Kchan
March 13th, 2016, 03:54 AM
Where to start?
So there's a guy I'm friends with that I've known since elementary school. Pretty close friends, honestly, given the amount of time I spend with other girls and guys. I used to really like him and told him my feelings before, but I found out that he had a girlfriend which made me cry for days on end but after that I literally fell for another guy (my ex) and went out with him for about half a year.
Thing is, my ex left the country last summer and my friend's girlfriend also broke up with him and transferred to another school. This puts me kind of in a dilemma, since I literally fell for my friend again. We're really open with each other (we talk about sex/fapping/the works and crack dirty jokes almost every day in a way that other guy/girl friends don't) but he says that he doesn't want another girlfriend until he goes to college. When I look at myself I also don't think I'm the type of girl he'd fall for (in comparison to his ex, who he had a crush on for almost four years).
Lately (and by lately I mean the past few weeks) though our relationship has developed into something weird. After I agreed to his request we've been kissing as a way to relieve our sexual appetites and do sorts of "experiments" on each other to find out about different styles of kissing. Though I've kissed other people before I feel like I've never kissed or been kissed by anyone, even my ex, for so many times before. I feel like the same goes for him, since he admitted that he never kissed his girlfriend when they were dating, but it's kind of bittersweet since I'm almost positive that he'd never fall for a person like me. He even said to me a while back that we'd be best bros if I was a guy but I'm seriously not his type of girl.
I don't think I should continue this type of relationship any more because it might develop into something more (we might become friends with benefits for example, which I don't really want, but right now it's still solely limited to kissing), but it really hurts sometimes when I see him flirting with other girls (he's friends with almost every girl friend I know and I feel like a bitch for my jealousy but I seriously can't help it). The kissing feels like a special bond between him and me, but I feel like I'm limiting both my and his possibilities in love and other relationships with my dogged pursuit of this kind of (twisted?) relationship.
Seriously, any kind of advice will do. I feel lost at the moment and everything will help me make clear my feelings and what I should do in the future.
Thanks :)
So there's a guy I'm friends with that I've known since elementary school. Pretty close friends, honestly, given the amount of time I spend with other girls and guys. I used to really like him and told him my feelings before, but I found out that he had a girlfriend which made me cry for days on end but after that I literally fell for another guy (my ex) and went out with him for about half a year.
Thing is, my ex left the country last summer and my friend's girlfriend also broke up with him and transferred to another school. This puts me kind of in a dilemma, since I literally fell for my friend again. We're really open with each other (we talk about sex/fapping/the works and crack dirty jokes almost every day in a way that other guy/girl friends don't) but he says that he doesn't want another girlfriend until he goes to college. When I look at myself I also don't think I'm the type of girl he'd fall for (in comparison to his ex, who he had a crush on for almost four years).
Lately (and by lately I mean the past few weeks) though our relationship has developed into something weird. After I agreed to his request we've been kissing as a way to relieve our sexual appetites and do sorts of "experiments" on each other to find out about different styles of kissing. Though I've kissed other people before I feel like I've never kissed or been kissed by anyone, even my ex, for so many times before. I feel like the same goes for him, since he admitted that he never kissed his girlfriend when they were dating, but it's kind of bittersweet since I'm almost positive that he'd never fall for a person like me. He even said to me a while back that we'd be best bros if I was a guy but I'm seriously not his type of girl.
I don't think I should continue this type of relationship any more because it might develop into something more (we might become friends with benefits for example, which I don't really want, but right now it's still solely limited to kissing), but it really hurts sometimes when I see him flirting with other girls (he's friends with almost every girl friend I know and I feel like a bitch for my jealousy but I seriously can't help it). The kissing feels like a special bond between him and me, but I feel like I'm limiting both my and his possibilities in love and other relationships with my dogged pursuit of this kind of (twisted?) relationship.
Seriously, any kind of advice will do. I feel lost at the moment and everything will help me make clear my feelings and what I should do in the future.
Thanks :)