I did something stupid.

[Microcosm]

So I basically told one of my best friends in the world that I never wanted to talk to her again. My reasoning for this was that she always talked down to me and casually insulted me, but at other times was a genuinely good person.

Most of the time, in public she would talk down to me in some way or another and take charge of the conversation, always disagreeing with me in some way.

It was 3:00 AM on New Year's Day. Earlier that night she had messaged my friend that I was "fucking weird" then claimed it was a joke once they realized that I saw it. They said things to the effect of "Wow you can't take a joke" and such. So, at 3:00 AM, I sent a long paragraph about how I thought some of her remarks were cruel and "bitchy"(I regret using that word, but it was kind of true in many cases).

The next morning, I felt guilty and I messaged her asking if she'd forgive me. I know, I'm a total fucking suck-up. It's just that I can't fully get over her yet. I had a crush on her for a very long time and I even had feelings for her, but she was just largely a mean person.

It was probably stupid what I did, but I do feel much better about it now that I've ranted on it.

I'll be seeing her at school next Monday and we're probably just going to avoid talking to her. She hasn't responded to my plea for forgiveness. I tried messaging her on FaceBook and, while she was active, she didn't open the message to look at it.

By the way, if you think her feelings were hurt, I don't think they were. The end of the paragraph-long text message said "Goodbye." And she responded the next morning with one sentiment: Bye.

So, she either doesn't actually care at all or she just does and is trying to act cool about it.

Any advice is welcomed. Thanks for reading.

[outback4]

If she's so bitchy, it's time for her to see how you feel. I personally don't think her "Bye" thing is her saying "I honestly don't care" in a genuine way. I think it's more of a "I have to act like I don't care so I seem cool and tough" kind of thing.

If you end up wanting to be friends with her again, and she wants the same, it's something to consider. If that happens, think if it's best for you before you decide.

But maybe this isn't something horrible. Maybe you don't need someone like that with that kind of negative energy in your life. You're obviously fed up with her and how she acts. Maybe this isn't something stupid you did but instead something for the better.

[Uniquemind]

You need to listen to yourself and stop second guessing your instincts.

She was a bitch.

I've been in this situation and I've known good friends and bad friends. Good friends rarely joke or gossip like this behind their backs.

A life of solitude is just much better and simpler. If fate makes you walk down that road for a time, don't sweat it. Tend to yourself first.

[Rhys2001]

I think you made the right choice telling her how you felt, because that's the truth. If I were you, I would ignore her completely, if she wants to be friends with you she will come back, or if you feel she is hinting towards being friends again it's up to you, I'd give her a second chance but it's your decision. Oh and I think the way she said "bye" I think she's pretending to not care at all but by the way she replied, it shows she cares and she's upset and angry that you thought that about her (even if it was the truth). As I said, have some time apart and wait either for the signs or for her to come back. You don't have to have to put up with this, do you need a person like that in this stage of your life? Hope this was helpful!

[Microcosm]

outback4, Uniquemind, and Rhys2001,

Thank you all for responding. Your kind sentiments mean a lot to me.

I agree with what you've all said. I think it's time I actually try to let her go. We've been friends for over a year so it's hard, but I think it's the right thing to do right now.

I might try to be friends with her again later. I'm not sure what will happen from here on out with her, but I'm ready for whatever comes.

Thanks for the responses again. I really really appreciate it.

[Exotic Babe]

Sometimes you just have to let go of the negative people in your life. I believe you're doing the right thing, good luck! :)

[Jinglebottom]

True friends gossip with you, not about you.

[outback4]

xbob18 hit it straight on.

glad you aren't wasting more of your time with her. good luck man!

[Microcosm]

Update: I refriended her. I know a lot of people were saying I shouldn't put up with her negativity, but the message I sent her was still kind of out of place and I think my post made her seem worse than she intended. Yes, she did call me weird, but I think she was just teasing and the problem probably isn't her. It's probably me not being able to handle teasing. I mean I need to try harder to be able to handle that.

Thanks for the advice though everyone.

[Beach_Blonde]

So quick question did you refriemd her or dissemination refriemd you.....did she apologize for hurting your feelings, did she even realize she did hurt you?