Everyone pretends to care...No one really does

[dreamofdante]

Since I was 15 I wanted to kill myself. The pain inside of me from my abusive childhood and terrible teenage years just culminated in me wanting to stop. I'm 18 now and never could go through with anything because the only way of suicide I want is from a gun. Quick and painless. I've noticed that the people I talk to seemingly pretend to care about what I'm talking about or the conversation in general as if it's a chore to talk to me. Or if I'm down and out and need someone there for me, it's like it's too much. Or I'm too overly negative. I can't see my life going anywhere at this point. I'll never meet a girl or have kids. I'm too ugly and unlovable for that. My job skills are slim to nothing. I just don't know anymore. Do any of you have any advice as to what I should do here?

[ksdnfkfr]

Well first off you have to accept your life for what it is. Period.
You can dwell on what you dont have that you want.
You can think about what you dont have that you do not want.
Its all really a matter of personal perspective.
I certainly do not have a life most people would want since i am autistic,
intellectually disabled and have motor skills dysfunction including speech.
But i feel i got a better deal than my friend who is a C5 quadriplegic.
One of the things he is most thankful for is that he does not need a respirator.
Can you imagine that?
That does not make personal pain any less significant, but it goes towards how
you can look at things in your life. You and I actually have a lot to be thankful
for, and do actually have a life that is worth living based on what little we do
have which is substantially lacking in the lives of others.

[dreamofdante]

Well first off you have to accept your life for what it is. Period.
You can dwell on what you dont have that you want.
You can think about what you dont have that you do not want.
Its all really a matter of personal perspective.
I certainly do not have a life most people would want since i am autistic,
intellectually disabled and have motor skills dysfunction including speech.
But i feel i got a better deal than my friend who is a C5 quadriplegic.
One of the things he is most thankful for is that he does not need a respirator.
Can you imagine that?
That does not make personal pain any less significant, but it goes towards how
you can look at things in your life.

No matter what I say here, I hope you know I have compassion for what you've been through. I'm just saying that how can there be value in my life if I'll never do anything with it? You know?

[Plasma]

You just need to change your view on life. You're right, you aren't going anywhere right now. Doesn't that make you at least want to give it a shot? There's no harm in trying, and you'll be happy that you did. Start working out, it makes you a lot happier and you'll feel better about yourself. Also, try to lose the negativity. I'm guessing that if people really don't want to talk to you, it's because of the constant negativity. We can all tell you this multiple times on here like we have, but it's up to you to make a change man. Good luck

[ksdnfkfr]

No matter what I say here, I hope you know I have compassion for what you've been through. I'm just saying that how can there be value in my life if I'll never do anything with it? You know?

Thanks and what im trying to get across is that when i say i know how you feel, i really do know how you feel rather than just saying that. You really have no idea of what you will do with your life or how it will go. But i think you can enjoy your life as is to a degree if you let yourself. Lots of guys get married and then end up divorced and having to pay child support on a couple of kids who love their stepdad more. Personally id rather stay
unmarried my life than that.

[dreamofdante]

You just need to change your view on life. You're right, you aren't going anywhere right now. Doesn't that make you at least want to give it a shot? There's no harm in trying, and you'll be happy that you did. Start working out, it makes you a lot happier and you'll feel better about yourself. Also, try to lose the negativity. I'm guessing that if people really don't want to talk to you, it's because of the constant negativity. We can all tell you this multiple times on here like we have, but it's up to you to make a change man. Good luck

I hope you can understand that I'm negative because nothing positive ever happens in my life. If I had people in my life who supported me and helped me get through things, I might be okay but I feel like even then, no one gives a shit about me. And some things can be deemed negative but it's simply because I can't do the things that are asked of me...

Thanks and what im trying to get across is that when i say i know how you feel, i really do know how you feel rather than just saying that. You really have no idea of what you will do with your life or how it will go. But i think you can enjoy your life as is to a degree if you let yourself. Lots of guys get married and then end up divorced and having to pay child support on a couple of kids who love their stepdad more. Personally id rather stay
unmarried my life than that.

