Rabiid
February 8th, 2014, 06:54 AM
Well, i guess i should start from day one.
I was never the sort of person to have thousands of friends, i really only had 3 true people i could trust and quite frankly even my parents are not as good role models as my friends were. I never had anyone i could talk to apart from these 3 people. We went through everything together. From girl troubles to my severe depression due to bullying.
6 months ago we were driving at around 11pm at night with all 4 of us in the car and we were hit by a drunk driver. All i remember was that i was one a stretcher in the back of the ambulance and i was told that I was pronounced dead on the scene. I had 13 broken bones all together including both ankles, all my ribs apart from 3 and alot more. When i got to the hospital they had to operate to save my life but my friends were not so lucky. All 3 of the people i had grown up with, known since i was 5 had been killed by some idiot that was drunk.
I went through a series of surgeries correcting my injuries and i couldn't help thinking about why i didn't die as well. I mean that had to be a reason right?
But i cant see what it is. I honestly think i would be better off dead. After a long 5 months of operations and learning to walk again i was released for good from the hospital.
I had my first week back at school and i don't see the point of even being here. I get bullied even worse from my physical appearance now and i don't have anyone to back me up. The only things people say to me are ''clever'' remarks to make me feel like i'm not wanted even more than what i was feeling previously. I have literally no one to even tell anything too, that's why i am coming here. This is the last thing i wanted to do but i need to talk to someone.
I am thinking about leaving school for now. I'm not learning anything as it is and i hate myself, i'm at my wits end.
I was never the sort of person to have thousands of friends, i really only had 3 true people i could trust and quite frankly even my parents are not as good role models as my friends were. I never had anyone i could talk to apart from these 3 people. We went through everything together. From girl troubles to my severe depression due to bullying.
6 months ago we were driving at around 11pm at night with all 4 of us in the car and we were hit by a drunk driver. All i remember was that i was one a stretcher in the back of the ambulance and i was told that I was pronounced dead on the scene. I had 13 broken bones all together including both ankles, all my ribs apart from 3 and alot more. When i got to the hospital they had to operate to save my life but my friends were not so lucky. All 3 of the people i had grown up with, known since i was 5 had been killed by some idiot that was drunk.
I went through a series of surgeries correcting my injuries and i couldn't help thinking about why i didn't die as well. I mean that had to be a reason right?
But i cant see what it is. I honestly think i would be better off dead. After a long 5 months of operations and learning to walk again i was released for good from the hospital.
I had my first week back at school and i don't see the point of even being here. I get bullied even worse from my physical appearance now and i don't have anyone to back me up. The only things people say to me are ''clever'' remarks to make me feel like i'm not wanted even more than what i was feeling previously. I have literally no one to even tell anything too, that's why i am coming here. This is the last thing i wanted to do but i need to talk to someone.
I am thinking about leaving school for now. I'm not learning anything as it is and i hate myself, i'm at my wits end.