My kink/fetish makes me seem gay but im not

[Someguy3333]

Okay I have to get this off my chest because it's been bothering me for a couple of years now. I'm a 16 year old stright male who thinks I may have hocd. The reason I believe this is becuase of my kink/fetish which is for some reason two muscular men boxing or wrestling. Now it's not them fighting sexually but more like ufc type of stuff more competitive. I do boxing and bjj but luckily im never aroused when I do it even against other muscular guys. But I know I am 100% straight I just could never imagine myself with another man it's just so gross and unattractive to me (no offence to any homosexuals). I do get turned on by woman and porn but it takes a longer amount of time to masturbate/get aroused to compared to fighting/muscle fetish. For some reason it's always when someone gets knocked out when I really get aroused. But I hate this fetish because I believe it ties in with my HOCD I'm constantly having to remind myself I'm not gay and having to prove to myself I'm straight. So does this fetish make me seem gay? If so how do I get rid of the fetish or just accept my fetish and just realise im straight with a strange fantasy

[lliam]

The Research

me: what's HOCD, Google?

google: anxious about the possibility of being gay
google: but there's also the possibilty of being gay and to be anxious of being straight.

me (thinking): wtf ... nowadays they made out of any bit of phobia it's own disease.


The Wondering

So, I'm wondering if you really suffer from this fear?

Anyway, I don't see that your fetish or whatsoever is necessarily connected with you being gay.

Consider: millions of men are watching regularly when boxers boxing, wrestlers wrestling, etc. And are frantically thrilled watching that stuff.

So if everyone of'em would only latently be gay ... then Good night world! Nice to have lived here once .. :D



The BTW:

And who cares? I don't. You shouldn't. It's just your thing.

[ska8er]

I think u r trying to prove to urself too
much that u r straight and not gay. U
getting aroused when someone gets
knocked down-subconsciously seems
like u fighting with ur own feelings.