ObliviousCat
October 18th, 2015, 06:58 AM
I honestly have no idea why I even post about my problems anymore since I hardly get any responses or insight. Trying to write out my feelings, which is usually the easiest thing in the world for me, is driving me insane. My head feels like it's going to burst, my heart is fluttering (palpitations), I keep digging my nails into my skin. I am enraged. I am beyond stressed. Literally everything is triggering stress and anxiety in me. My body, this damn computer sitting on my lap, my phone and cat sitting beside me, the couch, the blanket I have on my legs. Every god damn thing. I can't take it anymore and I can't stand it. I can't go to anyone nor can I go anywhere to relieve this overwhelming stress that has been built and bottled up for so long. I have this overwhelming need to blow off steam but I can't find that opportunity anywhere. Even this isn't helping much. I wish I could find an open, vacant area where I can let out as many screams as I want, with no limitations as to how loud they are. I can't tell if this is anxiety or just me going into a fit of rage after the shit I just went through happened.
Un-FUCKING-believable.
Un-FUCKING-believable.