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BlueFireHeart

February 3rd, 2014, 07:04 PM

chiisaiaoiryu

February 4th, 2014, 01:36 AM

[QUOTE=BlueFireHeart;2674470]I'm worthless... Everything I do is wrong... I can never do anything right... And when I think I'm actually being useful... It's for nothing. I can help... No one needs me... All I ever do is make mistakes that do nothing to help... I should just end it... I got knives, a sword... It wouldn't be hard... I could do it... Make everything easier... I'm useless... Not like it affect anything...

Would it really make things easier? Are you really as useless as you think you are? Is a knife and sword really the only thing you can turn to?

Let me let you in on a little something. I used to think that I'm pretty useless. Hell, I still think that now. People always seem to be my friend, but then we either lose connection as we get older or they move away. People always seem to ignore me whenever I open my often closed mouth. It's like I'm but a small insignificant piece of an insanely large picture.

...Yeah, I'm still a big huge emotional mess who refuses to take any kind of psychiatric help because I'm too damn stubborn. But that's not the point here. What I'm getting at is how I try to curb myself from those depressing thoughts.

I turned to fiction writing to take my mind off things. Apart from grammar and whatnot, people can't tell me that I'm wrong about what I'm writing. People can't officially judge my on what I write because it's all fiction. Fiction is meant to be what I call both right and wrong at the same time. It's meant to please and make people think about themselves if they were put in the characters' shoes.

For me, I found something to help take my mind off things. It gave me a chance to actually make people happy through something I did. I'll admit that it didn't really make me friends, but that's because I'm naturally painfully shy which hinders my ability to make friends.

Bottom line here is that you should look deep in you and discover what really captures your attention. What is it that you like to do above all else? Use it to give yourself that drive that lets you go through each day just a bit easier. And if you can't find that something that you really love to do, then try to take up writing.

I'll tell you now that writing was something that I always hated since elementary school. It wasn't until high school did I see how it was therapeutic for me to write about fictional people in a fictional world fighting against a magically fictional apocalypse. It doesn't matter whether or not you're good at writing; just writing whatever comes to mind, even if it's just a part of a story or real life dramatized, can help transport to the very world you're trying to put on paper.

But yeah, I've gone way off topic here. That's honestly just me there. But still, my main point in all this is to look deep within you and participate in things that really resonate with you. If you love sports, then play sports and work as hard as you can to get better. If you want to transport yourself to another world, then pick up a pen and paper and write down the first fantastical adventure that comes to mind. Once you get into whatever it is you're doing, you'll find yourself transported somewhere where you see that things really are better than they seem. Take it from a guy who's still an emotional mess who's somehow still running around society without the supervision of a licensed psychiatrist. It works wonders even though it doesn't sound like it will at first glance.

I do hope that you read this long and occasionally rambling response of mine. And if you need somebody to talk to, my ear's... er, my account's email rather, is always open to you.

ausley

February 4th, 2014, 02:25 AM

Dude I've been where you were just a couple weeks ago, I was at my breaking point and ready to take my life but then I realized that I had my future ahead of, a life that some dot have the chance to get and found myself starting to look at the little things not big and small. Trust me you're worth it and don't let anyone tell you you're not. I thought I had nothing, like I was frozen in place while others were moving forward around me whileI just try to get through the day just barely. my friends weren't really there, my academics were bad, I had nothing going on for me. I keep a journal and asked for the advice of fellow vtrs they honestly saved my life. Ill tell you what they told me which is... you have a great life ahead of you, you may have your ups and Downs but overall its gonna be the ups that get you through which you sometimes don't take notice in but they are there. Cherish what you have buddy if you want to be happy then you can again. smile everyday and laugh let yourself. relax and surround yourself with the people you like :)

Fanta_Lover44

February 4th, 2014, 12:26 PM

I'm worthless... Everything I do is wrong... I can never do anything right... And when I think I'm actually being useful... It's for nothing. I can help... No one needs me... All I ever do is make mistakes that do nothing to help... I should just end it... I got knives, a sword... It wouldn't be hard... I could do it... Make everything easier... I'm useless... Not like it affect anything...

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Nevermind. I'm better now...

Hey, i know you're better now but i just wanted you to know that i feel the same way, but just remember that no life is "Worthless" we are all unique and talented in our own ways, we all make mistakes, we learn from those mistakes and try not to make them again, using knives and swords to end it would be a massive waste of life, all that possible future you're destroying, meeting someone who means the world to you, throwing it all away wont help you. Think postively, i'm here if you ever need to chat. ;)