Sayako
February 11th, 2014, 04:30 AM
Since discovering it last night, a record that I bought a while ago after liking the first White Lies album, but never really had the chance to listen to, I've been fixated on this CD. It describes my life so accurately that I can't help but think that the songwriters and I must have met at some point.
01. Is Love
She stares into the mirror
Youth fading with the sun
The hollows in her face like wishing wells
Scarlet as a papercut
And jewelled as the Orion
She'd never worn
That jewellery as a girl.
I have long since given up on recognizing my older self in the mirror. Hitting the age of consent hit me hard. I'm too old to have sex, too old to die young, too old to relate to myself. My childhood felt so short. My face is sunken these days, with puffy bags under the eyes, and so terribly red and pustulent. There's such soaring hopelessness in the opening of this song.
She says the only thing she's ever found
That's greater than it always sounds
Is love
And, fuck, it really is. Emily, Robert, John, Ryan, Lydia. All of my life, people would talk about love, and I never thought of it as something that applied to me. However, i did meet people whom I loved. I still love most of them. In a world in which almost everything is disappointment, I am very fond of love as the outlier.
02. Strangers
I pressed my ear to your chest
And heard something personal
A whisper that knew my name
Is it how your heart treats all strangers
With love and affection
Then I feel cold and empty
My first real relationship. I'd rather not elaborate.
And there's nothing stranger
Than to love someone
Love is absurd. Love is meaningless. Were I a consistent person, I wouldn't believe in it. I am not a very consistent person.
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I'll follow up with Bigger than Us and my favourite track, Peace and Quiet, next post. :3
01. Is Love
She stares into the mirror
Youth fading with the sun
The hollows in her face like wishing wells
Scarlet as a papercut
And jewelled as the Orion
She'd never worn
That jewellery as a girl.
I have long since given up on recognizing my older self in the mirror. Hitting the age of consent hit me hard. I'm too old to have sex, too old to die young, too old to relate to myself. My childhood felt so short. My face is sunken these days, with puffy bags under the eyes, and so terribly red and pustulent. There's such soaring hopelessness in the opening of this song.
She says the only thing she's ever found
That's greater than it always sounds
Is love
And, fuck, it really is. Emily, Robert, John, Ryan, Lydia. All of my life, people would talk about love, and I never thought of it as something that applied to me. However, i did meet people whom I loved. I still love most of them. In a world in which almost everything is disappointment, I am very fond of love as the outlier.
02. Strangers
I pressed my ear to your chest
And heard something personal
A whisper that knew my name
Is it how your heart treats all strangers
With love and affection
Then I feel cold and empty
My first real relationship. I'd rather not elaborate.
And there's nothing stranger
Than to love someone
Love is absurd. Love is meaningless. Were I a consistent person, I wouldn't believe in it. I am not a very consistent person.
--
I'll follow up with Bigger than Us and my favourite track, Peace and Quiet, next post. :3