i'm not feeling brilliant...

[AlexanderTheGreat]

I never ever thought I would be posting in here but right now I am not feeling that good. I am just looking ahead and thinking about how shit my life might be. I'm doing my GCSEs now, (which basically plan out your entire life), and my grades aren't good (apparently). At the moment I am averaging a 'C'. I think that's pretty good considering my other results but my parents tell me otherwise. Today I was going to revise for a test I have tomorrow and I watch a 30 minute video on river land forms so I took a break. My parents then storm in and say I had been doing nothing, I told them about the video I had watched and they said it wasn't enough. I never said I was finished. Up until my 3rd year of primary school (age 6/7) I was top of the class and making good progress but after that I just sank deep down, I was getting crap grades and not presenting what was to be thought as 'neat & acceptable work'. A big thing that I can remember was my last year of primary school - year 6. (age 10/11). I wasn't doing good in English and so my teacher moved me down in my English group. I had always done good in English despite my other subjects. I was really down and sad about it, I would say at that point I 'lost hope for myself'. I realized - "oh crap, I am doing shit". When I started secondary school things really didn't get better. I was put in low groups for subjects. Not the lowest but still quite low. Around that time, I started getting bullied - people genuinely thought I was gay. Not as in "oh he's gay (but we all know he's not)" people really thought I was gay. One of my good friends now tells me he though himself that I was gay. Some people still think so 4 years later. I have different phases - most of the time I'm really happy but sometimes I get really sad and it just gets so difficult to come out of that. I will just think so badly of any situation which isn't like me, I always try to look on the bright side of life. When I was put in low groups I thought 'okay, this is a good stepping stone to move up' but now I am just thinking 'I've tried and more often than not, I have failed'. From my view I think I am getting good grades for the kind of education I have had but my parents don't think so. My mum lectures social science as Kings University and my other mum (yes I have two mums, well done) has a masters degree in English language. They expect so highly of me but what they don't seem to understand is I can't achieve what they are asking. They tell me all the time - "Alex, you're are a intelligent boy and you can do this!!" and yes they are right expect for I am not academically intelligent. I know about the different aspects of physics and how to analyse a piece of text, I know how to cook, how to fill out a tax form, how to build a flat pack desk and how to do write an essay. The problem is that I can't do it with an education system like the one we have today. I is too official and has too much of an attitude that says "YOU MUST DO WELL OR YOU WILL HAVE A SHIT LIFE". I want to learn in a way that can accept people who are intelligent, but not academically intelligent. I will leave you all with a quote from one of my favorite movies, Office Space:

"Why should I change? They are the ones who suck."
^ by this I mean why should I change the way I learn to the normal way when the normal way is shit?

*i must appoligise for my use of bad language

[Miserabilia]

Hope you get through okay, good luck

[Caver]

I am currently doing GCSE's and to be honest it's not stressing me out but sometimes pressure does stress me out. You're in year 10 right? if so, I am too and the way I look at it is focus on Maths and English in particular; recruiters/colleges look for those a lot. I'm sure you'll get by fine if you do well in your coursework (unfortunately in my school maths doesn't have coursework, just 2 exams) tell your teachers if you feel behind or need extra help. C's are fine, even for A levels you need 5 C's or above or level 3's you need 4 C's and above. It is dependent on what you want to do in the future as well. Message me if you want help or extra information :p

[Katiya]

Welcome too the club! You can have an IQ of 162 and still suck at academics but a person like my friends aunt can be stone stupid with an IQ of 75 and get straight A's. Academics are very different from intelligence.

Academic skill is just a talent of repeating back information. Not using your brain to Think for your self. You aren't the only one who has thought about this.

School was too slow for me. And now college is too. All they do is ask you to read 30 pages and then test on those pages contents next week. Its basicly 3 hours of crap twice a week for 20min of a quizz. And when I get bored I don't remember the content, thus I suck at academics. I'm switching to online self paced course after finishing ornithology class for the entire semester in two weeks aside from the trips and bird feeding.
I feel like college is a joke, like how I was told not to take philosophy first year because "Its soo hard" and I get there and I easily get an A+. Seriously with even remedial thinking you could pass that class. I'm starting to wonder if I live in stupidvill and the rest of the world is better? Seriously, I'm starting to wonder. I think I see what's wrong with Americas education. (Too much focus on maths and grammar and not enough on actual thinking!)

[John566]

Brother, school doesn't plan out your life. If you do badly on the exam it's not the end of the world. Trust me.

How did the test go? :)

[DarkHorse4eva]

Your parents shouldn't put pressure on you, a C is pretty good, and it could be a lot worse, so they should just be grateful that you don't fail.