English I'm trying to do my best. About the story, I'm still asking myself about K. Do you guys think he might felt Something for me? I mean I do not see myself with him later, but I would not say no if something could happen between us. He s with F, who is still my bff by the way, and she of course does not know about the nights. So yes my situation is complicated.
So I'm a guy, 16 yo and I'm going to high school. Let's talk about my two friends. Because my story is about 3 persons. So there's this girl, F. I've met her 10 years ago, she is my bestfriend since that day. We have done all our studies together, and will still do now, we re going at the same high school. There's this guy, K. We met him 5 years ago with F. Very nice, he became my best friend too. And be became F's boyfriend.
We were all friend and everything was all right till 3 years ago, when I was in 4eme (8th grade). This year, I started to notice that he was staring at me. I started to have feeling for K. He was the first and only guy I felt something for. I mean, I've loved girls before I liked him and I still do. Anyway, I started to love him, I told him, in facebook, not the good way I know and I regret. I have never seen his reaction live. So he told me he did not feel this way about me, he liked me as a friend.
So we both talk about it with F, she s my bbf and her gf so she would understand. And we were just 13. And I told them that I might have been wrong about my feelings, I had probably consider him as a great friend. That's true, I've trouble to make difference between friendship and love. And I told him, yeah we re just friends, I'm going to forget about this stupid feelings.
But I never did... I still felt something strong for him, he also still stared at me. I considered it as strong friendship until last year. He invited me F and another friend for a sleepover. F slept in his room, our friend solo in a sofa. And K and I both slept in the second sofa. (hot details coming)
During the night, I felt excited and I kinda touch him. Actually I touch his cock. I don't know how to describe how I felt (don't have the vocabulary...) but i was turned on and I was curious to touch it. I don't know if he was asleep but the following morning, when we were talking to each others or even to our other friends he looked at me in a weird way, like he had something to ask. But he did not, and we did not talk about the previous night.
Till last year we re not in the same high school. In france middle school lasts 4 years and high school lasts 3 years. So I can't see him every day, but we text each other a lot. And when F invites us with other friends he stills look at me especially when he s talking, like if he wants to make sure I'm listening.
This year, till September, we saw each other a lot. I'm going talk about only some moments. So the 11th of november (the day off), F invited only both us to sleepover. She was sleeping in her room, and with K we both sleep in a sofa. Something happened this night too. I touched him again. But I'm quite sure he was not asleep and let me do. He breathed irregularly and he moved aside when I stopped.
Anyway, I felt guilty about that, then I decided to meet him on December to apologise, I came to meet him in a public. Place. And I was like, it s the last time I talk to him, he will never forgive me... Then I told him I had never stop to love him till 8th grade, that I had touched him twice. I remember his reaction. I was staring the ground and he told me (trying to translate...): I don't blame you, I was asleep the whole time, but we re never gonna sleep together. And I think you should get you a girlfriend to forget about your feelings.
That's what he said. I was shocked. Because first he didn't blame me for what I had done. And next he even forgave me. And he was right I had to forget, I mean it's true, he s the only guy I had feelings for. Except him, I love girls. I love girls emotionally, physically and sexually. He's not a girl, but he s the only boy I love in the three ways as well. I decided to take some distance because I wanted to forget about him. I was okay with that.
I invited him for Xmas (so the distance did not last long^^)
We were only me and him, playing video games. I don't like to lose, so when I lose, and Ive lost, I fought with him (on a friend way). But I realised we were closer than before. Yes before he was a little touchy, but during the Xmas Holiday, I invited him three times, and all the time, he was close to me, always teasing me, being touchy...
That's what I don't understand, you tell a friend you love him and you've abused him and he is getting closer to you... My question is: do you think is straight? Okay I know it's hard to answer. But do you think his behaviour toward me is normal? I mean would a straight guy who has a girlfriend be that close to a guy in lover with his. And especially getting closer after I told him.
The most recent fact I can tell you is last week, for "Paques" (I do not know how to translate sorry). F invited us with another friend to sleepover. As always, I slept with K in the same bed. Even if I felt umconfortable at the begging, he was also uncomfortable but he does not want to admit it in our texts. Anyway we slept together. I did not sleep a lot but nothing happened this night. He was just very close to me in the bed. I mean I was turning face to the wall, he was turning face to me and getting closer. And the morning I noticed he was moving every 5 secs. Okay he moves a lot during the night, but Im pretty sure he was awake the morning. So he was moving a lot and he put his leg on mine and stayed like that for about 10 mn. I was faking to be asleep ^^
So. Thank you for those of you who read it all. So sorry for my poor English I'm trying to do my best. About the story, I'm still asking myself about K. Do you guys think he might felt Something for me? I mean I do not see myself with him later, but I would not say no if something could happen between us. He s with F, who is still my bff by the way, and she of course does not know about the nights. So yes my situation is complicated.