Ineedyou
April 1st, 2016, 12:39 AM
First off, im sorry if this is in the wrong section. I didn't know if I should've put it in relationships instead.
Im bi, I've only ever came out to really close friends and that's probably how it will stay. Im happy with myself, i just don't want to put myself out their, because I do know of the hate in the world... but that's beside the point. I'm attracted to my best friend, who is straight... we met almost two years ago and he is the kind of person that can get me out of any bad mood. We've talked to each other every single day for the entirety of our friendship and we've grown extremely close. I know everything about him and he knows everything about me. My attraction for him began at the start, when he began flirting heavily towards me. He would talk pretty dirty, but he would do it in a way where i can't tell if its as the typically "straight guy joke" or if hes hinting at something. I flirted back and we would get pretty sexual, but we never actually did anything. Its killing me not to be with him and i know you guys will say "just tell him your bi", but the one thing that worries me was that when we first met we somehow got on the topic of gays and he said it was disgusting. It all confuses me how he says being gay is disgusting, but then he goes and talks sexual to me. I kinda think that he may be confused in his sexuality or maybe he doesn't want people to think hes gay, but i dont know what to do. If i come out to him i may lose him as a friend and i dont know if i could live with that. Things are good now, but ive learned from the past if you dont go after someone, soon you will lose your chance. Is there anyway to find out his feelings without comming out myself?
Im bi, I've only ever came out to really close friends and that's probably how it will stay. Im happy with myself, i just don't want to put myself out their, because I do know of the hate in the world... but that's beside the point. I'm attracted to my best friend, who is straight... we met almost two years ago and he is the kind of person that can get me out of any bad mood. We've talked to each other every single day for the entirety of our friendship and we've grown extremely close. I know everything about him and he knows everything about me. My attraction for him began at the start, when he began flirting heavily towards me. He would talk pretty dirty, but he would do it in a way where i can't tell if its as the typically "straight guy joke" or if hes hinting at something. I flirted back and we would get pretty sexual, but we never actually did anything. Its killing me not to be with him and i know you guys will say "just tell him your bi", but the one thing that worries me was that when we first met we somehow got on the topic of gays and he said it was disgusting. It all confuses me how he says being gay is disgusting, but then he goes and talks sexual to me. I kinda think that he may be confused in his sexuality or maybe he doesn't want people to think hes gay, but i dont know what to do. If i come out to him i may lose him as a friend and i dont know if i could live with that. Things are good now, but ive learned from the past if you dont go after someone, soon you will lose your chance. Is there anyway to find out his feelings without comming out myself?