Yeah I know what you mean. Ever since I was a kid though I wanted to be a happy family man with kids and a decent enough job. It's so average for people yet it's like I'm meant to never have it.

[Plasma]

I hope you can understand that I'm negative because nothing positive ever happens in my life. If I had people in my life who supported me and helped me get through things, I might be okay but I feel like even then, no one gives a shit about me. And some things can be deemed negative but it's simply because I can't do the things that are asked of me...

Fuck everyone then! You don't need them. Just do you. Forget about trying to please anyone or be with anyone until you're happy with yourself. Pick up a hobby, start lifting weights, play video games and meet people online. Anything! You really don't need to live up to anyone's expectations except your own

[dreamofdante]

Fuck everyone then! You don't need them. Just do you. Forget about trying to please anyone or be with anyone until you're happy with yourself. Pick up a hobby, start lifting weights, play video games and meet people online. Anything! You really don't need to live up to anyone's expectations except your own

I'm trying to meet people through here and it seems I get ignored after a while. I would like to meet people I could be a consistent friend with but they stop talking or it gets too hellish. I play video games now as it is because I don't have much else to do. I write and I'm trying to make films if that'll work. I just don't know. My future is looking bleak. I would never want to get to the point of being homeless.

[Plasma]

I'm trying to meet people through here and it seems I get ignored after a while. I would like to meet people I could be a consistent friend with but they stop talking or it gets too hellish. I play video games now as it is because I don't have much else to do. I write and I'm trying to make films if that'll work. I just don't know. My future is looking bleak. I would never want to get to the point of being homeless.

Honestly, you need to not be negative around people. Just stop, and they'll talk to you. And it's good that you've found things to do. Find more and stop worrying about people. You won't be homeless either. You can find a low end job thatll pay for an apartment

[dreamofdante]

Honestly, you need to not be negative around people. Just stop, and they'll talk to you. And it's good that you've found things to do. Find more and stop worrying about people. You won't be homeless either. You can find a low end job thatll pay for an apartment

I'm one of those guys who always wanted to find some kind of way to make a real difference and I don't know if I'll ever do that. I feel so meaningless. I don't know if that means I'm having an existential crisis or not.

[ksdnfkfr]

Yeah I know what you mean. Ever since I was a kid though I wanted to be a happy family man with kids and a decent enough job. It's so average for people yet it's like I'm meant to never have it.

How many people have a family and a career at 18 though? I mean if you were 28 or 38 that would be one thing. But you have not even started in life from being a kid yet. You have already condemned yourself as a failure for life before even getting started.

[Plasma]

I'm one of those guys who always wanted to find some kind of way to make a real difference and I don't know if I'll ever do that. I feel so meaningless. I don't know if that means I'm having an existential crisis or not.

I don't know what to tell you dude. You trash whatever people tell you when they try to help and wallow in self pity. Honestly, it's going to get you nowhere. You have to do this on your own and stop caring about how life will turn out, and just live it. It'll all work out

[dreamofdante]

How many people have a family and a career at 18 though? I mean if you were 28 or 38 that would be one thing. But you have not even started in life from being a kid yet. You have already condemned yourself as a failure for life before even getting started.

Yeah I know. It's pretty sad but that's how it is. No girl has ever wanted me and they never will. They all reject me or leave me because they never liked me so it'll never happen. I'm 18 and I haven't kissed anyone either and it's not like a girl I know has a crush on me. That's never been the case. And when I'm 28 and if I'm still alone like this, God man I wouldn't see what the point is. No family...That's just...That's harsh.

I don't know what to tell you dude. You trash whatever people tell you when they try to help and wallow in self pity. Honestly, it's going to get you nowhere. You have to do this on your own and stop caring about how life will turn out, and just live it. It'll all work out

Thanks for trying to help me man...

