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TraciAG
October 18th, 2015, 09:14 AM
My mom won't take me to a therapist even though she has free mental health from work. She thinks my depression is made up. I am extremely depressed for various reasons and have taken up drugs to cope, but I just feel even worse when I come down because remember why I took them in the first place.

For a couple of months now I've been having an identity crisis with my personality and sexuality. I wish I wasn't born in this body (female) and am sexually attracted to women. I don't have anyone irl I can talk to about this and I can't see a psychiatrist or therapist...I also want to see one because I have episodes where I will be furious for no reason. I don't think it's normal to be angry like this, but maybe it's the depression. My relationship with my dad is terrible and I'm scared he'll beat me if I talk to him anyway so that's out of the question.

I'm in my senior year of high school and my grades are slipping from the stress and depression. I have no motivation and am falling asleep all day on weekends and can't focus in school, I just feel sluggish. I haven't applied to any colleges because I want to go my first year at a community college, but my mom says I can't do that. But I'll be 18 so will she have a say?

I don't have any close friends to talk about this to and I am on a thin string from just giving up. What can I do to help myself from with depression, besides drugs and therapy (since I can't go). Sorry for long post.

I don't know if I can go to my school counselor for this because I'm not sure if they're obligated to call the police on my drug use or because I could be suicidal.

BlackParadePixie
October 19th, 2015, 04:47 AM
Your school counselor doesn't need to know about your drug use...you are not obligated to tell them that information. What they may be able to do is set you up with an appointment with some sort of therapist, if they see that it is in your best interest (which I think it would be since your mother is too ignorant to do it herself)