I don't know.

[Babs]

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[StoppingTom]

In case you don't come back for whatever reason..

I hope you don't beat yourself up too much. In the limited time I've been here, you seem really chill and the kind of person I'd want as a friend, so it kinda sucks to see you in such a bad state.

[Babs]

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[conniption]

I'll skim on the details, but I spent an hour or so trying to kill myself so yeah that's what all this was about. Evidently I failed, didn't have the proper resources, and right now I just feel weird. I'm more annoyed that I couldn't make it happen than anything else. I always thought it'd be a lot easier. Like, the actual task, not mentally.
I don't know. I just feel weird now. I don't know where to go from here so I'm just trying to do what I normally do.

Have you tried talking to someone or doing something that provides some sort of healthy emotional relief?