I'm going to drink bleach and end it

[dreamofdante]

Here I am again already being dumped by someone who said she loved me but never meant it. I'm ready to die. No girl will ever fucking love me or want me for me. I'm tired of trying and I refuse to live a life where no woman can love me. It's time to end it. I don't care about life anymore. I'm fucking broken inside.

[ilikehorses2]

Somewhere there is a girl for you. She is not good enough for you. Please do not kill yourself! Most of us understand!


But since I actually possess no power to stop anybody and you’d just probably do what it is you wanted to do, here’s my last request. Won’t you please read this article before committing suicide?

1. Write a ten-page letter discussing why you’re doing it. I know, you may complain you’re too depressed, you’d easily run out of words to say. But hey, consider these the last pages you’d ever write. After this, you’ll never need to write anything anymore, not a single damn page. So why don’t you consider this for now. See, people would miss you. They’ll long to hear more about you. Aren’t ten pages too short then to write everything you’ve ever wanted to say?

2. Write down the three important items you’d want to give away and to whom you’re giving it to.

3. Write a separate letter to three people that mattered most to you. Tell them why you’re thankful you’ve had them in your life. (Don’t worry, the next item won’t be about writing anymore).

4. Cry for a moment for your own passing. Well atleast you’d know somebody cried for you. Grieve over the great loss the world would feel in losing this very dear person.

5. Write down 5 good things this person has done in his/ her life. (Sorry to be back about the writing stuff. But this time, its for this special person, you know?)

6. Write down 5 more things he/ she could have done had his/her life not ended so abruptly. (No need to feel guilty here now).

7. Plant a seed, a plant or a tree in memory of this special person.

8. Create a website summarizing his life and his heart.

9. Scan some of his baby photos and paste them at the website made.

10. Compose some e-mail greetings to be sent automatically in the future to greet special people in your life. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if they could still receive greetings on their birthdays or during Christmas season from you? Go to

11. Eat your favorite food.

12. Have some vanilla ice cream.

13. Say goodbye to your pet. Buy a cute puppy if you don’t have one. And then say goodbye.

14. Make a last round of strolling about at your local market or favorite cafe. Give the people you meet there everyday a firm handshake.

15. Record your favorite song and have it burned on a CD.

16. Write down the background music you’d want to be played in your funeral.

17. Buy that dress you’ve always wanted to buy.

18. Treat your classmates to lunch.

19. Dance one last time.

20. Ride a bike one last time.

21. Buy some caged birds and then set them free

22. Reconcile with your enemies.

23. Take a cold shower.

24. Buy some fresh roses.

25. Go to a theme park, be like a child again and enjoy the rides.

26. Do some bunjee jumping. No need to be afraid now.

27. Watch some fireflies.

28. Catch some fireflies.

29. Do some wall-climbing.

30. Do some go-kart driving.

31. Taste some snow.

[Triceratops]

I've been here too many times before, sometimes I feel like nobody could ever possibly want or love me and I've felt suicidal over it. The reality is nobody will end up alone forever, as cliche as that sounds. It could take a few months or it could take years for you to find that special someone who loves you, but at the end of the day you will eventually find them. A lot of the time something won't work out for you because greater things are in the works.

[dreamofdante]

Somewhere there is a girl for you. She is not good enough for you. Please do not kill yourself! Most of us understand!


But since I actually possess no power to stop anybody and you’d just probably do what it is you wanted to do, here’s my last request. Won’t you please read this article before committing suicide?

1. Write a ten-page letter discussing why you’re doing it. I know, you may complain you’re too depressed, you’d easily run out of words to say. But hey, consider these the last pages you’d ever write. After this, you’ll never need to write anything anymore, not a single damn page. So why don’t you consider this for now. See, people would miss you. They’ll long to hear more about you. Aren’t ten pages too short then to write everything you’ve ever wanted to say?

2. Write down the three important items you’d want to give away and to whom you’re giving it to.

3. Write a separate letter to three people that mattered most to you. Tell them why you’re thankful you’ve had them in your life. (Don’t worry, the next item won’t be about writing anymore).

4. Cry for a moment for your own passing. Well atleast you’d know somebody cried for you. Grieve over the great loss the world would feel in losing this very dear person.

