Primenumber
October 5th, 2015, 06:20 AM
I act so normal when i am with people. I laugh, smile, i have heard myself described as energetic. At home, alone, I cry.
I am lucky. It has stopped, but the past is still there, nothing has changed.
It's been a year. I am still scared. All the time.
Right now it's ok. Tomorrow, it might not be.
He asked me if I'm ok.
I wanted him to see. For that 1 hour i stopped pretending, i was sad. I really wanted him to notice that there is something wrong, I wouldn't be alone anymore.
But then I said I'm ok. I said it because I was just as ok as ever since he knew me. I haven't been completely ok for a long time.
I want to get help. My mom can't know, i don't want her to worry. No one knows what has become of me. I want to have that one person, I want to say it out loud.
Please help me.
I am lucky. It has stopped, but the past is still there, nothing has changed.
It's been a year. I am still scared. All the time.
Right now it's ok. Tomorrow, it might not be.
He asked me if I'm ok.
I wanted him to see. For that 1 hour i stopped pretending, i was sad. I really wanted him to notice that there is something wrong, I wouldn't be alone anymore.
But then I said I'm ok. I said it because I was just as ok as ever since he knew me. I haven't been completely ok for a long time.
I want to get help. My mom can't know, i don't want her to worry. No one knows what has become of me. I want to have that one person, I want to say it out loud.
Please help me.