Making a move at the best girl friend or not ? (the unusual and very long story :) )

[Paaw]

Hello all,
I want to share with you my not so usual story :)
It is about this girl ( of course it is :) )
Now you got to ask yourself why is this story unusual...
well this girl i don't know for years, i knew her but never good.
She became my best friend in a few months and for a reason..
The story started in the sports club we both attended and her older brother was the "leader", i knew him far better then her but faster than i tough that changed ... She has a boyfriend that her family ( and me ) and he doesn't like me
that cleared finally let's start the story :)
She had some fights with him and was on the edge of a break up, her brother liked me and told me too get in touch with her because she had constant argues with her boyfriend... I started talking with her and we became friends
a month or two in our friendship i herd from her brother that she tried to commit suicide with pills, i was shocked...
that day i got in touch with her finally and she poured her heart our, she told me they broke up and she didn't get in the collage she wanted and broke down... She went to a psychiatrist that diagnosed her with depression and gave her some pills...
in the next few weeks we connected perfect, went for walks, messaged via facebook from the morning till we went sleeping, i finally tough i had a chance at her :)
i had here come in the sports club so later we could go home together, that day was a mess for me, all day i tough how i could make a move at her
i came early and hang out with some friends, finally she came but with her boyfriend that i tough she broke up with... I tried to play it cool and left home saying my parents needed me... that night my heart was smashed...
the next day she texted me and we started to argue ... I told her that i had feelings for her and what she did to me, she told me she had feelings for me too but now it's late...
A few fights later i fell in love even more with this girl, she resisted me the way no girl ever did but still gave me far more then every girl i knew so far...
This girl suffered from depression yet made my life better, she was all i ever searched in girls, but she had a boyfriend ...
Her fights with him continued and she always told me every time... I hated myself for being so unable to do something....
She told me she didn't friendzone me and that she still has feelings for me but she cant break up with him...
I was jealous at her relationship and all ways got in fights with here, i never knew why would she be in a relationship whit a guy she tried to kill herself for ...
it tore me apart every day but after a while i started to be just a friend to her... I went on a dinner with another girl and she wrote on my fb profile she had a great time, but that just uncovered the firsts girls jealousy ...
she didn't want to talk with me for a day, it was like i was with her in a relationship, but a relationship she had a boyfriend and i couldn't have any girls around me... We had a huge fight over it, if she wanted me to be her boyfriend or friend...
Strangely after every fight we had our bond grew...
A on Christmas we had a meeting in the club...
Her brother got a phone call, he came to me saying she tried to commit suicide again.... I called her 5 times, texted her a million times ....
She answered me the next day, poring her heart out again, saying her dad became a heavy drinker, threatening her and her mom every day ... We had a serious talk and after a few days she was better...
i recently got a job offer far from home and accepted it, i am going in a month or so...
Now the thing is we won't see us for 8 months at least and we made a deal that we will go for one last walk before i go...
Now i am in a dilemma if i should kiss her on that walk or not, i don't want to risk this thing we have and don't know how she would react i if i kissed her...
What are your toughs on this girls and guys ? :)

i am sorry if the story doesn't make sense and my English is pretty terrible too :D

[Living For Love]

I think I understood it, but you want to kiss her even when she has a boyfriend? Well, you need to understand that she chose him, even though I didn't really understand what she means by saying she "can't break up with him". Nevertheless, she has already a partner, it wouldn't be much correct if you just kissed her, even if it was a small kiss after a quick walk together. Besides, you're moving to another place due to your job, your relationship wouldn't work out so easily. So, I think it's better if you don't kiss her at all. Just tell her that you love her as a friend and that you enjoyed all the time you spent with her.

[Paaw]

oh i forgot to write that, the reason she told me why she is with him is that the night she tried to kill herself with pills, he was the one to find her... But she told me she didn't feel the old love, that it faded.... After all we went thru shes sending me mixed signals... On one hand she tells me she has a boyfriend ( and belive me i respect that... ) and on the other she constantly tells me how she isn't happy with him... I wouldn't even try to think to make her go unfaithful butt after all we went thru in this year i can say that this is the girl i love and can imagine my life with... And i'm picky :)
It isn't easy for me to watch her with a boy she isn't happy with.... I mean, having this feelings for her and she told me that she has the same feelings form me.... This isn't an easy decision but all things considered i think that I'm going to skip it :)

any other thoughts ?

[Living For Love]

oh i forgot to write that, the reason she told me why she is with him is that the night she tried to kill herself with pills, he was the one to find her... But she told me she didn't feel the old love, that it faded.... After all we went thru shes sending me mixed signals... On one hand she tells me she has a boyfriend ( and belive me i respect that... ) and on the other she constantly tells me how she isn't happy with him... I wouldn't even try to think to make her go unfaithful butt after all we went thru in this year i can say that this is the girl i love and can imagine my life with... And i'm picky :)
It isn't easy for me to watch her with a boy she isn't happy with.... I mean, having this feelings for her and she told me that she has the same feelings form me.... This isn't an easy decision but all things considered i think that I'm going to skip it :)

any other thoughts ?

I'm sure you can be a better boyfriend to her than the other guy, but still you should wait until she eventually breaks up with him. Relationships without real love and commitment always end some time, you need to wait for the opportunity, be patient and then try your luck again when she's single. You seem a determined person, don't give up on her if you think she's the right girl for you, just give it some time for now.