5. Write down 5 good things this person has done in his/ her life. (Sorry to be back about the writing stuff. But this time, its for this special person, you know?)

6. Write down 5 more things he/ she could have done had his/her life not ended so abruptly. (No need to feel guilty here now).

7. Plant a seed, a plant or a tree in memory of this special person.

8. Create a website summarizing his life and his heart.

9. Scan some of his baby photos and paste them at the website made.

10. Compose some e-mail greetings to be sent automatically in the future to greet special people in your life. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if they could still receive greetings on their birthdays or during Christmas season from you? Go to

11. Eat your favorite food.

12. Have some vanilla ice cream.

13. Say goodbye to your pet. Buy a cute puppy if you don’t have one. And then say goodbye.

14. Make a last round of strolling about at your local market or favorite cafe. Give the people you meet there everyday a firm handshake.

15. Record your favorite song and have it burned on a CD.

16. Write down the background music you’d want to be played in your funeral.

17. Buy that dress you’ve always wanted to buy.

18. Treat your classmates to lunch.

19. Dance one last time.

20. Ride a bike one last time.

21. Buy some caged birds and then set them free

22. Reconcile with your enemies.

23. Take a cold shower.

24. Buy some fresh roses.

25. Go to a theme park, be like a child again and enjoy the rides.

26. Do some bunjee jumping. No need to be afraid now.

27. Watch some fireflies.

28. Catch some fireflies.

29. Do some wall-climbing.

30. Do some go-kart driving.

31. Taste some snow.

Like you said I don't know if I can even do this as depressed as I am. It sounds like the things I want to finish up before I die so there are some things I'll do in this list before I end it. I might write a letter explaining things but all the people that will 'miss' me will inevitably understand why I can't do this anymore. The pain is so horrible.

I've been here too many times before, sometimes I feel like nobody could ever possibly want or love me and I've felt suicidal over it. The reality is nobody will end up alone forever, as cliche as that sounds. It could take a few months or it could take years for you to find that special someone who loves you, but at the end of the day you will eventually find them. A lot of the time something won't work out for you because greater things are in the works.

I've been hurt so many times and people who seem to truly love me leave me without reason. I can't even begin to trust anyone because people I relate to, people like you...I can't even trust you...It's like I'm meant to suffer and be alone.

[Triceratops]

I've been hurt so many times and people who seem to truly love me leave me without reason. I can't even begin to trust anyone because people I relate to, people like you...I can't even trust you...It's like I'm meant to suffer and be alone.

So have I. I've been hurt, betrayed and taken advantage of more than you could ever possibly imagine. The only difference is I have wisdom and I do not allow a self-destructive attitude to take over and ruin me.

[dreamofdante]

So have I. I've been hurt, betrayed and taken advantage of more than you could ever possibly imagine. The only difference is I have wisdom and I do not allow a self-destructive attitude to take over and ruin me.

Well I'm sorry...I should be more sympathetic to you but...I've been sitting here with a bottle of bleach ever since she left. I've been very reckless for many months and I wanted to die on my 18th birthday. Things look up and then I fall so far...

[Ainsleyshea]

all I can say is think of the pain your in and then think of the grief your family will experience ........

[dreamofdante]

all I can say is think of the pain your in and then think of the grief your family will experience ........

They'll probably move on and accept that it was better than me suffering for forty or so more years.

[Ainsleyshea]

but you wont suffer for forty and if they can get over a death you can get over a loss of a girlfriend

[dreamofdante]

but you wont suffer for forty and if they can get over a death you can get over a loss of a girlfriend

It's not the loss of her per se. It's the lack of any love from a woman in my entire life. I can't live like that. The future looks so fucking bleak.

[Ainsleyshea]

but the future you cant see so there for you don't know there might be some won just round the corner

[dreamofdante]

but the future you cant see so there for you don't know there might be some won just round the corner

The same shit is going to keep happening to me. They tell me they love me then leave me in a few days. I'm tired of fucking trying.

[John566]

I've been there brother.......It's NOT the end of the world!

[dreamofdante]

I've been there brother.......It's NOT the end of the world!

