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ashdyn
October 20th, 2015, 12:14 PM
This is probably going to be a long ass post...sorry in advance lol

Ok so I've been with my gf for 5 years and because we've been together for so long I've pretty much been part of her family and kind of just became another one of her siblings (to her younger brothers and sisters...not to her). She comes from a pretty big family (6 younger siblings) and there's not a boy until 3 down from my gf, so I just kinda became his defecto older brother and we're really close and have a ton in common.

So like growing up I helped coach some of his rec league teams and we just had a brotherly relationship especially cause we play the same position. Fast forward to now and he's 16 and a sophomore. He's in his 2nd year of football and he's getting ripped. I'm was semi-openly bi like my gf knew when we started dating but honestly I hadn't really felt any strong attractions to anyone other than her. So me and her brother talk a lot like we text and tweet each other random shit all the time. But recently the tone of our convos have gotten a bit more sexual but I kind of understood like he's not s little kid anymore and started going to a public school so he's not as sheltered as he used to be. It started out like him asking me for a condom so of course I hooked him up like whatever why wouldn't I. So for a while he goes through asking me a bunch of questions that pretty much all guys going through puberty want to know (literally, like look at the forums on here lol). And I think he just liked the fact that he could talk to me not as a brother but as a bro if that makes any sense lol.

So it just progresses to him DMing me porn he thinks is hot and I'm like shiiiii that is hot (I'm HUMAN! It was hot). Anyway, he wanted to work out with me and my friends so I picked him up and we went to the gym and then I drove him back. No one was home but my gf texted me that she was getting off soon and wanted food so I decided to just hang around til she got there. So I did what I usually did and just played Xbox with her brother lol but somewhere in there he flipped on some porn and I was just kinda frozen. Like I didn't say anything cause I physically couldn't it was like having the worst cotton mouth ever. He already didn't have a shirt on and when he lost his bball shorts it was like the first time I ever noticed him in like a sexual light despite our previous convos. Anyway this dude ends up jacking off right next to me with me watching then just gets up, puts on ESPN, and goes to take a shower like nothing happened. Then I left when my gf got there.

So I've pretty much been analyzing everything that happened over and over to try to figure it out cause I was mortified that my body reacted the way it did and that I was actually like attracted and honestly still am. All I've really figured out is that I think his face is hot cause he's basically the boy version of my gf (who's freaking hot) plus he's ripped to shreds but not bulky....and now I know he's super well endowed like even more than my 7 (which was like my bi weakness-ripped+huge).

Sorry for the long ass-ness of this. I really really just needed to get all that off my chest. Obviously I can't talk to anybody about this. So just talk to me y'all....advice or opinions. Anything helps really. Please. Thanks in advance to anyone who reads this WHOLE thing lmao

Hudor
October 20th, 2015, 12:34 PM
I think it's sort of normal. Since you identify as bi, it was probably an involuntary reaction to seeing him like that. If I were you, I wouldn't act upon that instinct though now because that can surely make things a lot more complicated.

ashdyn
October 20th, 2015, 12:54 PM
I think it's sort of normal. Since you identify as bi, it was probably an involuntary reaction to seeing him like that. If I were you, I wouldn't act upon that instinct though now because that can surely make things a lot more complicated.

I didn't then and probably won't in the future if anything goes down again. It's just feels so weird that I find him that attractive. Thanks for reading all that BTW

Hudor
October 20th, 2015, 01:39 PM
I didn't then and probably won't in the future if anything goes down again. It's just feels so weird that I find him that attractive. Thanks for reading all that BTW

That's cool. I can totally relate. I have a cousin whom I find super-attractive and it feels weird because he's my brother and i don't exactly want to think of him in a sexual way but as long as it's all in my head and i don't do anything to spoil our relationship, i think it's okay. It's more or less like seeing any other hot guy naked because it's after all the body you're attracted to.

SillyShyGuy
October 20th, 2015, 08:34 PM
Well all you are really doing with him is bonding. The long deep conversations and how he can trust you on things like puberty and stuff. As far as when he was wanking in front of you, he is just comfortable around you. It is experimenting. Normal guys experiment with each other, it is common. If you think you are attracted to him romantically, then maybe you can end things with your gf. Just decide who you would rather be with.

SethfromMI
October 20th, 2015, 09:09 PM
I didn't then and probably won't in the future if anything goes down again. It's just feels so weird that I find him that attractive. Thanks for reading all that BTW

I am glad you are not going to act on that. after reading it all, it seems normal. It is understandable to seem weird about someone who you have seen/still see as a brother. these type of things are actually quite common. maybe he is just comfortable enough with his own sexuality to do that stuff around you. maybe he is bi or bi curious. so many possibilities. at some point, depending how far it goes, you may need to lie some boundaries with him, but for the time being, I don't think it is too big of a deal. It is natural to feel the way you do, but you are not going to cheat on your gf which is what is important