[Plasma]

Yeah I know. It's pretty sad but that's how it is. No girl has ever wanted me and they never will. They all reject me or leave me because they never liked me so it'll never happen. I'm 18 and I haven't kissed anyone either and it's not like a girl I know has a crush on me. That's never been the case. And when I'm 28 and if I'm still alone like this, God man I wouldn't see what the point is. No family...That's just...That's harsh.



Thanks for trying to help me man...

I've never kissed anyone either. I'm just as inexperienced as you are, but I'm not worried about it. Start working out. Seriously. It helps

[dreamofdante]

I've never kissed anyone either. I'm just as inexperienced as you are, but I'm not worried about it. Start working out. Seriously. It helps

I'm supposedly getting exercise equipment soon. I don't know.

[ksdnfkfr]

Yeah I know. It's pretty sad but that's how it is. No girl has ever wanted me and they never will. They all reject me or leave me because they never liked me so it'll never happen. I'm 18 and I haven't kissed anyone either and it's not like a girl I know has a crush on me. That's never been the case. And when I'm 28 and if I'm still alone like this, God man I wouldn't see what the point is. No family...That's just...That's harsh.

Life is harsh. Accept that. It is harsh. Its not a picnic for anyone.
My quadriplegic friend who broke his neck in a trampoline accident when he was 8 and cant even go to the bathroom by himself or wipe his own ass and has to be fed by someone like a baby.... That's harsh.

And if he kept going on and on about how harsh things were for him and putting out waves of despair and negativity, no one would want to be around him. But the thing with him is that despite how raw of a deal he got, and probably thinks about killing himself every night (which he's incapable of doing since he cant even hold a gun etc) is that he acts like an upbeat person. He's the kind of guy you like being around. He always has something positive to say and i have never heard him actually complain once.

He has next to nothing to 'live for' as you put it, but he makes the most out of life anyways. And i cant help but feel im 'wasting my breath' by saying this to you, cause you are just probably going to go right back to square one.

[dreamofdante]

Life is harsh. Accept that. It is harsh. Its not a picnic for anyone.
My quadriplegic friend who broke his neck in a trampoline accident when he was 8 and cant even go to the bathroom by himself or wipe his own ass and has to be fed by someone like a baby.... That's harsh.
And if he kept going on and on about how harsh things were for him and putting out waves of despair and negativity, no one would want to be around him. But the thing with Tim is that despite how raw of a deal he got, and probably thinks about killing himself every night (which he's incapable of doing since he cant even hold a gun etc) is that he acts like an upbeat person. He's the kind of guy you like being around. He always has something positive to say and i have never heard him actually complain once. He has next to nothing to 'live for' as you put it, but he makes the most out of life anyways. And i cant help but feel im 'wasting my breath' by saying this to you, cause you are just probably going to go right back to square one.

I'm sorry and he sounds like a really good person. Really strong willed. I'd never live like that. I'm way too much of a realist for my own good. Realists can never be optimists like him. And I am getting the feeling that no one likes me and they want me to kill myself. Especially on here. But yeah I wish there was something I could do to help him.

Edit: And if I could give my life to let him walk again and have a life, I'd do that. He deserves it more than me.

[ksdnfkfr]

I am getting the feeling that no one likes me and they want me to kill myself.

What I think is that is what you are trying to achieve, whether you know it or not.

"I appreciate your advice/concern, but it is useless to me and I know you really do not give a shit and want me to die" That is how you sound and I do not think it is the least bit realistic.

[dreamofdante]

What I think is that is what you are trying to achieve, whether you know it or not.

"I appreciate your advice/concern, but it is useless to me and I know you really do not give as shit and want me to die" That is how you sound and I do not think it is the least bit realistic.

What am I supposed to reply to this? Yeah you're absolutely right. You're in no way putting words into my mouth.

[ksdnfkfr]

What am I supposed to reply to this? Yeah you're absolutely right. You're in no way putting words into my mouth.

I tried to help and I failed. I am sorry.

[dreamofdante]

I tried to help and I failed. I am sorry.

There is no need to be sorry. Maybe I'll think about it and it'll help me down the line. Don't apologize. It all helps. It's just hard to tell if you're being nice or mean about some of the things you say.