Is it all that ever happens to you?

[John566]

I guess....I have been rejected a lot. I know we can't really tell true storys on here so I will just say that I recently asked out a girl who I really really liked and I got rejected. Yeah it was crappy but it's happened a lot of times to me so it doesn't bother me anymore, lol.

If you need to talk I'm here!

[dreamofdante]

I guess....I have been rejected a lot. I know we can't really tell true storys on here so I will just say that I recently asked out a girl who I really really liked and I got rejected. Yeah it was crappy but it's happened a lot of times to me so it doesn't bother me anymore, lol.

If you need to talk I'm here!

I've been rejected by over 100 at this point.

Thanks.

[Ainsleyshea]

tell me how you see in to the future ??? just give life one more chance

[dreamofdante]

tell me how you see in to the future ??? just give life one more chance

I've been giving life one more chance since 2011. I'm 18 years old and haven't even kissed a fucking girl...I wanted to die for three years and look at me. I'm in so much pain that it's amazing I can even walk...

[John566]

I've been rejected by at least 50. The key is to stop caring. I take it as it comes. If they don't want to go out with you -- so what? You sound like a good guy so it's their loss man.

No problem!

[dreamofdante]

I've been rejected by at least 50. The key is to stop caring. I take it as it comes. If they don't want to go out with you -- so what? You sound like a good guy so it's their loss man.

No problem!

I must be a piece of shit if no one wants me. I mean fuck, I've tried so hard...Nothing...

[dreamofdante]

I might as well get this over with.

[Ainsleyshea]

I've been giving life one more chance since 2011. I'm 18 years old and haven't even kissed a fucking girl...I wanted to die for three years and look at me. I'm in so much pain that it's amazing I can even walk...

you may be down now but this can only mean that you will fell better some day soon

[dreamofdante]

you may be down now but this can only mean that you will fell better some day soon

How though? I've predicted that I wouldn't get better for three years and I was right. In fact, I'm getting worse...

[John566]

I must be a piece of shit if no one wants me. I mean fuck, I've tried so hard...Nothing...

Maybe they have the problem? Not you. Can you speak to someone, a doctor, a friend, family member and tell them how you're feeling?

[dreamofdante]

Maybe they have the problem? Not you. Can you speak to someone, a doctor, a friend, family member and tell them how you're feeling?

No one seems to understand or care. And I really don't want to suffer longer because of something they do to stop me. They really have no idea how much pain I'm in.

[John566]

When did this start :confused:

[Ainsleyshea]

No one seems to understand or care. And I really don't want to suffer longer because of something they do to stop me. They really have no idea how much pain I'm in.

have you tried to talk to eny one

[dreamofdante]

When did this start :confused:

I've been depressed since I was 12 but I've been suffering since I was 6. So many bad fucking things happened to me as a kid and then the outlet I found I was really passionate about was women and how much I wanted a future with a woman and no one wants me. So that quickly got me depressed when I was 12. And I was bullied to shit. Every year I get more and more depressed.

have you tried to talk to eny one

Yeah I have. And nothing seems to be solved.

[John566]

I'm sorry man. That really sucks...

Please don't kill yourself, you're still young, things could change. You'll see.

[dreamofdante]

I'm sorry man. That really sucks...

Please don't kill yourself, you're still young, things could change. You'll see.

Bud my entire life has been nothing but bad and each year it literally gets worse for me. Not only do things not go right for me, I have PTSD from childhood neglect and a few sudden deaths that hit. It's really hard to live knowing a woman will never love you and that you'll never have beautiful children. It's just...Fuck man, life is so horrible.

[John566]

Things haven't been great for me either, but I'm still here and I think that's what counts.


Hang in there man.

[dreamofdante]

Things haven't been great for me either, but I'm still here and I think that's what counts.


Hang in there man.

I'm sorry to hear that but this pain is unbearable. It takes me over and it's all I can feel. People say you need to love yourself before a woman can but that's so not true. A woman's loving embrace is something that can save a person. But it'll never happen.

[John566]

:( Don't do it man... As I said above, you are still young. You will find someone. I know you probably hear that a lot but it's true.

