NothingR
November 16th, 2015, 06:45 PM
So, I ask in circumstances such as this. Why do you think life better than death? (Assuming most of you hold this view.) Life is objectively meaningless. Full of only those who find their own subjective meanings and reasons to live. Since I have none, suicide should 'morally' be justified. Why do people believe suicide is wrong? People make claims such as 'life will get better', when for that person it may never get better. What about
underprivileged/homeless people. We might aswell be dead. Serving no purpose to society other than to remind others how great and wonderful their life is. Yet, most forget this fact more quickly than in the amount of time they were reminded.
Backround:
I'm 17 years old. I have no social life or friends whatsoever. I'm completely isolated, I literally don't know anyone at all, muchless have friends. I've been "homeschooled" my entire life. (They don't teach me anything. So, I'm basically uneducated and have no future whatsoever.) I've had major depression/social anxiety (too anxious to go to a checkout line in a store.) and been suicidal for 3-4 years. Now I have lost pretty much all sense of abstract emotion. I feel absolutely nothing about anything and nothing phases me. My parents are poor, delusional, religious extremists. They knew I'm suicidal and acted as if it's a joke. I've never seen a Psychiatrist, because they refuse to accept the reality of psychology for some reason. They've neglected, emotionally and in the past physically abused me. I rarely see or speak to them now. I have nothing. Nothing I enjoy doing, no hobbies, abilities, or money for them if I did. I have no future. No education, (Can't pass the SAT.) no money for a college/uni education. No car or even driver's license. (I have to walk anywhere I want to go.) I have no phone or access to one. No job or way of getting one. I don't even own presentable clothes. (I only own 2 pairs of 3 year old used clothes.) No computer/wi-fi. (I'm using a public library computer.) I'm a freak. I have crooked, stained, ground down teeth for lack of dental care. My nose is broken and crooked from a fight, causing a deviated septum which blocks my left nostril. Requiring me to breathe almost entirely through my mouth, causing severe dry mouth, etc. I've been grossly underweight for several years. (6' 2" - 122 lb.) - I'm NOT anorexic, I eat a sustainable amount of food for the moment. I'm positive the cause is hyperthyroidism, but can't see a doctor for diagnosis/treatment. (It will eventually kill me going untreated.) But oh, well life living in a ghetto.
underprivileged/homeless people. We might aswell be dead. Serving no purpose to society other than to remind others how great and wonderful their life is. Yet, most forget this fact more quickly than in the amount of time they were reminded.
Backround:
I'm 17 years old. I have no social life or friends whatsoever. I'm completely isolated, I literally don't know anyone at all, muchless have friends. I've been "homeschooled" my entire life. (They don't teach me anything. So, I'm basically uneducated and have no future whatsoever.) I've had major depression/social anxiety (too anxious to go to a checkout line in a store.) and been suicidal for 3-4 years. Now I have lost pretty much all sense of abstract emotion. I feel absolutely nothing about anything and nothing phases me. My parents are poor, delusional, religious extremists. They knew I'm suicidal and acted as if it's a joke. I've never seen a Psychiatrist, because they refuse to accept the reality of psychology for some reason. They've neglected, emotionally and in the past physically abused me. I rarely see or speak to them now. I have nothing. Nothing I enjoy doing, no hobbies, abilities, or money for them if I did. I have no future. No education, (Can't pass the SAT.) no money for a college/uni education. No car or even driver's license. (I have to walk anywhere I want to go.) I have no phone or access to one. No job or way of getting one. I don't even own presentable clothes. (I only own 2 pairs of 3 year old used clothes.) No computer/wi-fi. (I'm using a public library computer.) I'm a freak. I have crooked, stained, ground down teeth for lack of dental care. My nose is broken and crooked from a fight, causing a deviated septum which blocks my left nostril. Requiring me to breathe almost entirely through my mouth, causing severe dry mouth, etc. I've been grossly underweight for several years. (6' 2" - 122 lb.) - I'm NOT anorexic, I eat a sustainable amount of food for the moment. I'm positive the cause is hyperthyroidism, but can't see a doctor for diagnosis/treatment. (It will eventually kill me going untreated.) But oh, well life living in a ghetto.