[ksdnfkfr]

It's just hard to tell if you're being nice or mean about some of the things you say.

That is because of my autism. It causes me to be blunt and and purely honest. Not the worlds best social skill I know. But I am not really capable of being mean. Plus I think that you are a nice person and I like you.

[dreamofdante]

That is because of my autism. It causes me to be blunt and and purely honest. Not the worlds best social skill I know. But I am not really capable of being mean. Plus I think that you are a nice person and I like you.

I know and I should be more understanding. I just get my feelings hurt way easier than most. I'm pretty broken and fragile so I take almost everything personally. But thank you and I like you too. :)

[Caver]

You're too pessimistic. You seem to walk away from things and people too easily. You think the worse, when people try and help you and liked talking to you, you just abandoned them so don't say women abandoned you, when you probably abandoned some of them without even knowing.

[dreamofdante]

You're too pessimistic. You seem to walk away from things and people too easily. You think the worse, when people try and help you and liked talking to you, you just abandoned them so don't say women abandoned you, when you probably abandoned some of them without even knowing.

Yeah you're right. I do have a very pessimistic view on things. And I'm scared of just about everything that could go wrong. And I fuck up constantly because of it. And I never meant to upset you. That was the last thing on my mind. I loved Skyping you and talking but there were some days when you wanted to Skype and I was a mess. And recently, there's a HUGE amount of bad things happening that stress me out and I don't know what to do. I am sorry if I hurt you and made you feel abandoned because it's not my intention. I was going to Skype you. I wasn't abandoning you. But lately I feel like the walls are closing in. It's more my brain's reaction than anything. It's not that I didn't like you. There's something wrong with me.

[Caver]

Yeah you're right. I do have a very pessimistic view on things. And I'm scared of just about everything that could go wrong. And I fuck up constantly because of it. And I never meant to upset you. That was the last thing on my mind. I loved Skyping you and talking but there were some days when you wanted to Skype and I was a mess. And recently, there's a HUGE amount of bad things happening that stress me out and I don't know what to do. I am sorry if I hurt you and made you feel abandoned because it's not my intention. I was going to Skype you. I wasn't abandoning you. But lately I feel like the walls are closing in. It's more my brain's reaction than anything. It's not that I didn't like you. There's something wrong with me.

I don't know what to say about this ;/

[dreamofdante]

I don't know what to say about this ;/

Read it over, let it sink in, and maybe PM me what you think later. I'm not mad at you or upset. And I don't want you to be at me either. So just read it and think it over. I'll probably be around for a while.

[Caver]

Read it over, let it sink in, and maybe PM me what you think later. I'm not mad at you or upset. And I don't want you to be at me either. So just read it and think it over. I'll probably be around for a while.

Alright, I'll do it after school :p I am not exactly mad or angry...

[dreamofdante]

Alright, I'll do it after school :p I am not exactly mad or angry...

Okay that's fine. At some point I want to try and sleep but I don't know. It's 3 in the morning and I'm feeling mildly awake. Just PM whenever you can. I'll get back to you eventually.

[AlexOnToast]

I tried to help and I failed. I am sorry.

I think you did more than enough.... If your help is chosen to be interpretted in a negative way, you can't be blamed.

[DeadEyes]

Since I was 15 I wanted to kill myself. The pain inside of me from my abusive childhood and terrible teenage years just culminated in me wanting to stop. I'm 18 now and never could go through with anything because the only way of suicide I want is from a gun. Quick and painless. I've noticed that the people I talk to seemingly pretend to care about what I'm talking about or the conversation in general as if it's a chore to talk to me. Or if I'm down and out and need someone there for me, it's like it's too much. Or I'm too overly negative. I can't see my life going anywhere at this point. I'll never meet a girl or have kids. I'm too ugly and unlovable for that. My job skills are slim to nothing. I just don't know anymore. Do any of you have any advice as to what I should do here?

First and foremost, I will need to make use of a pretty cliché saying here: never say never.