[dreamofdante]

:( Don't do it man... As I said above, you are still young. You will find someone. I know you probably hear that a lot but it's true.

I hear it probably every week and I think they're wrong at this point. I'm never going to be happy and no one seems to care either.

[Ainsleyshea]

there are lots of online sites to help

[dreamofdante]

there are lots of online sites to help

I've been there, man...

[John566]

People care man. I used to think the exact same thing, but I was wrong. Who do you have in your life that you can talk to?

[dreamofdante]

People care man. I used to think the exact same thing, but I was wrong. Who do you have in your life that you can talk to?

Not really anyone. If I did, it would cause shit and I don't want to be locked up somewhere.

[John566]

What do you mean by anymore? So you did have someone to talk to? What happened to them?

Locked up for what?

[dreamofdante]

What do you mean by anymore? So you did have someone to talk to? What happened to them?

Locked up for what?

People just don't give a shit and they blow it off like it's dramatic or whatever. They don't sit down and listen to me.

For being suicidal.

[John566]

That must be hard. My dad does the exact same thing to me.

They can't arrest you for wanting to kill yourself. It's not a crime. Maybe in your country it is, I don't know.

[dreamofdante]

That must be hard. My dad does the exact same thing to me.

They can't arrest you for wanting to kill yourself. It's not a crime. Maybe in your country it is, I don't know.

I'm just so fucking alone...

I'm talking about being in a looney bin or something.

[Caver]

I'm just so fucking alone...

I'm talking about being in a looney bin or something.

well, don't say I haven't tried...

[dreamofdante]

well, don't say I haven't tried...

I know but Christ things will change in the next four years for you.

[Caver]

I know but Christ things will change in the next four years for you.

that doesn't mean I have to feel avoided.
Of course, life changes for everyone in such a long amount of time...

[dreamofdante]

that doesn't mean I have to feel avoided.
Of course, life changes for everyone in such a long amount of time...

You're not being avoided. I'm going through a lot of issues that you don't need to have in your life. I have PTSD on top of other things.

[John566]

Ok I'll just say what I was going to say in PM. I assume you have friends, am I right? What can they do to help you? Can you talk to them about these things? Are they supportive etc.?

[Caver]

You're not being avoided. I'm going through a lot of issues that you don't need to have in your life. I have PTSD on top of other things.

everyone has issues, besides i'm hardly online anymore ;3

[dreamofdante]

Ok I'll just say what I was going to say in PM. I assume you have friends, am I right? What can they do to help you? Can you talk to them about these things? Are they supportive etc.?

Their level of support amounts to telling me not to kill myself. Just cuz.

everyone has issues, besides i'm hardly online anymore ;3

I'm extremely fucked up though. You have no idea...

[Caver]

I'm extremely fucked up though. You have no idea...

I have idea. You've told me when you've spoken to me...

[dreamofdante]

I have idea. You've told me when you've spoken to me...

It's way deeper than you can imagine...You deserve way better than me.

[John566]

Ok, well maybe they aren't sure how to talk to you? I know when I was really sick my friends didn't know what to say. It wasn't anything against them, it was just that they hadn't experienced that before so they couldn't help me out. That could be why. I bet they care about you :)

[Caver]

It's way deeper than you can imagine...You deserve way better than me.

I've tried but it works both ways I suppose.

[dreamofdante]

Ok, well maybe they aren't sure how to talk to you? I know when I was really sick my friends didn't know what to say. It wasn't anything against them, it was just that they hadn't experienced that before so they couldn't help me out. That could be why. I bet they care about you :)

They don't want me to die but that's about it. Which that probably amounts to they'd feel guilty about it.

[John566]

:/ So you're saying they aren't good friends?

[Ainsleyshea]

right go to your x girlfriend and tell her how strong your love is for her

[dreamofdante]

:/ So you're saying they aren't good friends?

I'm saying they don't understand me.

right go to your x girlfriend and tell her how strong your love is for her

She already knew that when she got rid of me, man.

[Ainsleyshea]

well tell her again

[dreamofdante]

well tell her again

She doesn't want to talk to me.

[HideInPlainSight]

They pull people in for a few days for "Psychiatric Hold" to keep them from hurting themselves or others.

