Not Felling Alive

[Limited_Piko]

Ever since about a week ago, I have been feeling numb. I don't feel as if I exist and when I think about things everything seems to be wrong. I get angry and have these small little outbursts in my mind and i begin to shake. I just wanna shout and scream but I feel as if I can't because I'm locked up. Everything seems so stupid and the people are assholes. Let me explain a little bit. I moved to my dad's house about a year and a half ago, before that I was with my mom for years. Well I moved back about a month ago and I go to school and people are just assholes. I see people who I meant stuff to and I abandoned them. My friends aren't my friends anymore. I'm picked on as the new kid. I fight at home with my siblings over the stupidest shit. I don't know why I do. I just wanna fall and not move or speak. Just want to fall through the ground and stop moving in the darkness of the Earth. But its bright out and everyone is moving and the sounds. It feels wrong to me and I don't feel as I belong.

[runnerz]

I sometimes feel like you do. That last sentence really reminded me of something I thought before. It's like I'm just kind of watching the world go by as I sit around kind of numb. In the past I kind of thought I was like a rock or other inanimate object watching the world go by. Except rocks don't feel like crap while they do it.

I'm sorry for the new school. I was a military kid so I had to be to many schools as well. I dunno. I haven't come up with a solution to my own problem yet, so I don't know if my advice will help. When I'm feeling down, I just watch a movie, text one of the few people that are close enough to call a friend, read a book, or do computer stuff like program video games or just play them.

[Tarannosaurus]

Ever since about a week ago, I have been feeling numb. I don't feel as if I exist and when I think about things everything seems to be wrong. I get angry and have these small little outbursts in my mind and i begin to shake. I just wanna shout and scream but I feel as if I can't because I'm locked up. Everything seems so stupid and the people are assholes. Let me explain a little bit. I moved to my dad's house about a year and a half ago, before that I was with my mom for years. Well I moved back about a month ago and I go to school and people are just assholes. I see people who I meant stuff to and I abandoned them. My friends aren't my friends anymore. I'm picked on as the new kid. I fight at home with my siblings over the stupidest shit. I don't know why I do. I just wanna fall and not move or speak. Just want to fall through the ground and stop moving in the darkness of the Earth. But its bright out and everyone is moving and the sounds. It feels wrong to me and I don't feel as I belong.

You're not alone and you're not to blame. It's normal to feel angry, because you can't feel anything else and you don't know what's happening. If it's possible, I suggest that you go to a doctor or psychiatrist, it's best to go to a professional with these things before they get worse.

[RunnerRunner]

i know how you feel and i feel the same way right now. but i feel also like i should exist because its like im just here for nothing. Just to waste oxygen.