You can't know if or when you will have a girlfriend and if or when you will have kids. The only certitude in life is that there is no certitudes (what a wonderful paradox).

You will have to agree that far less good looking and smart people have girlfriends and kids, so if they can, why not you.

You say that you want to make a difference and that is admirable of you but we can't all make such a difference because in fact who are we, only a few can brag they invented something revolutionary that changed humanity. Other than that, we are all somewhat meaningless.

Point is: we do not all owe to be extraordinary to feel the right to live. As disabled and good for nothing as we might be, we still can go on even if we can't go on, we don't need a reason to live.

Besides, you mentioned you started making movies, you might have found yourself a talent right there and who knows, you might just become a renowned film maker.

Last but not least: you often mentioned you felt bad because nobody care about you but why do you feel the need of care from others so much? You my friend shouldn't care that they don't care. The only person who should care for you, is you. If you could careless enough about you, why somebody else should care for you? So...

Take care of yourself alright.

[dreamofdante]

First and foremost, I will need to make use of a pretty cliché saying here: never say never.

You can't know if or when you will have a girlfriend and if or when you will have kids. The only certitude in life is that there is no certitudes (what a wonderful paradox).

You will have to agree that far less good looking and smart people have girlfriends and kids, so if they can, why not you.

You say that you want to make a difference and that is admirable of you but we can't all make such a difference because in fact who are we, only a few can brag they invented something revolutionary that changed humanity. Other than that, we are all somewhat meaningless.

Point is: we do not all owe to be extraordinary to feel the right to live. As disabled and good for nothing as we might be, we still can go on even if we can't go on, we don't need a reason to live.

Besides, you mentioned you started making movies, you might have found yourself a talent right there and who knows, you might just become a renowned film maker.

Last but not least: you often mentioned you felt bad because nobody care about you but why do you feel the need of care from others so much? You my friend shouldn't care that they don't care. The only person who should care for you, is you. If you could careless enough about you, why somebody else should care for you? So...

Take care of yourself alright.

I suppose you're right. I don't know how things are going to go and there's no definitive way of knowing but it's like a really bad gut feeling I have. If filmmaking turns out to be something that works for me, then that's perfect because it's really all I can see myself doing. Hopefully I'll have enough stories to make a living...But I don't know. The reason I think I'll never have a wife and kids I guess is because I feel tainted somehow. I've had awful luck so far and most women don't seem to like me for me or even begin to accept what's wrong with me. So I don't know.

[DeadEyes]

I have such bad luck that I wonder sometimes if i wasn't damned by the devil himself hehe, in fact I am exaggerating, because it's like some people said here, certain persons has much less luck than we have.

Some say that life is what you make of it and I agree to a certain extent, go on and make the most daring films about those stories you want to tell and don't let anybody stop you.

[dreamofdante]

I have such bad luck that I wonder sometimes if i wasn't damned by the devil himself hehe, in fact I am exaggerating, because it's like some people said here, certain persons has much less luck than we have.

Some say that life is what you make of it and I agree to a certain extent, go on and make the most daring films about those stories you want to tell and don't let anybody stop you.

I agree. I feel damned by the devil too.

Thanks man. Hopefully I will. This is the year where it'll either show that I can do it or I give up all together.

[DeadEyes]

You know, if certain people gave up at the first obstacle, they would have never made it where they are today, like I said, you never know so you never know when your efforts will pay off.

About feeling damned, I was kidding by the way but seriously I don't believe in bad karma or karma whatsoever, in god and the devil, even less. So everything in life would random, the theory of chaos, you can never know.

[dreamofdante]

You know, if certain people gave up at the first obstacle, they would have never made it where they are today, like I said, you never know so you never know when your efforts will pay off.

About feeling damned, I was kidding by the way but seriously I don't believe in bad karma or karma whatsoever, in god and the devil, even less. So everything in life would random, the theory of chaos, you can never know.

Yeah I guess so. The films I'm working on now are undoubtedly the best I'd ever put out so if they don't work then that's not good at all.

Yeah I don't believe in it either but it's just nonstop bullshit with me all the time. I have terrible luck.