The fact that you're still here after everything you've been through, twelve years since you were six, six years since you were twelve, three years since you've wanted to kill yourself, it means that some part of you still wants to hold on, still wants help. That you're alive right now, that you're just breathing, it shows just how strong you are. Yeah, no one else will ever truly understand your pain, and they shouldn't lie and pretend, it's shitty and rude, but they do care, and even if no one around you will show it, you have so many people just here on VT that care about you and want you to be safe. It sucks, it's horrid, that things have played out the way they have, but there's nothing you can do about it now except react. There is no changing the past, there never will be, but you need to keep breathing, keep trying, if for no other reason than to spite everyone who has ever wanted you to stop. All the girls who have rejected you, pushed you towards unhappiness, you need to prove to them that you don't need them, that they're so unimportant that you -can- be happy without them. You are strong enough, trust me, you just have to fight it. Things have to reach their worst before they can get better again. Just like bungee jumping, you go down as far as you can, then you get yanked back up. It'll always totter between those highs and lows, but it will get better. Someday, you will find that girl, the one who spent her time looking for you, and you'll be happy. And, kids? How great would it be to tell your kids that you survived this shithole you're in? It's gonna be difficult, and it's sure as shit gonna hurt, a lot, but you can make it if you try. You have to try, though. If you give up now, you'll never get to see the end. It's like ripping a book in half and burning the last pages. Don't you want to read how ends? Because, I promise you, this isn't how the book ends. It ends with your happiness, you just have to be strong enough to keep reading. Past all the parts that make you depressed, make you want to cry or die, and, yeah, even past the little happy points. At the end, it will all be in your past, and you'll be happy, but this, here and now, this is -not- the end. Your story goes on, but you're reading the final draft. Everyone else wants to see it, read it, trust me, but you have to get through the ending first, read the last pages. You can make it that far if you try, so please, try! We're begging you to try. Sure, things are difficult now, but all the people you've been talking to, we've been stopped our day, pausing everything we were doing, to help -you-, because you matter, and you're important. Even if you can't see why yet, even if you only ever end up being important to one person, you -are- important, and you matter. Please, go put away the bleach and try to keep going. You may not know who, you may not even have met them yet, but someone out there needs you, just as much as you need them, and that should be reason enough. You will find her.

[dreamofdante]

They pull people in for a few days for "Psychiatric Hold" to keep them from hurting themselves or others.

The fact that you're still here after everything you've been through, twelve years since you were six, six years since you were twelve, three years since you've wanted to kill yourself, it means that some part of you still wants to hold on, still wants help. That you're alive right now, that you're just breathing, it shows just how strong you are. Yeah, no one else will ever truly understand your pain, and they shouldn't lie and pretend, it's shitty and rude, but they do care, and even if no one around you will show it, you have so many people just here on VT that care about you and want you to be safe. It sucks, it's horrid, that things have played out the way they have, but there's nothing you can do about it now except react. There is no changing the past, there never will be, but you need to keep breathing, keep trying, if for no other reason than to spite everyone who has ever wanted you to stop. All the girls who have rejected you, pushed you towards unhappiness, you need to prove to them that you don't need them, that they're so unimportant that you -can- be happy without them. You are strong enough, trust me, you just have to fight it. Things have to reach their worst before they can get better again. Just like bungee jumping, you go down as far as you can, then you get yanked back up. It'll always totter between those highs and lows, but it will get better. Someday, you will find that girl, the one who spent her time looking for you, and you'll be happy. And, kids? How great would it be to tell your kids that you survived this shithole you're in? It's gonna be difficult, and it's sure as shit gonna hurt, a lot, but you can make it if you try. You have to try, though. If you give up now, you'll never get to see the end. It's like ripping a book in half and burning the last pages. Don't you want to read how ends? Because, I promise you, this isn't how the book ends. It ends with your happiness, you just have to be strong enough to keep reading. Past all the parts that make you depressed, make you want to cry or die, and, yeah, even past the little happy points. At the end, it will all be in your past, and you'll be happy, but this, here and now, this is -not- the end. Your story goes on, but you're reading the final draft. Everyone else wants to see it, read it, trust me, but you have to get through the ending first, read the last pages. You can make it that far if you try, so please, try! We're begging you to try. Sure, things are difficult now, but all the people you've been talking to, we've been stopped our day, pausing everything we were doing, to help -you-, because you matter, and you're important. Even if you can't see why yet, even if you only ever end up being important to one person, you -are- important, and you matter. Please, go put away the bleach and try to keep going. You may not know who, you may not even have met them yet, but someone out there needs you, just as much as you need them, and that should be reason enough. You will find her.


