TheCabbage
November 8th, 2015, 07:24 PM
So, last year I had a group of (what I thought were) great friends. Skip forward 12 months and they've practically all gone.
I ended up getting in an argument with what was my best friend in May and then everything turned to shit. They all knew something was up but didn't know what yet they all just abandoned me for him anyway, so I was completely alone all summer and predictably got very down over that.
My 'best' friend said he felt really guilty about it all but he won't do anything with me or try to fix anything. They all just take the piss out of me in their little circle and I'm just stuck alone again. I haven't done anything with people outside my family in god knows how long. My cousin tries to help and fit me in with stuff but she lives relatively far away.
Because of all this I just constantly feel miserable and anxious and I'm so sick of not being able to do anything and just being constantly alone. It culminated last night when I messaged four different people for a conversation but they were all out doing stuff with their Saturday night whilst I'm stuck doing nothing at all just thinking where the fuck did it all go wrong. I'm sick of this damn feeling too. It's becoming a part of who I am and I hate it, I don't want it to at all.
Then I just think that other people have it worse than me so I shouldn't be complaining and certainly shouldn't feel the way I do. It makes me feel so selfish and I hate that.
I don't even know if this is the right sub-forum so I'm sorry if I put it in the wrong place.
I ended up getting in an argument with what was my best friend in May and then everything turned to shit. They all knew something was up but didn't know what yet they all just abandoned me for him anyway, so I was completely alone all summer and predictably got very down over that.
My 'best' friend said he felt really guilty about it all but he won't do anything with me or try to fix anything. They all just take the piss out of me in their little circle and I'm just stuck alone again. I haven't done anything with people outside my family in god knows how long. My cousin tries to help and fit me in with stuff but she lives relatively far away.
Because of all this I just constantly feel miserable and anxious and I'm so sick of not being able to do anything and just being constantly alone. It culminated last night when I messaged four different people for a conversation but they were all out doing stuff with their Saturday night whilst I'm stuck doing nothing at all just thinking where the fuck did it all go wrong. I'm sick of this damn feeling too. It's becoming a part of who I am and I hate it, I don't want it to at all.
Then I just think that other people have it worse than me so I shouldn't be complaining and certainly shouldn't feel the way I do. It makes me feel so selfish and I hate that.
I don't even know if this is the right sub-forum so I'm sorry if I put it in the wrong place.