[DeadEyes]

Always remain doubtful of those who judge your art though: it's not because one person decide it's bad that it necessarily is.

[dreamofdante]

Always remain doubtful of those who judge your art though: it's not because one person decide it's bad that it necessarily is.

I'm more concerned with the overall consensus

[KansasNavy]

Hey man, I read your post about feeling like no one cares. Let me just say that I can totally relate to that feeling. If you want to be friends, maybe I'll even tell you my life story.

But for now, I just want to say a few things:
1.)You stated in one of your post reply's that you aren't deserving of an average life. Yeah, you're right, you don't deserve average when you can be extraordinary.
2.)It's like this: at some point in your life, someone or something is going to draw a line in front of you (metaphorical or literal), and ask you to cross it. Now you can decide not to, and try to be average, or you can cross the line and become something amazing. Choice is up to you.
3.)All this pain that you're experiencing right now will create who you will become. Channel all this pain, misery, sorrow, loneliness, and so on into something worth fighting for.
4.)In life, you're gonna get knocked down more times than anyone can count. You decide whether you'll get back up or not. If you do, you will be 10x better off than if you had just wallowed in the dirt.
5.)Trying and failing at something makes you 10x more a man than if you had just said "What if?"
6.)One last important thing: Never, never, never give up.

Regards,
Sam

[dreamofdante]

Hey man, I read your post about feeling like no one cares. Let me just say that I can totally relate to that feeling. If you want to be friends, maybe I'll even tell you my life story.

But for now, I just want to say a few things:
1.)You stated in one of your post reply's that you aren't deserving of an average life. Yeah, you're right, you don't deserve average when you can be extraordinary.
2.)It's like this: at some point in your life, someone or something is going to draw a line in front of you (metaphorical or literal), and ask you to cross it. Now you can decide not to, and try to be average, or you can cross the line and become something amazing. Choice is up to you.
3.)All this pain that you're experiencing right now will create who you will become. Channel all this pain, misery, sorrow, loneliness, and so on into something worth fighting for.
4.)In life, you're gonna get knocked down more times than anyone can count. You decide whether you'll get back up or not. If you do, you will be 10x better off than if you had just wallowed in the dirt.
5.)Trying and failing at something makes you 10x more a man than if you had just said "What if?"
6.)One last important thing: Never, never, never give up.

Regards,
Sam

I would like very much to be your friend and I appreciate your kind advice. Thank you very much Sam. :)

[DarkHorse4eva]

we always see the worst in ourself, while others see the best. we're all doomed to see the worst in ourself, and nothing can change that. maybe you can't see the light now, but it will happen, it takes patience.

[KansasNavy]

I would like very much to be your friend and I appreciate your kind advice. Thank you very much Sam. :)

I would like to be your friend too Jack! Can I ask what kind of movies you work on? It sounds interesting! :D

[Etcetera]

Your life has a purpose and is very precious, make the best of it, despite what may have happened, be your shining self in this dark world.

[dreamofdante]

I would like to be your friend too Jack! Can I ask what kind of movies you work on? It sounds interesting! :D

They're sort of like an analysis of American society and all the major fields of society itself and how they interact with each other. And also how they affect the country. So we study police, criminals, politicians, religious figures, and ordinary citizens. So in a way I guess you could say it's about life. I have other ideas for films but these are the ones I want to focus on right now.

[sweet_girl24au]

Hey

Just remember that sometimes it takes ourselves to fix ourselves, if that makes sense.

If you reject or are sceptical of everyones help then its really up to you!

And you CAN make it happen!

[KansasNavy]

They're sort of like an analysis of American society and all the major fields of society itself and how they interact with each other. And also how they affect the country. So we study police, criminals, politicians, religious figures, and ordinary citizens. So in a way I guess you could say it's about life. I have other ideas for films but these are the ones I want to focus on right now.

That honestly sounds pretty interesting in my opinion. How far along are you in the process?

[dreamofdante]

Hey

Just remember that sometimes it takes ourselves to fix ourselves, if that makes sense.