There's so many people out there who never have a happy ending and are miserable like me for the rest of their lives and they end up a prime case of being a tragedy. I appreciate that you've all been trying to help me and that you care about me but how in the world could things ever get better for me when I've been trying so hard and to no avail. Each month of my life gets worse and we're only 6 days into February and I've suffered more this month than I've ever suffered before. What am I holding on for? I mean...how the hell could there be someone out there for me that is perfect? So many men die alone...Why wouldn't I be one of those? What makes me so special?

[John566]

Did your girlfriend give you any reason why she left you, or did she just leave without an explanation (happened to me before).

[dreamofdante]

Did your girlfriend give you any reason why she left you, or did she just leave without an explanation (happened to me before).

She said she wanted to be alone and all that shit but she led me on this entire time when I even asked her if I was being led on.

[John566]

Damn man, that's terrible. How long were you together?

[dreamofdante]

Damn man, that's terrible. How long were you together?

We started dating about a week ago and she said she loved me this week.

[Caver]

We started dating about a week ago and she said she loved me this week.

Oh. Now I know I was avoided...

[dreamofdante]

Oh. Now I know I was avoided...

No you weren't. I've known her from school for a while. And frankly I'm really afraid to get involved with you because of everything that has happened with distance relationships and all that sort of thing. It'll be years before anything could possibly happen.

[Caver]

No you weren't. I've known her from school for a while. And frankly I'm really afraid to get involved with you because of everything that has happened with distance relationships and all that sort of thing. It'll be years before anything could possibly happen.

Whatever.

[dreamofdante]

Whatever.

We're very different.......

[Caver]

We're very different.......

Whatever, leave me alone.

[dreamofdante]

Whatever, leave me alone.

That won't be a problem soon.

[Caver]

That won't be a problem soon.

I don't understand but okay, whatever...

[dreamofdante]

I don't understand but okay, whatever...

You definitely wouldn't like the real me. And that's what I've been hiding from you. I seem alright and happy to you but I'm a really depressing person with PTSD. I have a lot of personality flaws you don't need to be apart of. You don't like the real me and that's why I started leaving you alone more.

[Caver]

You definitely wouldn't like the real me. And that's what I've been hiding from you. I seem alright and happy to you but I'm a really depressing person with PTSD. I have a lot of personality flaws you don't need to be apart of. You don't like the real me and that's why I started leaving you alone more.

You contradicted yourself; you said you haven't been avoiding me. Make up your mind, I don't have time in my life for shit. I have to concentrate on other stuff and people are contributing to a lot of crap which is not necessary.

[John566]

Think about the good times you shared together. There must have been plenty if she said she loved you. How long were you friends before you started going out? Sometimes friendships can ruin it.

I suppose she wasn't ready for the commitment.

[dreamofdante]

You contradicted yourself; you said you haven't been avoiding me. Make up your mind, I don't have time in my life for shit. I have to concentrate on other stuff and people are contributing to a lot of crap which is not necessary.

I'm a piece of shit till the end. Just go enjoy your life...You don't want me in your life.

Think about the good times you shared together. There must have been plenty if she said she loved you. How long were you friends before you started going out? Sometimes friendships can ruin it.

I suppose she wasn't ready for the commitment.

It wasn't as peachy as you think. We were constantly wondering if we liked each other.

[Caver]

I'm a piece of shit till the end. Just go enjoy your life...You don't want me in your life.

I don't think I need anyone in my life, just one person. No one is a pile of shit.

[dreamofdante]

I don't think I need anyone in my life, just one person. No one is a pile of shit.

There's things you don't know about me that would really change your opinion of me. And I don't think you want to know. Trust me.

