Suicide by war.

[tovaris]

Its not suicide if you run awy to fight right.
This is w new unfortunate (unplesent) trail of thaught unknow to me till recently. "Why not take all my money and travel to the front, join n army and fight, till it ower or till im ower. I can shoot, it wouldnt take me more than 2 days to rrach Donetsk, i read russian and have a dictionary"
Has anyone else had something similar unfold in their head when you were realy down? :-[

[Fiction]

I wanted to join the forces for most of my early teenage years for this exact reason. I wasn't quite ready to actually commit suicide, or let my family and friends go through that. I thought if I joined the forces then it wouldn't be as hard for them. I went as far as joining cadets to enhance my chances of getting in when I was older. But yes, from the ages of about 12-14, that was my plan.

Then I was diagnosed with a heart problem and the forces where a no go option...