If you reject or are sceptical of everyones help then its really up to you!

And you CAN make it happen!

Thanks, hun.

That honestly sounds pretty interesting in my opinion. How far along are you in the process?

Thanks! I'm in the writing/concept stages trying to make everything the best that they can be. I've been filming a few things here and there.

[KansasNavy]

Awesome! Are you working with other people on this project?

[Hundred Spirited God]

ive been through the same problems as you have,i did what johntaylor said about socializing and it worked and i made a friend,and i know your stressed but bad thing have to happen,if they dont,you'll only have good in you and you wont be able to tell whats right from wrong,and my girlfriend had a facebook photo that said "the mistreated people are the nicest ones",and the nicest ones are very sensitive and that can even have a downside,my girlfriend told me she was a vampire,that was a lie,she told me she was in the hospital and she was sick and dying,that was a lie,shes told nothing but lies,and i had three anxiety attacks while ive been with her,and now i think somethings wrong with my pancreas,im diabetic so i can get health problems easier,so what im saying is that you can meet people online,and you should really be careful who you trust and believe,as far as the self esteem,you shouldnt care about what people think,i have long fingernails and hair and my dad and brothers complain,but i think about how it would benefit me

[dreamofdante]

Awesome! Are you working with other people on this project?

Yes of course. Multiple people.

ive been through the same problems as you have,i did what johntaylor said about socializing and it worked and i made a friend,and i know your stressed but bad thing have to happen,if they dont,you'll only have good in you and you wont be able to tell whats right from wrong,and my girlfriend had a facebook photo that said "the mistreated people are the nicest ones",and the nicest ones are very sensitive and that can even have a downside,my girlfriend told me she was a vampire,that was a lie,she told me she was in the hospital and she was sick and dying,that was a lie,shes told nothing but lies,and i had three anxiety attacks while ive been with her,and now i think somethings wrong with my pancreas,im diabetic so i can get health problems easier,so what im saying is that you can meet people online,and you should really be careful who you trust and believe,as far as the self esteem,you shouldnt care about what people think,i have long fingernails and hair and my dad and brothers complain,but i think about how it would benefit me

Well I'm sorry to hear that you're having all those issues. That's really sad and I feel for you :( But yeah I know I shouldn't care so much.

[Hundred Spirited God]

Yes of course. Multiple people.



Well I'm sorry to hear that you're having all those issues. That's really sad and I feel for you :( But yeah I know I shouldn't care so much.

its okay,im doing a lot better,and im actually starting to miss my friend even though she treated me like crap,but i hoped the advice i gave you helped :)

[dreamofdante]

its okay,im doing a lot better,and im actually starting to miss my friend even though she treated me like crap,but i hoped the advice i gave you helped :)

It made me feel a little better so thanks. And I wish you well!

[Hundred Spirited God]

It made me feel a little better so thanks. And I wish you well!

your welcome,and as far as having a girlfriend,just pray to god and do right,everything will get better,your life might be stressful when your with god but that shows your living for him,if you need someone to talk to anytime,just pm me :)

[dreamofdante]

your welcome,and as far as having a girlfriend,just pray to god and do right,everything will get better,your life might be stressful when your with god but that shows your living for him,if you need someone to talk to anytime,just pm me :)

Thanks man

[Hundred Spirited God]

Thanks man

your welcome,glad i could help :)

[KansasNavy]

Thanks man

I apologize for my absence; school has been weighing me down a ton. I spent 8 straight hours on homework last night.

On a different note, I'm glad to hear you're doing better Jack, and we will always be here for you if you ever need to talk. :)

Once I get PM status, I'll contact you if you want! :)

[dreamofdante]

I apologize for my absence; school has been weighing me down a ton. I spent 8 straight hours on homework last night.

On a different note, I'm glad to hear you're doing better Jack, and we will always be here for you if you ever need to talk. :)

Once I get PM status, I'll contact you if you want! :)

Yeah no worries. Feel free to do so when you can. I'll get back in touch.