[Caver]

There's things you don't know about me that would really change your opinion of me. And I don't think you want to know. Trust me.

Oh thankyou, basically calling me a shallow person. Alright then!

[dreamofdante]

Oh thankyou, basically calling me a shallow person. Alright then!

I don't know how that is calling you shallow...I'm saying I have a lot of bad things you don't know about me.

[John566]

Honestly, it sounds like you're better off. If you have to wonder if you like each other, then it's not going to work out.

[Seemyheart]

Ty, you are making it sound like You're a bad person, but you're not
You'll get through this

[Caver]

I don't know how that is calling you shallow...I'm saying I have a lot of bad things you don't know about me.

Whatever, I am going to do much more important stuff now (more important than internet will ever be) Adios!

[dreamofdante]

Honestly, it sounds like you're better off. If you have to wonder if you like each other, then it's not going to work out.

Yeah I suppose but now look at me. I can't find anyone that is like me and will love me.

Ty, you are making it sound like You're a bad person, but you're not
You'll get through this

I don't think I'm a good person anymore, Molly.

[John566]

I don't know you, but you seem like a good guy. You will find someone that loves you. It might take a while, but it will happen.

[Seemyheart]

I don't think I'm a good person anymore, Molly.
You are, nothing you say or do will change my opinion that you are a good person
We talked not too long ago, and you seemed fine...and now I see this thread... I'm really sorry

[dreamofdante]

I don't know you, but you seem like a good guy. You will find someone that loves you. It might take a while, but it will happen.

Isn't it a bit sad that a girl that matches me would be a Nymphomaniac with PTSD and a dark sense of humor?

[Seemyheart]

I don't know you, but you seem like a good guy. You will find someone that loves you. It might take a while, but it will happen.

I agree with this too, Ty
It WILL happen

[dreamofdante]

You are, nothing you say or do will change my opinion that you are a good person
We talked not too long ago, and you seemed fine...and now I see this thread... I'm really sorry

It's not your fault, Molly.

I agree with this too, Ty
It WILL happen

I...I don't think so...

[Seemyheart]

you have so much time to live...and to love. I've read that this period in our lives is always the hardest, but you AREstrong enough to get through it

[dreamofdante]

you have so much time to live...and to love. I've read that this period in our lives is always the hardest, but you AREstrong enough to get through it

Things are certainly as bad as they can get for me but the problem is that I don't see them getting better. Ever. I have no future really.

[Seemyheart]

Things are certainly as bad as they can get for me but the problem is that I don't see them getting better. Ever. I have no future really.

If things are as down and bad as they can get, then there's no other direction but up. things always get better :)
There's always a future, no matter how bad it seems right now

[John566]

What Seemyheart said. Hang in there buddy.

[dreamofdante]

If things are as down and bad as they can get, then there's no other direction but up. things always get better :)
There's always a future, no matter how bad it seems right now

Things aren't looking up, Molly. And maybe I'm wrong. Things might even get worse than this. I mean yeah I'm a PTSD suffering sex hungry 18 year old but it can probably get worse. Which is something to worry about.

[John566]

If I may ask, did you sleep with your last girlfriend?

[dreamofdante]

If I may ask, did you sleep with your last girlfriend?

Sexted but no. I've never even kissed a girl, John (I assume that's your name).

[Seemyheart]

Things aren't looking up, Molly. And maybe I'm wrong. Things might even get worse than this. I mean yeah I'm a PTSD suffering sex hungry 18 year old but it can probably get worse. Which is something to worry about.

If things get worse, I'll be here.
You're not alone

[dreamofdante]

If things get worse, I'll be here.
You're not alone

Thanks Molly...

[Seemyheart]

Thanks Molly...

Anytime ty ty :)

[John566]

Yep, that's my name. I hate it!!

[dreamofdante]

Anytime ty ty :)

I hope you never feel like this. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemies. No one needs to feel this inner turmoil...My throat is sore from smelling these bleach fumes...

[Elysium]

I think I've told you this before, but this kind of thread is not allowed. My offer from last time stands: please feel free to talk to anyone instead of posting a thread. As you can see, tons of people are here to help you and nobody wants to see you kill yourself. Stay with us, yeah?

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