himmypop
October 29th, 2015, 11:10 AM
When i was about 3, my mother started hitting me,mildly,
as i grew older,about 7 years old,My dad,threw a straw chair at my and called me A B***
That really hurt me, both ways,i think its even in my long-term memory now,I still remember it today(I forget everything).
Since i was only 7,i didn't feel depression or suicidal thoughts,i just kept the memory.
As a turned 11-12 and 13, my mother then took hitting me much more seriously,She threw a large wagon at me when i was going downstairs,I think i said something,She whispered you little B***, my shoudler was hurting for 4 days,
Again ,2 days ago my father violently hit my head,arms and legs,My little brother ate his stuff,BUT HE WAS SLEEP WITH IT IN FRONT OF HIM, leaving me with a bump,A very painful shoulder when lifted, and a very broken heart..
More:My father Kicked me in the stomach on the kichten floor.
My Mom also banged my head with Cutting board,it broke,easily,but it didn't hurt,thinking i killed alot of nerves
My mom hit me with a metal pole in the arm.
It's also Affects my poor 4 yr old sis and one 3 year old brother,they are also hit but not violety as me
When i was 3 my mom whipped me with a cord, BUT I WOULD NEVER KISS MY BROTHER LIKE HE WAS MY DUDE,MY DAD LIED!
Everytime i think about these,or get hit more,i want to get to the knife and hold it to my heart,i'm dead,but i drop it and run away.
I also learned to stay strong when hit and hold back my tears...
So thats all,that's why i think of killing myself and get depression.
I am still abused Verbally and physically to this day.
as i grew older,about 7 years old,My dad,threw a straw chair at my and called me A B***
That really hurt me, both ways,i think its even in my long-term memory now,I still remember it today(I forget everything).
Since i was only 7,i didn't feel depression or suicidal thoughts,i just kept the memory.
As a turned 11-12 and 13, my mother then took hitting me much more seriously,She threw a large wagon at me when i was going downstairs,I think i said something,She whispered you little B***, my shoudler was hurting for 4 days,
Again ,2 days ago my father violently hit my head,arms and legs,My little brother ate his stuff,BUT HE WAS SLEEP WITH IT IN FRONT OF HIM, leaving me with a bump,A very painful shoulder when lifted, and a very broken heart..
More:My father Kicked me in the stomach on the kichten floor.
My Mom also banged my head with Cutting board,it broke,easily,but it didn't hurt,thinking i killed alot of nerves
My mom hit me with a metal pole in the arm.
It's also Affects my poor 4 yr old sis and one 3 year old brother,they are also hit but not violety as me
When i was 3 my mom whipped me with a cord, BUT I WOULD NEVER KISS MY BROTHER LIKE HE WAS MY DUDE,MY DAD LIED!
Everytime i think about these,or get hit more,i want to get to the knife and hold it to my heart,i'm dead,but i drop it and run away.
I also learned to stay strong when hit and hold back my tears...
So thats all,that's why i think of killing myself and get depression.
I am still abused Verbally and physically to this day.