Health Anxiety lasting months

[maca451]

Hello. In June/July time, I engaged in my third sexual encounter, and it was my second gay sexual encounter. On my first gay encounter I remember panicking about hiv and feeling like dirt after having it even though my friend used protection when we did anal. So, when I had my second gay encounter in July/June time my friend didn't use protection and it was only oral. He did not ejaculate into my mouth however I did taste a little bit of precum. The next day, I had a complete meltdown about HIVA AGAIN but this time, it was really really severe as I didn't use protection for oral. I went to the GUM clinic the next day and a week later I was told the results were negative. However, to this day I keep going in and out of phases of severe anxiety and need help getting over the fact I don't have HIV despite how low low low the chances were.

BASICALLY: I have anxiety over HIV even though I don't have it, how do I return to my natural state were I was calm and happy :(

[Fiction]

I am exactly the same. I wish I had an answer. Perhaps you should see your GP and tell them about your concerns? How you're anxious about it. They can help with the anxiety as well as advise you on the best ways too protect yourself.

If it's any help, anal sex has a 1 in 71 chance of transmission even if you're with a HIV positive partner. Oral sex the rates are much much lower.

When i'm anxious about things I try and rationalise it, and tell myself how small the chances are. Th only other advice I have is keep busy and distract yourself.