depression

[moieTRON]

ook so this is my first post.. other than a hello one.
buut i dont really know what to do anymore.
ive been seeing a therapist for awhile now
i have severe depression.. i took a "becks" [?] scale test given by my therapist and got a 50.. which she says is the worst she has had come in.
its in my family so i dont really have anything i need to change..
i went to the hospital for an overdose in september..
and the only reason they let me out was because i had every one convinced it was just an error in judgement.. so i got out the next day.. otherwise i would have stayed in their psyciatrics ward for awhile.
i started cutting in 7th grade, im in 10th now.
it used to be real light.
and now i do it maybe once or more a week..
but its really deep now.. like every one i have done within the year have needed stitches.. never got them tho.
i have talked to my mom.. she knows that i dont really even want to be alive.
she knows every thing and still doesnt help.. all she really said was "what so you can go to hell?"
i really dont know what else to do..
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[thesphinx]

Hi and welcome to VT I'm Mike :D
I can relate to your situation because I too have severe clinical depression I scored around a 45-47 I think.
Are you taking any Anti-Depressants because for such severe depression as yourself I would think they would have prescribed that?
With a combination of Medicine and Therapy I have complete control of my depression and you can too, if you haven't already talk to your doctor about Anti-Depressants they can make a big difference.
We're here for you :)