nmbsmith
February 8th, 2014, 06:39 PM
Okay so I am a 16 year old girl and since Wednesday I've had obsessive thoughts over being scared of being lesbian. I've not had much luck with dating guys but I've had crushes on many guys, sometimes getting "sparks" when making contact with them...
On Wednesday, I was out with my friends (all girls) and I was sat next to one of them on the bumper cars when I had a picture in my mind of being in the bumper cars with someone as a date then all of a sudden I got this weird rush... I'm close to this girl because we get the bus to college but I only ever saw her as a good friend. now I'm scared to be around her because I was next to her when I got that rush. Since I got that, I've been scared that maybe I might turn gay...
For the past 3 months I've been trying to get over my ex who I loved so much and ive missed him so much...
I read up a few things and every time they've said it's just a phase and that I will get over it at some point. I've spoken to my mum about it and she said not to worry because I will find a guy at some point.
I've never had any feelings for girls in the past or any thoughts about being with girls, it's only ever been guys. When I think of being in a relationship, I always picture myself with a guy.
Do you guys think I have HOCD or do you think I might be turning lesbian or bi???
The thoughts won't go out of my head as much as I try to and I can't stand the thought of being lesbian or bi... they are really getting me down and it's stopping me from focusing in college.
I have also just made a change from college to high school and my high school was mixed so all my lessons had both guys and girls in but now in college I'm in an all girls class... could this have had an affect on my thoughts because I'm not used to it?
(I am not against people who are gay/lesbian/bi, I am friends with people who are gay or lesbian and never felt uncomfortable around them)
On Wednesday, I was out with my friends (all girls) and I was sat next to one of them on the bumper cars when I had a picture in my mind of being in the bumper cars with someone as a date then all of a sudden I got this weird rush... I'm close to this girl because we get the bus to college but I only ever saw her as a good friend. now I'm scared to be around her because I was next to her when I got that rush. Since I got that, I've been scared that maybe I might turn gay...
For the past 3 months I've been trying to get over my ex who I loved so much and ive missed him so much...
I read up a few things and every time they've said it's just a phase and that I will get over it at some point. I've spoken to my mum about it and she said not to worry because I will find a guy at some point.
I've never had any feelings for girls in the past or any thoughts about being with girls, it's only ever been guys. When I think of being in a relationship, I always picture myself with a guy.
Do you guys think I have HOCD or do you think I might be turning lesbian or bi???
The thoughts won't go out of my head as much as I try to and I can't stand the thought of being lesbian or bi... they are really getting me down and it's stopping me from focusing in college.
I have also just made a change from college to high school and my high school was mixed so all my lessons had both guys and girls in but now in college I'm in an all girls class... could this have had an affect on my thoughts because I'm not used to it?
(I am not against people who are gay/lesbian/bi, I am friends with people who are gay or lesbian and never felt uncomfortable around them)